tiatortilla95's Journal

What a week!
Mar 20 2009 11:48

Whew!  Chaos, seriously.  Jen has been off all week and she is normally my backup, I've had to pick up some of her work this week and it has just been insane!

Just a quick check in to say hola and post my Friday weigh in!

CW: 204.8
GW: 190
GD: 4-17-09

So that means I've dropped 2 lbs this week.  And that leaves me with needing to lose 3.7 lbs per wk for the next 4 weeks!  It's ON!!!

Happy Friday All!!!

Monday Night!
Mar 16 2009 20:19

Sheesh, 8:30 and I'm making a journal entry.  Feels weird.

I'm swamped at work and prolly will be all week so won't be around much.  My counterpart is on vacation so I have her workload as well as my own! Fun.

I did great over this past weekend which is always a challenge for me!  So I'm quite proud.  I went to the gym this evening and am gonna do a lil ab work after I enter this and get the chitlens in bed.  

Hope you all have fantastic weeks!!  

And hey, where's Paula??

Still going down!
Mar 13 2009 09:53

The scale, that is.  Hard to believe but I lost a wee bit more this week, another .4 lbs, same as last week.  I can't complain about that, since I know my efforts have been, well, non-existant! But I feel motivated and re-energized to really get things moving again!  I have exactly 5 weeks til our trip and I plan on pushing myself to the max til we leave!

I've been thinking about something lately, about how I often read in fitness articles (both on CC and elsewhere) that you should never do something on a "diet" that you do not plan on doing forever.  I've believed in this theory for some time now, but I'm begining to doubt it.  In fact I think it's down right wrong!  In order to lose weight I do have to push myself harder, I have to work out more, I have to refrain from the treats, all the while knowing that this is temporary. 
Once I reach my "goal" I can back off on the exercise a little, I can have the occasional treat, not to say that I could ever go back to the way I used to eat (regular stops at the drive thru, chips and candy nearly everyday!), I know that.  I keep telling myself that I shouldn't shoot for crazy amounts of exercise becasue I will not be able keep up those kinds of workouts forever! But that's just it, I won't have to do it forever!  I will not count my calories forever.  But I can do it for say...5 weeks at a time! 
My current routine...3-4 w/o's per week, 30-45 mins a day, occasional treats, most weekends being a free for all, is a pretty comfortable maintenance schedule.  Not a very good weightloss schedule! 

I have to thank Tania for opening my eyes to this btw! So thanks Tania!

I know everyone is not going to agree with me and may even think I am "down right wrong!"  But something else I truely believe is that everyone is different when it comes to weightloss...no plan is perfect for everyone!  The key is finding what is going to work for you, and I beleive this is what has been lacking in my plans.  Afterall I've said it a million times, I am an "all or nothing" kind of person, so why not give it my all??? (then I'll have to work on the nothing part when I get there!!)

Hope everyone has a wonderful Friday!  funny, but seems like since we just had a Friday the 13th, this one isn't so Friday the 13th-ish, something gets taken away when it happens too often! weird. <---me, I know~

CW: 206.8
GW: 190
GD: 4-17-09

16.8 lbs in 5 weeks!  I got this!

Another week gone!
Mar 12 2009 10:00

Well, here we are at Thursday already!  Crazy how fast this week has gone.  It's pretty much been an unproductive week as far as weight loss goes.  The good news is I haven't gained but on the flip side that also means I have not lost. **sigh** 

Aunt Flo finally arrived on Tuesday night, about 3-4 days late!  Which got me to thinking about my supposed "PMS" that started the last weekend of February....11 days before I actually started.  Now, had I been on time as I usually am, that would have been about the 1 week prior mark...now was I really PMS'ing or did I know that I should be PMS'ing right about then, being 1 week prior, and let myself cave to laziness and junk food cravings??? 

What I do know is that maintenance won't be so bad once I finally get there!  I've worked out about 2-3 times a week for the last 2 weeks and have had a treat or indulgent food of some sort nearly everyday (sometimes twice a day!) and my weight is holding steady! HA! BUT I am no where near maintenance so I need to focus and get back on track! 

Yesterday was my first good day in a while.  I had a great workout at the gym and logged everything that went into mouth.  I will repeat that today and into the weekend!  Also something I noticed in my weight log is that for the last 2 years, I always gain in March!??  Last year was because we went to Tennessee for a week, and the year prior we went on a lil weekend getaway!  <---- I don't do very well after vacations!!!  Need to remember that after our Cali trip next month!

Oh which reminds me!!!  I got our tix to fly out there, and you will not believe how cheap I got them!!!  For all 4 of us on a direct flight, with pre-paid checked luggage (lame!) $596.00!!!  The flight was about $120 ea and $30 ea for the bags, I could not believe it!!  It's Spirit, which is one of my least favorite airlines but for that price, I'll deal with cramped seats!!!

So, I'm off to log my food for the day and then get some work done!  I will be working this weekend which totally stinks!  But the OT will be nice to save up for next month!  Yipee!!!

