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A physical fight with mum
Jul 04 2009 13:16

i got into a fight with my mum..its the BIGGEST fight we ever had before.. Physically and mentally..I was crying till my eyes(or the lid) looks weird and it still hurts until today..I think my mum also cried cause her eyes also looked weird..

so, it practically happened like this..

My tuition finished at 6.05 pm but since i have walked about 5k under the sun from my home to the tuition centre, i don't feel like doing walking anymore..so i went to cyber cafe to watch online dramas. Then at 8.30pm, she called me and said 30 more minutes before she finish working..So 30minutes more i spent in Cyber but then after I waited outside like 5 minutes, she said 10 more minutes..

BUT... thats NOT what caused the argument..

You see, there's this Malay boy who is my friend..He finished tuition at 9pm and wanted to go to cyber too since someone paid him 250 to help them lvl up their characters in online game..But he is nice and think its dangerous for a girl to sit outside alone so he stayed with me.. When my mum asked me who is he, i told  her he's a friend and he stayed with me cause its dark..then, the DUMBEST me trying to strike a conversation with her, told her how when she late, she actually caused the boy his time at cyber cafe..and then she started saying he's a bad guy and i can't mingle with him anymore..Then i got mad and said he's a school friend and he's a nice guy..

Then my mum said, "nice guy? Huh! I'm warning you not to go to those place anymore..Somemore knowing guys like him, working at cyber.."

Its funny now i think about it..My mum used to said she watched us grows up and knows us pretty well..If so, and i been constantly telling her and she stills forgot..

"I DON"T TALK WITH STRANGERS!!!!"

hell, i don't even talk much with my schoolmate other than a few in my class and some of their siblings..

Then at home, she started slapping me and hitting me trying to make me talk but i refused to talk to her anymore..Its because i talk, the fight begins..What's the point of talking..Then she started yelling, "Whats the use of me working hard for you guys!!You never appreciate me!!" something like that..

I still won't talk..When she slapped me, I caught her hands and stopped her but she kept shouting and yelling and scolding..I have no more energy to deal with her and so, i let her hit me all she wants..And hell, i love the hitting..Its better than doing nothing..and then, she ORDERED me to take my bath after the fight..Hello?!We just fought!!!

So, of course, as stubborn as me(inherited from HER), i refused and stand there hugging my tuition/school bag.. SHE RIPPED IT OFF FROM ME!! and i can't do anything to hard since she's OLD!~

I'd have go bathing an hour earlier if only she give me back my backpack..but no, she said I'm not going to get it back if i don't listen to her.. So, one hour sitting on the floor, crying and stop, crying and stop..then went into my room, and started slapping myself and banging my head..Then SHE came in and pulled my brand new cool t-shirt..Too avoid the crazy woman tearing it up, i gave up and took my bath with my clothes on..Then after i changed, i sit in front of the fan with the highest power on..and at night, i slept with a knife next to me cause I was thinking about suiciding but I'm kinda afraid..

Even this morning, I ignored her completely..I went to tuition with my purse and my bank account in case she's going to shoo me out of the house..I swear, if my useless brother was at home, I'd have gone right out and never go back..

I was only afraid she might suicide..Seriously, we are related you know?