tiatortilla95's Journal

Best Concert EVER!
Oct 27 2008 11:00

Need a lil boost in motivation??? Cure = go to a concert that takes you back to your youth and you will literally bounce off walls!!!!

Moogs - I'm totally taking your bullet method to put my thoughts down, there is just way to much to say!!

• I certainly have a new "ranking" for my 5 bad boys from bean town.
  Old List - Joe, Jordan, Jon, Donnie, Danny
  New List - Joe, Donnie, Danny, Jordan, Jon
• Joe is still and always be the love of my life, Hubby knows this and accepts it!
• Donnie was never a fav of mine back in the day, however, he has now sexified his way right up to my #2 spot!  He was always on the cocky side but where it used to be annoying teenage angst, it has turned into sexy confidence that is impossibel to ignore!!! 
• Danny, while he's still got those odd facial features, did you see those guns??  And yes, the breakdancing upped his cool factor!
• Jordan, ok even my sister who loves Jordan as much as I love Joey admitted the "open white shirt, with blowing fan (ala Michael Jackson in Dirty Diana video)" was quite gay.
• Jon - WHO?  Oh that fifth guy that sang back up...meh, he was ok.
• Screaming at the top of your lungs will instantly cause a severe headache, and massive sweats.
• They totally came up from the ground just as you described Moogs!  I unfortunately was still too far to slip Joe my number.
• It was easily the BEST Concert I have ever been to!

I really could go on and on, I had so much fun!  The bliss has still not faded.  I am feeling quite giddy this morning (gues it's already afternoon!). 

I did really well over the weekend eating wise.  Now to get my booty to the gym!!  I will be going tomorrow.  My gym plan will be Tue/Wed/Fri, with an optional weekend trip depending on plans.  I've got my food all logged for the day and looking forward to getting things back on track!

Have a great day!!!

I know what I need to do.
Oct 24 2008 09:55

I need to count, I need to keep track of my weight (at least bi-weekly) and I need to go to the gym to exercise (as opposed to at home cause I always find ways to get out of it at home).  And I will follow Katies week by week plan, I thought that 12 week chunks would be easy but it is a bit daunting to look at it like that. One week at a time, I can do that. 

 I know this time of year is always difficult for me (food wise), so I will need to be super diligent to keep things on track.  But if I start now (stop this downward spiral now!), the damamge will be minimal and I can start the year off with an edge, of already having a clean system, and hopefully that first of the year enthusiasm will kick in and I can really make some progress.  For now, I will go back to counting, exercising 3 x per week at the gym and weekly weigh ins. 

I am also going to do for a 2 week "treat free" period (I'm such a copy catter LOL) before I jump back on the scale though.  But instead of sweet treats, my damage is done with the fatty salty treats (chips, burgers, pizza, etc), so I'll keep it at no fast food, no pizza or chips for 2 weeks.  (minus a healthier subway choice and Halloween is excluded from this 2 week period )

Thanks again girls, as long as I keep coming back here for encouragement and support I know eventually I'll get it.  33rd times a charm, right?

Happy Friday!  Have great weekends all!!!

WARNING: Excuse filled whining to follow!
Oct 23 2008 11:10

I restrict too much, I fail...I restrict too little I still fail.  Where is that happy medium???  What is wrong with me??  It's simple...watch what I eat, without actually counting everything and exercise 3 times a week.  It doesn't get much easier than that. 
I have not exercised at all in the past week+ and I have been eating everything in site.  I feel terrible, I'm emotional, tired, and crabby.  Yet I don't fix what I know needs fixing.  I know what the problem is, I just can't seem to stop myself from heading down this same road.

I've been looking back through my journals and weight log and the times when I've succeeded, and actually lost, I am counting, and exercising.  So it's no big secret, I know how to do it.  In my first 6 months on cc I lost 45 lbs!  I need to do some soul serching, figure out what the real problem is because this is just getting out of hand. 

I need to count, and I need to get to the gym...PERIOD. 

I'm so tired of hearing me whine!  Sheesh.  Enough already! 

Another Monday
Oct 20 2008 10:57

Well, it's Monday again!  Time just seems to be flying right now.  Probably because I have a million things going on.  Did I mention we were having a Halloween party?  I love Halloween, and my oldest does do, he begged me to have one and I caved.  At first I said no way, there just seems to be so much to do lately I really didn't want to throw a party into the mix, but I do love having parties and we haven't had our own Hallowwen party in ages so, here we go.