Did I say 2.5 lbs per week?
Mar 06 2009 10:01

Clearly I meant I was going to strive to lose less than half a pund per week, and what do ya know?? I did it!  LOL  So, considering the week I've had, I am happy to see any kind of drop.  .4 lbs was this weeks loss.  But I know exactly why and I am already on the road to amending the problem.  Last night was the first really good workout I've had since Saturday!  And there was only 1 half hearted attempt in between.  Can not let that happen again!  I need to pull it together and plow through these next 6 weeks!  I know I have it in me! 

The weather is finally warming up!  It's going to be 60 today!!!  WOW!  The weekend will be slightly cooler and rainy but thats kinda perfect cause we are taking the boys to The Natural History Museum in Ann Arbor this weekend!  Should be lots of fun.  My little one has never been and he loves dinosaurs!   He's excited.

I am promising myself to workout tonight, tomorrow and Sunday! Since I've pretty much taken all this week off! And already I know my Monday gym w/o is going to be cancelled cause I am going to have my neighbors two older girls staying at our house.  I don't think I mentioned it but she (Monique) is having a surgery to lift her bladder on Monday and she'll have to stay over night at the hospital so I offered to get the two older ones off the bus on Monday afternoon and get them off to school on Tuesday.   Really stinks cause she's going to be out of commision for prolly 4-6 weeks!  She was being a pain for a bit there (not really putting in much effort) but she really is a great motivator when she wants to be!   It's going to be hard to make myself workout on Tue/Thurs without her!!!  But I WILL!  ***side note ***just read this over and how awful am I?  She's having surgery and I'm complaining about how it's screwing things up for me!!!  I swear I am not this self absorebed!

Seems like I've been saying this a lot lately but man this week has flew!!  I can not believe it's Friday! WoooHOOOOOO!!!

CW: 207.2
GW: 190
GD: 4-17-09

That's almost 3 lbs a week! hmmmm....Maybe I should think of this more as a challenge than a goal....I hate not meeting my goals!!!!

Humpity Hump Day!
Mar 04 2009 10:40

OK, so I love when I make Grand Declarations and follow them up with Crappy Behaviors!!!!  I tend to do this a lot!  Self sabotage anyone?

Well I guess it wasn't that bad but certainly not on the road to 2.5 lbs per week!   Monday, Jen had to cancel our gym date, and I should have just gone myself, but no, I went home, and sat on the couch with a bowl of chex mix.  Ate Shepards pie for dinner and had seconds! 
I decicided not to dwell on it and just start anew on Tuesday.  I was super busy at work and barely had time to each my lunch.  Didn't eat my afternoon snack and ended up repeating Mondays offenses.  I did workout though!  Luckily Monique (neighbor) was up for a good w/o so we kicked some butt!   

I jumped on the scale this morning to take a peek and I am up 1 lb from last Friday.  Now, with the last two days of high sodium indulgences and Aunt Flow about to arrive any day, I can live with this.  I vow to be on top of my food and exercise today and tomorrow and will hope for at least a small drop on Friday! 

It is Hump Day Ladies, that's always encouraging! 

UPDATE:
Not only did Jen just cancel on me (again) for tonights gym workout, she's trying to talk me into McDonalds for lunch!!!!  I declined the lunch suggestion and I WILL GO TO THE GYM BY MYSELF TONIGHT!!!!!!!

Monday
Mar 02 2009 10:23

Feeling good this fine Monday morning!  We had so much fun on Saturday night!  We danced for hours!!  The club was so packed though, they had to be at capacity!  But we all managed to just have a great time!  We ended up leaving around 1am and walking to Buffalo Wild Wings down the street to wait for our ride and of coarse ordered food! Oh, the onion rings we to die for!  I ate way too much fried food but I think it may have been what saved me from being hung over!  We crawled into bed at about 3 am and were up by 9 to go pick up our boys!  I was so freggin tired.  We ran some errands, came home, did some laundry and I talked everyone into a little nap!  It was a nice relaxing Sunday. I did make some more poor food choices, not too bad but lots of sodium and such.  I was a liitle nervous about this mornings weigh in but much to my surprise I am down 3 lbs!  WOOHOOO!  They haven't posted the results yet, so I don't know where I stand but I feel good about it.

We've decided to take a proactive step on the califonia move.  We're planning to go out there for a week at the end of April, in hopes that Hubby will be able to get some interviews in via the placement agency he's contacted and maybe a couple of potential insider refferals.  The boys and I are tagginG along well, just because we really want to go too!  We do have a couple of passes to Disneyland that were given to the boys last year and they will expire in June, so we thought it be good for them to go out there and have some recent positive memories before we annouce the big move.  I am still really dreading this!!! 

So this has given me a new drive for weightloss!!!  Love how a trip or big event does that!  SO though I just said on Friday that I couldn't keep up such a strenuous work out routine week after week, I've changed my mind!!  I CAN if I give it my all and if I see the light at the end of the tunnel!  That's seven weeks!  I'm shooting for 17 lbs in 7 weeks, about 2.5 lbs per/wk.

Here I go!!!!  Happy Monday!!

