vonnie62's Journal

back again again again ... never ending battle..
Nov 06 2009 11:26

well i have been on and off this wagon , time and time again.. this battle that i have been trying to win for the last 17 years is never ending.. i need help. i got help from my doctor that was helping when nothing else would, but guess what i can't afford it. can't win no matter what i do. i try to get to the gym, try to eat right , but how can u eat right when everyone in ur house don't !! no one likes the same foods as me and we can't afford to feed one and not the others.. so there for i have no choice, either eat what everyone else is or don't eat at all... i try and try and try... i'm at a point in my life that i'm just not happy and my weight is one of my biggest hate ridges in my life.. i get so depressed so angry so then i fall of the wagon and gain back everything and more then i had already lost.. seems like as soon as someone gives me a compliment that i have lost weight it gives me a reason to cheat on my diet ... i don't know , maybe im just a loser and i`m suppose to be fat for the rest of my life...