  I've done most of the basic planning, I know what games we'll play, I know what I'm making, and have asked everyone to bring a dish to pass.  I have a ton of decorations already, so we're good there.  My son wants it to be super scary, but there will be lot's of little ones there and I didin't want them to be too scared, so we compromised.  We're going to make the main bathroom into something out of a horror flick!  I'm getting a clear plastic curtain to hang on the shower and we're covering the entire tub area with ketchup!  Then we'll have a "body" in there and only black light as well as a strobe light!  I'm really excited about this little project, I hope it turns out scary and not cheesy! 

Wish all my CC friends could come!!  Actually you all are invited!!  Just a small matter of getting yourselves to Michihgan!!  That's all..LOL

Hope you're all having a marvelous Monday!

Locking up the scale.
Oct 15 2008 11:20

I've decided, I'm locking up my scale.  And changing my plan up just a lil bit.  So first I'll tell you what happened....yesterday morning I jumped on the scale.  I know I vowed not to let the number be my focus, but that's just impossible for me.  I was up 3 lbs!!  I know I indulged on Saturday night but sunday and Monday I had a decent def, so at worst I was expecting to see the same number as Friday.  So, 3 lbs up and what do I do??  BINGE!  ALL DAY BINGE!!  I was in a terrible mood, mad at the world and dealt with it by eating.  Typical. I woke up with a tummy ache this morning, and still feeling grumpy so I went to the kitchen and continued eating.  By the time I was headed out the door I had already eaten a bagel with cream cheese and ham, and a bowl of cheerios w/banana.  Stuffed. I walk into the office and see donuts.  I was sitting at my desk nearly in tears because I was so angry at myself for turning into this nutjob over 3 lbs, and wanting so bad to go get a donut!! 

Instead I made a cup of coffee, took a deep breath and logged onto cc.  I wandered around the forums and came across a group in the motivation thread called the Wagon Jumpers.  How appropriate, huh?  Basically it's a support group based around the idea that they all make very simple "goals" for 12 weeks at a time, and if any individual member doesn't check in to post how they are doing, each of the other memebers are supposed to send them a "friendly" reminder of their goals.  Really it was the Group Leader that jumped out at me.  I was reading her profile and she was explaining how it's not the "how to lose weight" that she has trouble with it's the consistancy.  Not an uncommon problem, we all struggle with it.  But what I liked was her simple solution.  Based on her 12 week plan she makes goals (very similar to what I started for myself with the  program), but she's kept it very simple, only 2-3 things.  And the number one thing that she does (and I am going to completely follow suite)....NO SCALE! 
Her philosophy is, if she's meeting her goals then the weight will come off.  And once she's achieved 12 straight weeks of her ultimate goal (for her it was gym for 2 hours 4x/wk, 1500 average daily cals, maybe something else can't remember) but once she's done that consistantly for the 12 weeks she will weigh herself. 
I believe this will work for me.  I put way too much emphasis on the scale.  The 3  lbs could have been a million things and very well may have been gone today had I stayed on track and not eaten a bazillion calories in the last 24 hours!! 

I'm going to mull it over today.  Make it my own.  But one thing is for sure...Mr Scale is being locked away!  Removing his battery and putting him in the the most inconvenient place I can find.

I think my plan will mostly stay the same, I'll let you all know what I come up with, so you can all be MY accountabilty group!!! 

**EDIT**
So basically here's my new plan:

• 3 30 min cario w/o pr/wk
• 2 20 ST w/o pr/wk
• 3L h2o pr/day
• Thyroid med everyday

I dropped the no alcohol one and the deficit one.  I'm actually not going to count.  Now, I know that sounds insane but really it's a two fold reason.
One: the fewer BIG goals I attempt at a time I think the better I'll do.
Two: with the holiday season coming up, counting is going to be something I am going to dread thus more likely to just give up entirely.

The biggest change is that I am not going to weigh myself  (at all) until I've CONSISTANTLY met these weekly goals for 12 weeks in a row!  

I'm always saying I want this to be a lifestyle change and not a diet, yet I've not taken the right steps to really make these changes work for me. I throw myself into it and do more than is realistic for me to maintain in the long run. I think slow and easy is the way I need to go.  Stay positive. And stay with CC!
   

