tiatortilla95's Journal

Motivated on a Monday?
Dec 08 2008 10:02

That I am!  Wonderful weekend leads into a wonderful Monday!  Like how that works!
Finally got my Christmas decorations up!  I usually have it all done on Thanksgiving weekend but kept putting it on the back burner.  Although, this is the first year since we've lived here that I am not doing the outside.  Normally you can see my house from a mile away, maybe not Clark Griswold bright but definitly the brightest house on the block!  Not this year.  It really is so much work and already having lost nearly 2 weeks, I just can't bring myself to do it.  And all this snow!!!  It just keeps coming and coming.  My boys weren't as disapointed as I thought they'd be thankfully. 
But the tree is up and all my inside lights and such.  It's makes the house feel so cozy!

Heading to the gym again tonight with Jen.  Really looking forward to it!  Trying hard to not get on the scale until Friday, we'll see though!

Happy Monday!!!

Friday
Dec 05 2008 10:07

We made it!  The week is coming to a close!  WooHoo!  So I worked out with my neighbor again last night.  And it was a pretty good workout.  I've never really worked out to a DVD before, maybe once or twice but always felt I got a better w/o on an elliptical or treadmill or something, but damn!  We did one of the Biggest Loser w/o's and it was hard!  Kicked my booty that's for sure!

So I guess I'm going to be increasing my w/o's from 3 days a week to 5 days a week!  I have the tue/thur with my neighbor and my friend Jen from work has been talking about joining my gym.  We're going tonight, and she says she's gonna sign up!  And we agreed we'd go 3 days a week together.  I don't wanna jinx it, but I am a little excited!  I'm a planner, and the more things I have planned, the more focused I stay.  I'm going with it.

And I'm gonna need all the exercise I can get cause I have a rather intense goal for this month, actually the next 3 months!  The scale was down a bit from yesterday, but still higher than it should be.  I'm gonna start posting my Friday weights and monthly goals again too!  Going back to all the things that have worked before and kicking them into high gear! 

CW: 227.4
GW: 218
Goal Date: 1-2-09

Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend!!! 

Vanity.
Dec 04 2008 09:49

OK, so of coarse I want to be healthy.  I know I NEED to take care of my body so I don't end up like so many relatives with diabetes, high blood pressure/cholestoral etc.  But I will admit when I'm thinking about losing weight, about finally being thin, I think about the clothes I'll wear, or the way I will look, rather than the fact that I will be healthy.  That's not what drives me.  Maybe that's part of the problem?
I've always been the fat friend...I am usually the largest woman in the room (sometimes even the largest person period).  I don't want to be that person anymore.

I've mentioned before that a few people in my family have recently had gastric bypass surgery.  Well, one of them is a cousin that has always sorta been "my competition".  I don't know if anyone has ever had a friend or family member that just always seemed to try to one up you??  Ya know what I mean?  Most of the adults even fueled the fire by comparing us in so many ways.  It was awful.  But nonetheless it has stuck.  And I feel like I am still competing with her.  All our lives she has always been just a little bit bigger than me.  That was one thing I always had on her.  Now, she's lost nearly 80 lbs. and is probably 4-5 sizes smaller than me...I just can't let that happen .  That's the first thing.

Second, when I went to my Grandma's house for Thanksgiving, I saw several family members that I have not seen in many years.  And I lost count of how many people that said something along these lines:
"Oh, How's your sister?  Oh that Gina, she was always such a beautiful girl....oh I mean, you're both beautiful..."

I've always been the smart one.  I want to be the pretty one. My Grandma mentioned having a family reunion of sorts next summer and I really want to show up looking good! 

There they are.  My very vain reasons to lose weight.  There are actually a few smaller ones, and even one that's a bit fantastical that involves a choreographed dance routine with hubby (either the Dirty Dancing finale~minus the lift or the Saturday Night Fever competition routine!) at our Halloween party we've already announced we're having. 

