vanessarose's Journal

I'm terrible at maintenance
Dec 01 2009 10:40

After a couple of months of attempted maintenance my weight is more or less the same give or take a pound or two, but my measurements have slowly crept back up. I'm trying hard to get to the gym but winter blahs have taken over and all I want to do is eat eat eat and sleep sleep sleep. Overeating + no exercise = very bad for my hips and thighs.

Time to kick my ass into gear again! Maybe I need to restart Jillian's 30 Day Shred, that really helped lose the inches before.

Measurements now:

31-25-35.5, 20" thighs

Goal:

31-24-34, 19" thighs

Lady Gaga!!
Nov 12 2009 11:08

Check out her butt! It looks like my butt! And she has saddlebags! I love Lady Gaga, she has the same shape as me and is damn proud of showing it off. I just watched her new video for Bad Romance and she looks amazing. Hopefully after some serious workouts I'll look as good as she does!

GOAL! (September measurements)
Sep 08 2009 09:21

For the last three days the scale as been reading 105. TOM is just ending too so I know I've been retaining some water and that number is more than likely actually correct.

Unfortunately getting to my goal was exactly as I expected. I went from being a pear to being a smaller pear with no boobs. I'm now 31-24-35 with 20" thighs. I lost 3 inches from my chest but only 2.5 from my hips, making me even more disproportionate! The last time I had boobs this small I was 13, but the last time my hips were this size I was still inches larger in my chest. I've somehow managed to change my body composition. If I tried to gain any weight back it'd all go to my hips, not my boobs.

I still have cellulite and saddlebags, and my butt is still saggy and dimply. Sigh. I'll be eating 1600 calories/day to maintain and starting some serious strength training now to try and smooth out the lumps and bumps and hopefully lose some inches off the right places without losing what very little boobs I have left!

Maintaining! yay... I guess?
Aug 31 2009 10:57

The last three months I've been pretty lazy, only halfheartedly trying to exercise and maintain a calorie deficit. I haven't lost any weight but I've done a damn good job of maintaining at about an average of 1500-1600 calories per day. So at least I know I'm at a healthy weight, but I still want to tone up my butt and get rid of these saddlebags. I think I just need to get back to the gym instead of trying to workout at home, because I'm completely unmotivated. Time to budget $100 for 3 months' membership. Sigh.

August measurements
Aug 10 2009 19:37

Still holding steady at 106 lbs, 32-25-35, 20" thighs. I still need to be more disciplined, but I'm soooo close to my goal. Then again I've been this close for a while now. I'm going to treat myself to a day at the spa when that happens so I have something to work towards!

When to stop? or... Will I ever be satisfied?
Jul 25 2009 12:33

18 months ago when I decided to lose the weight I'd slowly packed on, I had a few goals in mind: fit in my pants again, get my lower body more proportionate with my upper body, and lose the cellulite from my butt and backs of my thighs. I wanted to feel comfortable with what I saw in the mirror again, and figured losing 10 lbs (from about 118 to 108) would do it.

Then I got to 108 and found I wasn't happy yet, the only goal I'd accomplished was fitting into my pants. So I set a new goal of 105, thinking 3 more pounds would get me to the size I wanted to be. Now I'm getting close to that I'm wondering if I'll even feel good about myself at 105. My saddlebags are still there, the cellulite is only half gone, and though I know I'm not fat, when I look in the mirror I still feel like my lower body is bigger than it should be.

I'll never go below 105 because I know that anything lower than that puts me in the unhealthy BMI range, so now I'm wondering if I'm just stuck with the bumps and dimples I have. It's kind of depressing to think that, but I've promised myself not to give up. Once I'm 105 I'll eat to maintenance and start working on building muscle and losing those last few inches.

Curse you evil pear shape!!! :-)

July measurements
Jul 09 2009 11:10

After my disastrous "break" from calorie counting and exercise, I'm back up to 32 - 25.5 - 35.5, a half inch extra on my waist and hips.

To feel better about how much I've accomplished, I thought I'd make a list of what I love about having lost this much weight:

1.  Seeing my cheekbones again; I lost weight from my face first thankfully, it used to be so much rounder that I just looked puffy all the time.

2.  Having a flat stomach; when I'm not bloated my stomach is actually flat - no more pooch!

3.  Reduced cellulite; there's still a lot there but when I squeeze my butt cheeks together it doesn't look like a pile of cottage cheese, more like an orange peel.

4.  Fitting into my jeans again; it's nice not having to stuff myself into my pants, and not having to do squats and such to make them stretch to my butt after they come out of the dryer.

What I'd like to accomplish still:

• #1 priority is shrinking my hips and upper thighs so they look proportionate to the rest of my body, 34" and 19" would be perfect.
• #2 is toning up my butt, getting rid of the last bits of cellulite on the backs of my thighs.
• #3 it would be awesome to get some ab definition!

I think if I could lose 2 lbs of fat, then replace it with 2 lbs of muscle, I would be all set. Hopefully I can do that in the next 4 months or so!

Two steps forward, one step back
Jun 29 2009 09:33

When I had laser eye surgery a month and a half ago I stopped exercising during my two weeks of recovery, and never started up again. I'm so lazy that if it's not part of my weekly routine I always end up saying "I'll do it tomorrow" and then tomorrow never comes. I also stopped logging my calories, which was obviously a mistake since I'm apparently incapable of eating even to maintenance otherwise.

So I've put on a few pounds in the last few weeks (I'm scared to weigh myself, last week I was up 2 lbs), and my pants are getting tighter again. It's almost July so I think it's time for a reboot. Starting today I'm getting back into the "habits" that made my weight loss so successful - calorie logging and regular exercise!

Success means being able to wear skinny jeans
Jun 10 2009 11:02

I went shopping for clothes at Value Village this weekend and for once it wasn't an ordeal. When I was ~120 lbs I would try on 20+ pairs of jeans, then would be almost in tears when none of them came even close to fitting me. Most were too small, 3/4s wouldn't even fit past my thighs, I couldn't squeeze my butt into 5/6s or if I could the waist would be gaping by about 2 inches, and 7/8s were a little too big in the thighs and way too big at the waist.

This time the only pair that I couldn't put on and button up were size 3 Hollisters which probably run small anyways. I came home with two pairs of skinny jeans that actually fit, one's a 3/4 and one's a 26. My butt's still busting out of them a bit, and you can see a little bit of saddlebags going on, but they don't look half bad on me considering pears shouldn't wear skinny jeans at all. It's encouraging me even more to lose that last inch so they'll look even better!

June measurements
Jun 05 2009 13:13

June stats are now: 32-25-35, 19-3/4" thighs (I will take that 1/4" LOL!)

Somehow my boobs gained back 1/2" (maybe it's because it's TTOM) and I lost an inch of my waist and hips! Another inch off my hips and thighs and I can finally stop my "weight loss" phase and move into "muscle building" which will be far more fun because I finally get to boost my calories!