tiatortilla95's Journal

Who am I and what have I done with the real Tia?
Jan 14 2009 10:01

I don't know what's come over me but I am just all about the exercise these days!  I even got out of bed an hour early, did a little yoga warm up, and then a 20 minute walking video!  Knowing full well I am going to the gym after work with Jen!  WTH?  But not only that, I am actually liking it???  Looking forward to it!  I don't know what it is or where it came from but I'm holding onto it for dear life, cause boy does it feel good! 

Feeling so positive about life in general right now!  Maybe it's due to my conscious decision to try and be more positive, but seems like it'd be hard to be positive if I really wasn't feeling it? Ya know?  I just feel like this year has great things ahead, one of which is the big move!  We've decided it's a go. But with one very huge condition.....Hubby finding a job, but not any job, it has to be THE job! 

Our best case scenario would be he'd find something by say March or April, he'd go out ahead of me and the boys, then we'd come in the summer.  Worst case scenario he finds something after summer's over, he'd still go out ahead of us but that'd mean, we'd be apart till the following summer. I really don't want to take the boys out mid-year.  It will be difficult to be apart so long but the added benefit to that plan is, we'd have like 9 or 10 months of his new pay (which will be at least 25K more than now <--- that's part of the conditions) to save up for a house in cali! 

So officially, we're giving it just over a year to happen.  If by next March he still hasn't found THE job, we'll be hunkering down here for another 5-6 years before we re-visit the idea.  Fingers crossed Plan A goes through!  We haven't officially announced it to our family yet.  Told a few close friends (out there) and a couple of family members that might have potential job leads for hubby but want to wait a bit longer before we tell everyone. 

I am really dreading telling everyone here.  My Dad and Stepmom are going to be crushed!  They are so close with my boys and vice versa, that is going to be a sad sad situation!  BUT I just remind myself they're (my boys) going to be able to develope relationships now with the other grandparents, aunts, unlces and cousins that they've never really gotten to know, other than once a year on vacation!  Though it will be tough at first, I am certain they will eventually love it!

Well ladies, hope you're all having a wonderful morning!!!

Kicking the pox
Jan 12 2009 10:15

Pretty much all gone!  A few of them still itch but most are scabbed over.  I'm a lucky girl no doubt.

My weekend was quite productive.  Though I did not hop on the elliptical I pretty much stayed on my feet all day both days.  Saturday I did tons of cleaning and organinzing and some snow shoveling, then sunday I finally got all my Christams stuff put away and lugged the tubs out to our shed.  I weighed in this morning and I'm back to my early december weight of 222.  So just gonna keep on going.

Have the gym tonight with Jen, but other than that no plans for the evening.  Friday is my big boys b-day, he'll be 11, so I need to get a few things in order for that.  He wants to do a movie marathon on Friday night~ we're going to see Hotel for Dogs amd Mall Cop~ And somewhere in there we're fitting in a trip to Buffalo Wild Wings for dinner and his cake and presents!  It's gonna be tight but we'll make it work.

Well ladies, I'm gonna go crank out some work here!  Happy Monday!

Getting stuff done~
Jan 10 2009 14:58

So perhaps the cp's were a blessing in disguise?  Being cooped up has got me in a bit of a spring cleaning mood!  Went through everyones dressers and closets, got rid of stuff that doesn't fit or just never gets worn, and not to mention the many millions of unmated socks!  I was able to match about 15 pair but got rid of at least twice that many that had no companion!  Amazing how much room you have when all the crap is gone! LOL

Getting all my laundry done, that's gonna be nice!  I can't remember the last time ALL of our clothes were actually clean and put away all at once!  Sheesh.

Several of the bumps have scabbed over and as far as I can tell no new ones this morning, so on the downhill slope now! WOOHOOO!

Totally went over board last night!  Planned on making a very light tilapia and salad for dinner, but had a nasty headache when I got home and just didn't feel like cooking.  Hubby offered to bring home chinese and I accepted!  I only ordered wonton soup and a sring roll for myself which would have been fine but ended up eating about 6 fried dumplings! They're my absolute fav and Hubby ordered them thinking I'd like a couple...I can never stop at a couple!   He means well but sometimes we're just not on the same page.  I didn't calculate it on here but I'm thinking I at least broke even.  I was pretty busy at work yesterday and missed my snacks so by the time I got home I had only had about 800 cals (prolly cause of the headache!).

Anywho better get back to my laundry!  Happy saturday!!

Bach bach baaaach!
Jan 09 2009 10:16

So do you know why they're called Chicken pox?  Kinda funny actually.  Docs didn't want people to think they were as bad of a pox as small pox, so they decided to call them chicken as in the weaker or more cowardly strain. 

Still thanking the Lord I seem to be the exception to the rule!  Very managable so far.  And my face has been spared for the most part.  There are a few in the nether region that I really could live without but still not unbarable.