Fantastic Friday!
Feb 27 2009 09:34

There is no doubt that there is a direct corrrelation between my mood and the number on the scale!  I try to make it not so but I truely have no control over it.  Is that sad?  Well, it is what it is, and I am one happy camper today!!!  Another pound over night!!  207.6 this morning!  That's 5 lbs since last friday!

I am trying very hard to remind myself of the "why" the scale has been so good to me this week.  And it is no doubt the exercise!  Last Satuday started it off with Jen and I doing our marathon workout day.  Got 1- one hour cardio session, then 2- 30 minute videos at home and a couple of ab routines.

Also my Monday/Wednesday at the gym I've started doing the interval training on the elliptical again, every 6 minutes I go as fast as I can (like 7.5-8.0) and keep it there for 2 mins.   Plus my workouts with my neighbor have gotten a lot better too(she's not pre-drinking anymore!LOL)
Funny, but yesterday when I got home I popped in my BL workout (only 30 mins) cause I was making chicken ceasar pizza (so yum btw) for dinner and it's a bit higher  in cals than my normal dinners so I wanted to make sure I got in enough of a burn, just in case my w/o with my neighbor was lame....um no!  She came up with this circuit training idea...we had 4 stations , one for triceps, one for bi-ceps, one for weighted squats and one on the stairs for calf raises and in between each station we'd do 2 mins of cardio (jumping jacks, jog in place, knee raises).  It was only about 30 mins but OMG it kicked my butt!!!  My thighs and rear are on fire today!

So, though I have been working out consistantly over the last 8 weeks I have NOT been getting in these kinds of workouts!  And THAT is what it's going to take to get this weight off!

That being said, I know there is NO WAY I can keep this regimen up week after week.  So I'm think I'm gonna shoot for every other week.  I'll try that this month and see where it gets me!

It is Friday ladies!  I am super excited about the weekend too!  Can't wait to go dancing tomorrow night!  And have my taco bell!!  HAHA

CW: 207.6
GW: 201
GD: 3-27-09

Hope you all have a great weekend!!!

I did it!
Feb 26 2009 09:24

I beat the cravings!  I managed to stay on track with my menu yesterday and went to the gym.  I did not get in all the cardio I wanted to though, I ended up with only about 40 mins total.  I just felt pooped!  But still this morning I had to jump on the scale.  Tomorrow is my regular Friday weigh in and my month end goal day (209), I just had to prepare myself...much to my surprise I've already met my monthly goal!!!  208.6!  WOOHOOO.  I have felt like I've been working really hard the last few weeks and the scale was not being fair, finally! 

Now the trick is to not let my mind go haywire and think "oh, now I have room to indulge!!" Just yesterday I was commenting in Gingers journal on this very subject.  I see a good number on the scale and I sclack off a bit!  Dumb, I should see a good number and say "hey, I must be doing something right, better keep it up!"  I am going to be EXTRA concsious of this over the next week for sure with ttom on the way and all. 

I did already plan on Saturday being a bit of an indulgance day though.  I will be having Taco Bell for dinner and I don't plan on ordering the fresco style crunchy tacos either! LOL  I will however earn those extra calories by getting in a good gym workout and then that evening we are going out dancing to celebrate hubby's b-day with some friends!  I can definitly count on a several hundred extra cals burned then, we normally stay on the dance floor most of the time!  The catch to that night is, I HAVE TO KEEP MY ALCOHOL CONSUMPTION TO A MINIMUM!!!  Mostly because I don't want to end up hung over on Sunday.  I think this is why my Monday BL weigh ins at work have been so bad...my weekend drinking!  Trouble is...I know this group we will be going with....there will be lot's and lot's of drinking!  And I know myself....when I get in that atmosphere and everyone's yelling "Shot SHot SHOT!"  I'm gonna do a shot!! 

Ah well, I'll just do my best and hope for the best!!! 

It is Thurday!!!  We're almost there!!!

It has begun!
Feb 25 2009 10:09

Well the PMS has officially arrived.  I've been feeling the cravings coming on for a couple of days but have managed to control them.  Until this morning that is......woke up starving, had my toast with 1 laughing cow wedge (love these btw!!wish I'd have tried thmm sooner).  Finished getting ready and had to have 2 more slices of toast with another wedge.  Got the boys on the bus, and decided the left over taco meat and spanish rice looked really good, warmed that up and wolfed in down before I could even taste it! 

Here I am at work and I should be stuffed to the gills but I am already eyeing my cottage cheese in the fridge that should be my afternoon snack!  I'm on my third cup of coffee in hopes to not eat anything else til liunch time, but I'm not promising anything!  If I can manage to get through the rest of the day without going off my menu I will still have a really good deficit cause today is gym day and I already decided I'm doing all cardio tonight!  30 - elliptical, 15 - bike, 15 - treadmill.  My burn will be 2700 and if I stay on menu (including this mornings damage) my intake will be 1850.  Trouble is, just one Sams Club banana nut muffin (that are sitting in my cupporad at home) and bam!  that deficit shrinks quickly! 

Oh, wish me luck ladies....