victoriagirl's Journal

The fallout, the zombie dance and other personal achievements, and a new start
Nov 03 2009 10:47

Well the Nov 1 weigh-in was not so horrifying, only because I was already mentally prepared and armed with all your encouragement and advice. Up two and a half lbs from last month.

On Friday I chose not to go out drinking with friends, good thing since I heard after that they got stinkin drunk and I am sure I'd have been right in there. But, Joel and I did go out for Jamaican food, YUM, and that wasn't exactly low-cal. But I was still on a personal-achievement high: on Friday I gave a presentation to a group of people that I had no idea I was going to have to present to until right before...it wasn't great but I didn't die lol....my boss said I did very well but I think she was just trying to help boost my confidence for this week's panel! Still, it was a real accomplishment for me, so I am proud.

On Saturday night, J and I went to a Halloween event with his roommate K and K's gf S. It was a fun night, though started out a bit rocky....getting dressed and make-upped took longer than expected and K & S showed up earlier than expected so getting ready to leave was a real rush, I HATE feeling rushed and flustered. So when we got to the pub (a friend's band was playing there) I was already a bit out of sorts plus going somewhere totally new makes me uneasy so it took a while to shake it all off. Joel had promised our friend in the band that we would dance it up all night, so I felt really pressured to get in a dancing mood. J was even encouraging me to drink lots to hurry up and get in the mood, which is really unusual, he's not much of a drinker himself. So I tried very hard to get there, mentally, not wanting to bring everyone else down. I ended up drinking 7 vodka pepsis, which seems like it should have been enough to slam me but they must have been pretty weak, I barely felt it. We all did end up having a good time though....I pushed myself to get in the party spirit, and J and I ended up entering the dance-off contest and making the final 5 with our zombie dance lol....we had to do our dance alone on the dancefloor and the winner was chosen by audience applause. Never in my entire life would I have imagined myself voluntarily getting up in front of an entire roomful of people to dance for approval! We didn't win, some guy who could actually dance won, to be expected I guess but our costumes were a huge hit....we were a zombie bride and groom and we did such a great job on our make-up, J made me a truly grusome wound on my shoulder under my tutelage, I was so proud he did such a great job. People were fascinated and impressed and grossed out all at the same time lol. It was great!

Sunday and Monday were food disasters. Out of control. Combine pms with post-drinking munchies with back-home-alone sadness and POW. But, that's behind me now, and a new month begins, getting back on track and filled with hope for the future! Hopefully I will see December 1 in with a loss that obliterates this gain and more. I am the lizard queen, I can do anything.

Including ace my panel on Thursday. I have a lot of studying to do before then. And I am supposed to give blood tomorrow, still unsure if I should back out of that...maybe I need the extra blood for my brain.