Nice weekend.
Oct 13 2008 09:51

Very nice weekend!  Seemed like it was a bit long, not that I'm complaing, I love it when that happens!  Saturday we took the boys to get their Halloween costumes, we have a lil Ninja and a scary white faced cloaked phantom (I guess).  Cute.  That night we went to a Halloween party at one of my co-workers' house.  It was lot's of fun.  I got to chat with people from work that I don't get to see much.  We stayed entirely too late and then a friend and coworker who had driven with us to the party ended up staying at our place (we both had a few too many!)  But we eneded up staying up til like 4:30am!  I had to be up by 8 to go pick up the boys and head to football!  What's worse is I had concession stand duty!!!  I somehow manged to get through the morning, and then the football game (we lost ) but as soon as I got home I hit the sack!!  Took a nice nap, and still had time to grocery shop and bbq a pork tenderloin on th grill!!  (see, seems like we just did soo much in one weekend).  I even went to work and the gym and tanning on saturday!!! 

So I definitly earned my  for the week!!  Feeling good!!! Hope you're all having a great start to a lovely week!!!

Whew, it really IS Friday! ;-p
Oct 10 2008 07:18

Getting an early start today, Hubby is taking our lil guy to the dentist, so I got to get outta the house a  bit early this morning and he'll get the boys up and ready and one off to school and the other to the dreaded appt!  Poor guy, his teeth are a mess!  We're hoping his big teeth come in in better shape.

Super happy this morning when I got on the scale! 213.2!  Last Friday I was 217!  Now what I must remind myself is that this was not some miraculous drop in the scale (though a lil of it was prolly water weight from TTOM) BUT the reason I have lost is becasue I have been consitantly sticking to my daily/weekly goals.  And if I want to continue to see a drop I must continue woking at it! Done.

Seeing as I got my butt here early to do some catching up, I better get crackin!  I'll check in again later!!!

Isn't it Friday?
Oct 09 2008 10:26

I had one of those mornings where you actually wake up thinking it's the next day, I thought it all the way through my shower and into making breakfast for the boys. Didn't realize it was really Thursday until my youngest asked when he had to go to the dentist, and after a brief panic attack (thinking it was today), I realized, DOH it's only Thursday!  Oh well, 1 more day!

This week is going really well, I am still struggling with the workouts, having to really force myself to do it!  I dragged my butt to the gym last night and funny thing is once I get going, it's great!  I feel energized and overall just puts me in a better mood!  Why oh why can't I remember that when I'm debating on working out or not!  It should be a no brainer!  Sheesh.  Baby steps...

Better get back to work!  Asta!

Missed it by one workout...
Oct 06 2008 09:17

I'm sad to say I did not achieve my 2nd .  I was really really close, and even debated on cutting myself some slack and just giving it to me anyway, but decided the slacking is what got me here in the first place.  I must be accountable and honest with myself if I want to get this right.  
I literally missed it by one workout.  I had every intention of going to the gym on Saturday after the football game (which we won again! WOOHOO), but when we got home, Hubby enticed me (he really didn't have to try that hard!) with a bonfire and a beer!  First it was just us and our boys, then one neighbor, then another and another. By nights end I had pretty much drank my weight in beer!  And then munched on everything in sight. 
Sunday came and with a wicked headache I wasted most of the morning laying in bed.  I finally got up around noon to start some much needed laundry and started helping my boys clean thier room.  It turned into an all out room overhaul!!  We ended up with 6 black trash bags full of stuff (2 for trash and 4 for donations!) And their room was still full of stuff!  It was funny, they both ended up playing in their room the entire evening playing with all the toys we found at the bottom of their toy boxes and under their bed!!  It was like Christmas in October! LOL
Anyway, though I did get quite a bit done around my house, I never ended up exercising.  So no .  But I have learned someting!  I know I need to get at least two solid workouts in during the week, especially my strength training, cause the weekends are just to iffy to trust I'll make it to the gym. That being said I already know I can't make it to the gym until Wednesday!  EEK!  That's ok, I can shoot for Wednesday and Friday, I can do that.  I will do that!  Tonight I'll ride my elliptal while I watch Heros! 
Off to make my oatmeal! 

TaTa ladies!

Saturday morning!
Oct 04 2008 09:22

Feeling great this morning!  Woke up with a lil zip in my step! Love that!  Made breakfast for my crew and about to get everyone ready for our football game!!! 
I must share with you all my very filling, very low cal (imo), super yummy breakfast...French toast!~ I had 5 (I can eat) slices! It was my lite wheat bread (80 cals - 2 slices) 4 egg whites and sugar free syrup (35 cal 1/4 cup!!).  It all came to 324 cals!  And I'm stuffed!  I couldn't believe it!  I'm not ususally a sweet eater, especially in the morning but I found that sugar free syrup was so low cal I thought I'd try it!  Glad I did! 
Well, gotta go round up my boys, hope you all have a great saturday!!!  ASTA!