All that being said, I can't even bring myself to repeat the number that was on the scale this morning.  And since it's not officailly weigh in day, I won't. However, if it is still there tomorrow, I'll log it and move on.

So glad it's Thursday!  The weekend can not come fast enough!

Toodles Ladies!

Quick hello~
Dec 03 2008 10:00

Hi girlies!  Everythings been crazy busy!  Too much to go into now (still crazy busy), but just wanted to say hello!!  I have been reading journals but no time to comment!  Miss you all!!  Think I might need to set aside time for CC at home.  It's just been getting harder and harder to get on at work! Imagine that?

The weigh in was as awful as I feared. 223.8.  And that was before the week long Thanksgiving Feast!  I'm getting back on this Friday.  I worked out with my neighbor last night and it was great.  We did work out that Thurs (the week)before Thnkasginving but skipped all of last week.  Not smart. 

But I'm getting into a groove and hitting the rest of the month pretty hard.  I need a little head start on the new year.  I have a strong feeling that this is the year I am going to do this.  I have a few (very vain) reasons that will drive me this year!  I'll get into them later!!

Gotta run!!!  Hugs to all!!!!  Hang in there girls, we are gonna do this!

Weigh in Eve....
Nov 20 2008 10:22

So tomorrow is my first weigh in in quite awhile, like more than a month I think.  I'm certainly nervous, I'm expecting major damage, but am swearing to not let it send me into a tailspin.  Instead I will use it as a motivator to get me through the rest of the year. 

My eating has been crappy all week, I haven't logged a single meal since last Friday, but I've already entered my food for today and am feeling positive. 

Tonight is supposed to be my workout date with my neighbor and I have already promised myself if she cancels on me (again) I WILL work out on my own!

Since yesterdays entry was like a mini-novel, I'll keep todays short!

Happy Thursday all!!  Oh yeah, my new profile pic was my Madonna outfit, you can't really see the boots but they were sooo 80's!!! hahaha

Who does she think she is?..Madonna?
Nov 19 2008 09:26

OK, so she is Madonna, but tell me please why an artist would have a start time of 7:30 printed on their tickets when they know good and well they are not hitting that stage until 9:30???? Should have taken your warning to heart Holly!

So we got downtown in record time, breaking just a few traffic laws!   Only to get stopped at the off ramp in bumper to bumper traffic!  After sitting for nearly 20 mins, just trying to get OFF the freeway!!!  We decide we need to find another way, cause we had to be at the Hard Rock by 7pm to get the tix from the radio people, they were leaving at that point! 
If it hadn't been 25 degrees out Jen was going to start running down the shoulder!!!  We were literally less than 2 miles away but moving only inches!
So we take a chance, make our way out of the line of cars (getting back into 70 mph traffic from a dead stop = scarry!!!) make it to the next exit hoping we can back track our way there!  We did it!  We even found parking right in front! Thinking we pulled it off, we rush inside, where the Hostess tells us the radio people were gone.  We were crushed. 
So we decide to make the best of it, we were at the Hard Rock after all (my first time!).  We sat down ordered a drink and a couple appetizers.  While we're chatting, Jen gets a call...she doesn't recognize the number...it's the radio people!!!  He is still there!! In the back, packing up and thought he'd see if she was close!!! Ummm, yes, we're here!!  So yay!  We got our tickets! 
We decide we'll finish our drinks, have our snack and then head over, not minding if we miss the begining. HA!  We hop on the shuttle, make it to the stadium at about 8:15, and see that there are still tons of people filing in??? (Apparently everyone knew of her tardiness!).  We get to our seats and think we must have just made it, surely it'll be starting any minute.............8:45, no Madonna........9pm, hmmm............9:15 a black SUV pulls up behind the stage???WTH? She can't walk to the stage??.........9:30, finally the lights shut off and the music starts!  Very nice opening! Beautiful set, awesome dancing!  But wait, no one's standing?? NO ONE in our section was standing?  A couple of girls a few rows in front of us stand about halfway through the first song and immediately we hear the people behind us, "Oh great, there's always gotta be the idiots that stand up?"  WHAT??? I have been to my fair share of concerts, and  have never SAT through one.  Now, I am a very NON-confrontational person, and Jen is even worse than me.  So, we sit.
The first several songs were new stuff, so even though I didn't know (or particularly care for) the songs, I was still very much enjoying the show!  The woman can dance!  Amazing actually! And she has to have like ZERO % body fat, but I will admit I do not think her ripped arms are very attractive, but anyway, so I'm looking around and I notice most of the stadium is just calmly watching her.  Even the people that were standing didn't seem to be into it?? Now, I know having just came from the KNOTB concert I may have a slighlty unrealistic idea of how excited a concert goer should be, but there was very little fist pumping, singing along, and dancing in the seats!  I mean, some of these people paid hundreds of dollars for these tix!  Even the floor seemed to be quieter than it should have been.  Very weird.
Finally, I hear a song I recognize!  She starts Get into The Groove! Changed it slightly but still good!  Loved the routine that went along with it! OK, so now I'm getting into it! Still sitting though.  She sings a few more new songs, some I knew, some I didn't.  Then a song starts that I think I know but not sure....It was Borderline! Yay!  But no. She competely changed it! Made it sound just like her new stuff.   It was 10:45, and we were done. 
Though I won't call it a complete disappoint, I will say I'm glad the tix we're free! 
I heard on the radio this morning that she went until about 11:30 but had no encore.  Of coarse she didn't have an encore!  Encore's happen when the crowd is going wild and brings the singer back on stage, THAT was not happening last night.

THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
         See MADONNA live in concert. = CHECK!  

True Blue Material Girl....
Nov 18 2008 11:36

I can't believe I haven't mentioned...I'm going to see Madonna tonight!!!  A co-worker, who as of late has become a closer friend, won tickets on the radio and much to my surprise is taking me!!! (That's so not why she's become such a good friend though!!!! LOL) She's a single gal who has about a bazillion friends, very active social life, so when she told me she won the tix I never even considered she'd take me.  She did admit I was 2nd choice, her sis was who she first thought of but is outta town~!!  I do not mind being second choice, if that means I'm going!!!

We get to go to a private pre-party at the Hard Rock before hand, I'm guessing that's just gonna be the radio people and winners and such but you never know!!!! hahha

I will admit I'm not a huge fan of her current stuff, but 80's Madonna????  Love her!!  Hope she sings a lot of the old stuff.
My only complaint...why a Tuesday????  WTH??  That is lame.  Gonna be hard to pull this one off! But no doubt I will  make it work!

So, my wonderful workout date with my neighbor is already running into problems.  When we first made the plan (mid last week) we were shooting for Mondays right after work.  Well by Friday she called to change it to Tue/Thurs evenings 8:30, now I was ok with this for me cause I have worked out this late in the past and had no problems with it, but I know it's not for everyone, AND I know she's an early bird.  So I agreed but mentioned my concerns.  She assured me, it was not going to be a problem. 

I then told her about tonight so right off the bat we had a conflict but agreed it is highly unusual for either of us to have anything going on on a week night.  So, we were supposed to do tonights w/o last night...she calls me at 8 and says it's just not gonna work, she had some catastophy at the photo place (took her kids for Christmas pics) and was now trying to play catch up with her evening routine.

I know that too was a fluke but, am now feeling like a burden to her.  When I first mentioned it, I was thinking a weekend morning, but she said she doesn't workout on the weekends??? So I told her I'd make whatever time she came up with work.  I'm just thinking it's gonna turn into more of a hassle, and she the type of person who won't say so, she'd feel bad for telling me, "look it's just not gonna work", but maybe I'm overreacting, I'll just wait and see I guess.  We're supposed to go on with our Thurs night meeting, just gonna hope for the best!