Well Ladies this is going to be a very short one today.  I didn't weigh in this morning, I just feel really bloated and didn't want to see a number that would throw me into a tailspin.  No gym til Monday or Tuesday so I need to be extra diligent this weekend, don't need my head screwing things up! LOL  I will dust off my old elliptical at home though, at least once.

TGIF!

I woulda bet my life on it!
Jan 08 2009 11:46

Rather embarrassing to admit but I was so sure that the chicken pox vaccine has been around for decades.  I was certain I was vacinated as a child.  So sure that when my neighbor called me a couple weeks ago to let me know her baby had chicken pox and wanted to be sure we could still workout at her house (ie making sure I'd had them already), my response was "oh, yeah, we've all been vacinated."  She questioned me, "Oh really, I didn't think you would have." And I assured her I was.

I woke up yesterday morning with about 5 or 6 bumps on my tummy.  By the time I went to bed last night I had several more and upon waking this morning, I have a good 30-40 bright red bumps covering my torso, a few scattered on my arms and legs, and several on my scalp.  Just got back from the doc and yeah, I have the chicken pox~

For the most part I feel fine.  They aren't terribly itchy, and I haven't had any of the flu like symptoms they say you get.  I have had a slight headache since Monday, but Aunt Flow arrived on Tuesday so that pretty much coulda happened anyway.  My stomachs been a little off but by no means ill.  So I'm thankful for all of that.  My doc gave me an anti-viral med that is supposed to slow the spread and severity.  Hopefully it'll be a light case and by Monday I'll be fine.

So, I'm highly contagious for at least the next 3 days and I should be avoiding the general public, but where am I at this very moment?  Work.  I called my boss after I left the doc, told her I had 'em, and that doc said I shouldn't be around people if I could avoid it, and boss says....

"yeah, but I don't think anyone's pregnant and I'm pretty sure everyone's already had them so you should be fine to come back."

No joke.  You really have to be on your death bed to not come to work.  They'd rather risk the chance of spreading it (which is 20% even if you've already had them - which I mentioned to her) than let someone stay home.  It's a family owned company, 5 siblings, and they all eat, sleep and breathe this business, and expect the same from their employees.

While I feel fine, and I really can't afford to not be at work (we get NO sick/personal time) I kinda feel guilty, like I'm spreading the virus with everything I touch. ICK.

But anyway, I'll just hope for the best!  Oh and I think I'm going to stop saying they don't itch becasue every time I do, they start to! LOL

Tuesday
Jan 06 2009 09:39

Went to the gym last night with Jen, my friend from work.  We got there just in time too!  The first of the year rush has certainly arrived!  So funny how that works. 

Well thanks to all my girlies for your comments and advice about the big move!  It's definitly something we'll think about for awhile, actually we agreed to make a decision by end of January.  He's worried his company may not even last that long!  They are surviving off a depleteing credit line, and no new contracts coming in, not a good way to run a business, eh? I'll be sure to keep you all posted~

We did our Biggest Loser weigh in yesterday here at work.  It's not pretty weighing yourself fully clothed (with shoes) in the middle of the day!  I am not posting that weight!  I'll stick to my Friday, completely nude, first thing in the morning weight! It's much easier to swallow!

So I don't know why this year is any differnet than the previous 2, but I just feel like I AM going to do it this time!  I'm so sick of saying I am, and not following through.  I want to feel good about myself, I want to feel (be) healthy, I want to be proud of my accomplishments.

The weird thing is, I really don't have that intense excitement about starting the new year and getting all gung ho about losing, I just feel like, ok...I have a good plan in place, now it's just something I need to do. 

Trying really hard to change my attitude and outlook toward life in general this year.   Thinking more positive and believing in myself.  I know the hardest part of my weight loss struggle is in my head.  My NY resolution is not to lose weight, but to be a positive person, who believes I can do anyting I put my mind to!

Happy Tuesday ladies!

It's Over!
Jan 05 2009 09:36

Ah, we made it!  We're officially on the other side of the "Holidays"!  I've been MIA, I know, and while I won't try to fool anyone into thinking I've been good, I will say I am still proud of my attempts over the last few weeks.  This is the first Holiday Season EVER that I have actullay kept up some type of exercise.  Though I'm sure the cookies, and pies and stuffed mushrooms were all way more cals than I came close to burning but I did it anyway~ And it's thanks to my neigbor I have been working out with!  She never cancelled, in fact she called me a couple times to add an extra day!  She was always so excited about it that I never had the heart to cancel on her!  It's great.  This is something I keep saying I need to work on.  Making exercise a prioroity even when I have a million things going on, and I did. 

And now it's time to kick it up a few notches!  January and February are going to be INTENSE!  My exercise plan is:

Mon, Wed, and either Fri or Sat - Gym.
Tues and Thurs - W/O with Monique (neighbor).
That Friday or Saturday that I don't go to the gym, I will w/o at home.
Sunday I will take off.

