tryin2lose25's Journal

My life is changing
Nov 10 2009 15:44

I've been on this weight loss journey since Oct '07 and I was actually getting somewhere.  I was feeling so confident, and just felt good for once in my life.

Now my health is changing for the worse.  My back and leg pain is more severe now than it ever has been.  I go to the pain mgt dr on Friday and I'm demanding some treatment for this.  This is no way to live.  I'm not living. I'm just existing. I have a hard time sleeping.  Constantly looking at the clock for the time I can take more pain meds. Pitiful!

Exercise for me was walking.  And I ejoyed the time I spent outdoors.  Gave me some "me" time. Time to think and just look around town to see what was happening. Now I can't do it. 

And bc of this, I've gained weight. ALOT of weight!  20 lbs of weight!!!!  It won't budge and it's so depressing for me everytime I get on the scale.  So I stay off the damn thing.  Getting on it just once a week.  That's all I can take. 

Hope I can get this weight moving....down for once!!!!