victoriagirl's Journal
Downwards, onwards, and duckwardsOct 16 2009 09:22
Well I was two pounds down this morning, 236.5. I am glad it's going back down but I have to admit I was kind of hoping it would ALL be gone this morning lol...yeah not very realistic.
Yesterday after work I had a strange encounter with a co-worker. I ran into her at the grocery store and was all happy to see her and started rattling on about how I bought too many groceries to carry on my bike, and her response was "have a good weekend" and walked away. It was weird. No "gee that's rough" or "good luck with that! But I gotta get going", nothing like that, just....have a good weekend. So then I had a dream last night that she was hiding from me and my former boss had moved back to town and not told me and when I ran into her she was all "oh. hello. " and sort of led me over to where my co-worker was hiding, just to make sure I knew M. was hiding from me, and I felt like no-one liked me, it was terrible. Likely just a mix of confusion over the encounter with M. at the grocery store and anxiety about the party I am going to tomorrow. It's at one of my bookclub chick's house. I will know a few people from book club but that's it, Joel will know NO ONE so what a sweetie for agreeing to come, and I know that's normal for a party, but I get terrible social anxiety over stuff like this. I feel like I should have grown out of it by now, and it IS much better than when I was younger (I used to drink A LOT to cover it up) but the fact is I am not often in social situations and tend to avoid them, I can't even remember the last time I was at a party. I am trying to cultivate some acquaintances here so was really glad to be invited...I just kinda wish it was over already lol. Sigh. I really wish I was less of a wuss.
I made a duck last night. Well I half-made a duck...I've never cooked a whole duck before so I did some internet research and decided to go with the boil, dry, roast method (like Peking duck). So last night I boiled it and now it is sitting uncovered in the fridge waiting to be roasted. It looks very unappetizing...white and pasty and the skin has these little pustules of fat erupting from it like sweat. Grooossss. I only bought it because it was $5 which seemed crazy cheap...but not so sure this is going to get eaten!! Might be only suitable for the trash...oh well you win some you lose some. I'll roast it up and see what happens, but I am thinking I will be sticking to magret de canard (duck breasts) for all my duck needs in the future.
I am going blood again on Nov. 4, yay! Some things I learned from last time:
A. Make sure you eat right before going or they will make you drink gross sugary "juice" before donating.
B. Bring some good juice and cookies for after, if I am going to calorie-load on juice and cookies I don't want it to be yucky stuff.
C. Be prepared to be super-hungry for the next few days. I'd been hoping for an extra weight loss due to a big calorie deficit from my body working to make more blood, but I ended up eating it all back and more :S...maybe with better planning I can keep some of that deficit.
D. Do not stand up too quickly for the next few days. This one is very important.
This is why I do not give blood anymore. Whole blood wipes me out for the rest of the day to the point that grocery shopping is dumb. I've tried the partial blood, but I have a reaction to the coagulent where I feel nautious. If a friend or family member needs my blood I'll give it, but otherwise I'm keeping it! Good luck with the duck, perhaps the roasting it makes all the fat crispy and fall off? Parties are socially awkward experiments. My defense is to invite or get the host/hostess to invite as many people as I know so at least I've got someone to talk to about something. The coworker is just wierd, but remember, we're all awkward dorks trying to tread that line of contact, but not too much so perhaps she was feeling bad about not offering you a ride and afraid you might ask and then she wouldn't know how to say no. |
Ugh - lately every time i type comments I have to copy them before I submit. Otherwise the pages crash and I lose everything I type! I forgot to copy this time: SO 1) I should donate blood. Its such an easy helpful thing to do. Its like the alive person version of organ donation! 2) I also hope your duck turns out - that sounds like a ton of work! |
Hi, don't worry too much about the co-worker. I myself hate running into people at the grocery store that I know, because usually I am in some big rush and no matter how much I enjoy their amazing company normally I don't want to banter in the asiles amongst the canned soup, because I'm hungry and tired and my dog wants dinner, or who even knows what. Try not to take it personally! On your duck- I feel as if you've already gone this far so might as well roast away, then see what happens. Have a great weekend and enjoy the party- I hope it's fun! |
I'm with you on the social things. I'm great around my friends, obviously, but if there are too many new people it makes me uncomfortable. I've gotten over it a LOT since moving to Korea where I knew literally no one at first but I still feel it creep up~ especially now that I've been spending most of my weekends with my boyfriend and just one or two friends at a time and not going out a lot. I also covered it up with drinking. :P |
So you can log your weight -- which allows you to do the following:
- Plot your weight curve
- Analyze the trend of your weight (see under Recent in the figure above)
- Determine the projected target date (see under Overall in the figure above)