Better get going!

WOW it's already Wednesday!
Nov 12 2008 10:06

Yay for that!  Another busy week here at work, but I'm not complaining, really makes for a quick week.

So, I've been doing so so on the getting back on the wagon front.  I've managed to avoid fast food and pizza for nearly 3 weeks, so that feels good.  The exercise has been half hearted though, worked out twice last week and so far once this week. 
But I do now have 2 official workout dates per week.  Mondays, I'll be meeting with the neighbor I mentioned before for a 30-40 min cardio w/o, prolly a video of some sort in her basement.  Our plan is as soon as I get off work, which is just before our kids get off the bus, I'll change, head to her house, and when the kids get home, we'll set them up with some popcorn and Spongebob, and hope for the best!  It should be ok, our 2 oldest are almost 11 and then we each have a 5 yr old, but the 2 we're worried about are her youngest, 2 and 5 months!  But hopefully it'll go well.
Then Hubby and I agreed that every Wednesday evening we'll do a 10-15 min ab w/o. 
Then I'm shooting for 2-3 gym w/o's on my own (W/FR/SA).  Having a solid plan feels good.  Now to just stick to it!!!

I also need to be better with my logging.  I've been making dinners that are difficult to log so I just end up not logging them at all and I know that ends up with me eating more than I should.  I am going to check out the recipe analyzer on here to get help with that!

Hope you're all having a great Wednesday!

I love Fridays!
Nov 07 2008 09:50

This week has flown by!!!  Been so busy, I've not kept up on journals, been reading them but haven't had to time to comment!!  I really start to feel disconnected when several days pass without "talking" to my cc pals!  And that for me is the begining of a spiral, so I'm correcting that today!!  I've not worked out at all this week, so tonight I'll be heading to the gym!  I'm craving a good sweat!  (I know, that shocked even me!).

There are only 7 1/2 weeks left in the year, and I'm hoping to make the best of them.  I haven't had the courage to get back on the scale, from the way things are fitting (or not fitting I should say!) I'm afraid, I'm very afraid!  I've decided to give myself until next Friday before I assess the damage!  I'm expecting the worst and hoping for the best, then I'll be prepared right? 

I've also decided, to make a goal of 1-1.5 lbs loss per week for the remainder of the year.   Then, whatever I start the year off at, will determine what I make as my first goal.  I'm thinking I'll up my weekly goal to 2 lbs per week at the begining of the year,  but I'm getting ahead of myself, we'll just see when the time comes!

I went shopping last night with a neigbor of mine who just had her 4th baby in June and is already back to her prepregnancy weight/size (I hate her! haha j/k) I realized I need to spend more time with people like her.  I'm a bit of a follower, so when the crowd is eating McDonalds, I just don't have the will power to decline.  The problem is I don't know enough people like her! In fact she's the ONLY person I know that approaches weightloss with healthy eating and lot's of exercise!  And she does all her exercising during the day when her kids are at school, but then that means I'm at work. Maybe I can talk her into a satuday or sunday morning workout date.  I think it was Katie who mentioned the same thing recently, that when you have someone counting on you to be there to work out, it's a lot harder to skip it!  I think I'll talk to her tonight!

Well girlies, I'm off to read (and comment!) some journals!!  Have great weekends all!

Huge Success!
Nov 03 2008 10:19

The Halloween party was awesome!  We all had such a good time and the decor was pretty darn good (if I do say so myself!).  Weather was great, and no drama!  One drunk neighbor but he was a happy drunk so it was ok! LOL

Here's a link to my pics (I hope)  

http://viewmorepics.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.vi ewAlbums&friendID=24796200

Well I've got lot's to do so gonna keep this super short! Weekend was rough, eating wise, bad choices all around, but I didn't have pizza or fast food! hahaha

Feelin good today, optimistic infact, about getting back on track and STAYING there!

Happy Monday girls!  Will try to catch up on journals later!