tolife's Journal

Funny How Your Mind Changes Things...
Apr 05 2008 09:17

So, in my last journal I was in a funk because I thought I would have to lose a lot more weight than my initial goal of 150 to be happy.  But recently, I've been taking a good look at myself.  I'm actually starting to think that going that low (125 had come to mind) might actually look pretty silly on me.  After having lost 107 pounds - my boobs are as big as ever! 

Throughout this journey I've always felt that I looked proportionate.  Now, I'm starting to feel if I go too far, I'll look like micro Barbie - since I'm only 5'2'' and apparently have unshrinkable boobs!  Maybe loosing more isn't for me.  Maybe it doesn't matter that my belly still flops over and I jiggle a little.  Maybe I don't WANT to be skinny.

"Ideal" weight is such a strange concept.  To be able to choose what I weigh is not someting I have ever had before.  I'm searching now for how to decide - how to know what fits me best.  I feel that I am healthy even if the charts don't say so... how do I decide how far to go?