I am shooting for a 750-900 cal def daily.  My cals will range from 1400-1600. 

 With this 3 week hiatus, I know I have done some back tracking, I'm sure I've put back on what little I lost in early December, but that's ok, it will come off again!  And damn, I hope this is the last time! LOL

I am glad to be back and ready to start 2009!

LESS THAN 2 WEEKS TIL CHIRSTMAS!
Dec 12 2008 09:45

O boy, I need to get my shopping lists in order.  I have done next to NO Christmas shopping yet!  I'm usually late but this is a lil rediculous!  Our family did decide though that we are not buying for each other this year, so I really only have to shop for my boys. 
Everyone's having a pretty hard time, so to not make someone feel bad for not being able to give a gift, we're all just not gonna do it.  I know it's human nature to want to give when you get, but I wish people wouldn't make such a big deal of it.  If someone can give, it should be ok, I do understand but it stinks.  I like giving (if I'm capable), and I've been blessed to not have been hit as hard as so many people in my family with this failing economy, I'd like to spread the love!

I think I'm going to do lot's of baking, and give out goodie boxes.  We'll see.

Tomorrow we are headed to a Dickens Festival.  They turn this lil town into an "old time" theme and everyone dresses up, we've never been, but a it looks like a lot of fun.  Hope the weather cooperates!

OK, I did the deed.  I weighed in this morning, and I knew I'd like the result but I'm trying hard to not be too overly excited about this number.  222.2!  That's 5.2 lbs down from last Friday!  BUT Aunt Flow arrived last sunday which means, last Friday I was probably holding onto a lil extra water, AND this is technically only the second full week of consistant exercise and counting, and we all know those first few weeks always bring massive drops (that's how it works for me anyway).  Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to take anything away from the hard work I've been putting in, but I just want to say all these things out loud (mostly for myself) so that next week, I'm not disappointed when I don't see a 5 lb. drop.  It's things like that, that mess with my head and leads me to failure.  See, I am learning!

I also finally took measurements last nigt!  My neighbor and I did it together, made it much easier than trying to measure myself!  I'm gonna put those in a seperate post so that I can refer to it later on!

CW - 222.2 lbs.
GW - 218.0 lbs.
Goal Date - 1-2-09

Well, I'm off ladies!  Hope you all have happy, healthy weekends!!!

Almost there...
Dec 11 2008 10:24

This week is just flying by~ Awesome.

I went to the gym last night - SOLO even!  Not only that, I had planned on adding 10 mins to my normal 30 min cardio, so I could indulge in a couple of yummy carne asada tacos hubby was bringing home (he went to a Wings game, which means a stop at Del Taco, we don't have any near us).
20 mins in, I was trying to talk myself out of it.  Making excuses as to why I didn't need that much of a deficit.  I got to 30 mins and said "ok, just 5 more", then got to 35 and said, "come on it's only 5 more mins!"  And I did it! 

And then I enjoyed my tacos without an ounce of guilt! 

So, I have yet another little weightloss motivator!  Some people from work have decided that they want to start a Biggest Loser challenge in our office.  The concept is, we will all weigh in on Jan. 9 on our shop scale out back, and everyone will put in one dollar a week.  And each week the person who lost the least (based on percentages) will be eliminated and the last person will win the money!  Depending on how many people join, it could be like $100 bucks! 

I sooo got this!  It almost feels unfair, I mean besides my friend Jen, no one here has as much weight to lose as I do.  I know it's based on percentages but still, after several weeks they are going to slow down.  I mentioned that to the person who's starting it and he said "well it's voluntary, if someone doesn't think they have a chance then they shouldn't sign up!"  True.  So, I'll take their money if they wanna give it to me! LOL I was even trying to up it to $5 a week, but no one would go for it!

The only thing they "have" on me, is they've all said they are using the next few weeks to bulk up! Jen even tried to get me to do the same, well not bulk up, but she said we shouldn't try to lose any between now and then (hence the solo gym trip last night). I am sooo not going that route. There is no way I am stepping off this wagon, it's going way too fast, a girl could get hurt!

Feeling good girls, weigh in tomorrow, and I am excited to see the number! 

Hope you're all having wonderful mornings!

Wednesday
Dec 10 2008 10:48

Another workout last night! Go me!  LOL  I worked out with my neighbor, we did another Biggest Loser (that Bob is really easy on the eyes!). 

I almost jumped on the scale this morning, but managed to avoid it.  I feel really good right now, just gotta keep it going.  Trying not to focus on the why's and the what if's (why did I stop trying, what if I lose this momentum) and just concentrating on how good I feel, the energy I have and the prospect of really doing it this time. 
January will be 2 full years since I have been consciously trying to lose weight, and I hate to fail, so I will stop giving up on myself and I will succeed this time. 

I have to be willing to work (hard!) for this, and I am!  No more back tracking.  It's all down hill from here!

Happy Hump Day everyone!