weightconsious's Journal

Binge, Cut, Can't speak
May 02 2009 14:12

sigh..i binge in last night..almost 9000calories in 2 hours!!!f**king idiot,yeah..thats me all right.. I was upset because my brother and my mum were FIGHTING again! I hate it! Why can't they just talk properly? jeez..If only my aunt marriage is not next month, I would have dig my hand with the sharpened spoon in my room..

Binge in on : 4 large cups of chocolate ice cream, 8 peanut butter sandwiches, 5 chocolate bars, 40g of Jelly Belly, Kimchi Jjigae, nuts, More bread (un-sandwich kind) and some sushi..1 fat mango and 1 fat and large banana..

shucks...I'm upset and there's no one for me when i need them..

consequences to the binge in other than OVERLOAD CALORIES INTAKE = FATS,

I can hardly speak because of all the pb and chocolates

Binge and emo is SO totally me..
Apr 26 2009 08:14

i been binging in for two days..

yesterday, for some particular reason, i felt low for a whole day..so i keep on eat and eat non stop for a few hours with most it is consider JUNK FOOD..

today at 7 am, i woke up because of a NOT-TOO-GOODNIGHT sleep..at first i thought of eating only 1 or 2 sandwiches with 4 egg white..In the end, i have 6 sandwiches, 2 egg(whole) and 2 egg white, 3 tbsp peanut butter, 1 Instant noodles with 1 poach egg and 5 Mars Pods..

Sad sad sad..

Feeling extremely useless and unmotivated
Apr 11 2009 09:15

what am i?a crazy maniac idiotic useless person..thats who i am..

3000calories for each meal last night? god..SHOOT ME!!!!ah!!!!!!

Up till today, i had a total of 35000calories..crazy huh? taking out the 14000calories of maintanence, I would most probably gain 3 kg..i thought about fasting today but on second thought, i don't want to go through the binge-fasting cycle again..sigh..I feel so useless..

15,000calories In 2 days for a dumb gal.!!
Apr 10 2009 19:33

15000kcalorie in 2 days?!!!Thats maddening!!What happens to me?!!I purge AGAIn last night and This morning I don't know what freaking devil possess me to binge in and again in the noon..I'm too stupid..What's happening to me??!!!!I thought i get out of the binging thing le, but no.. I'm just too dumb!!!!!KILL ME!!!!

Is it possible that I might be diabetec?
Apr 08 2009 15:12

I'M TOTALLY WORRIED!!!!AND ITS HURTING ME!!!

I been living mad with Snickers recently till people started to tell me to stop eating that or else i might end up getting diabetes..So, how..I don't want to that but for someone who had at least 3 large size snickers bar on top of everything else for almost 1 month..I don't think I can be define safe.

Too stupid to be alive..
Apr 06 2009 14:21

sigh..what to say..I BINGE IN AGAIN..Here goes the list..

13 white bread

1 cheese(slices,kraft)

2 60g Snickers bar

7 Hiong Peng (calories about +/- same of Julie's Peanut Butter Sandwich Cookie 1x4)

2 Mandarin oranges

1 Hershey Kisses

5 peach jelly (with REAL sugar)

About 60 seedless grape(purple)

4 pieces of Pringles like stuff

10 macadamia nut

sigh..What really upsets me isn't the calorie count but the fact that I binge out of emotion..I'm an emotional binge eater and been spending weeks trying to cure it and I really don't wish to go back to the horrible black times..See, the problem starts when I had this discussion with my mum about ME not going to school tomorrow, which is today, and after a long hot discussion, she finally agreed and so, I sms my pal and told her I finally got my mum to let me NOT go to school,and guess what, she DECIDED TO GO!!BACKSTABBERS!!!!aaaaa!!!!SO, i got pretty upset and thus eat and eat and eat till I balloon up..

I HATE EMOTIONAL BINGING !!!!!

I'm getting confuse here..
Apr 03 2009 13:02

its not good..I haven't been good this week..2 days of binging in bread..No idea of what triggers it though..But then again, i don't want to care much..Life's too short..Anyway, according to SOME article, stress might make you gain weight even though you eat little..lol..one question though,

can a 16 years 4 months old girl maintain at average 3000calories per day for a sedentary lifestyle?

B-I-N-G-E is bullshit !!!
Mar 27 2009 16:05

I binge in again..A terrible one..one that likes how i used too and I'm NOT HAPPY at all..still, i don't get upset much..Upseting about binging would only start my old binge then restrict thing and I really DON"T need it..so, 5000 calories today..big deal..ladidoo..

Binge = Bullshit

B-i-n-g-e,

What?

B-i-n-g-e,

Huh?

B-I-N-G-E is Bullshit!

Lolx..

When I say B-i-n,

you say Bull

When I say G-e

You say shit,

B-i-n

Bull

G-e,

Shit!

When I say B-i-n-g-e,

BULLSHIT!!!!

p/s : This is not suppose to upset anyone..

anyway, the reason why i binge in was because some certain lady make sure I have to sleep at 10pm when I don't really sleep and I have told her that but no, I have to be in my room..-.-''' So, I have to stuff my arse(stomach) off to get the tired and sleepy feelings..Damn it..I need to find something to do when i can't sleep which is happening like EVERY SINGLE DAY nowadays.. Help?

Binge in again..Big deal! XD
Mar 20 2009 12:25

so, i binge in today..big deal..thought about purging but decided against it..well, I think its not bad..I didn't binge in for the last 4 DAYS!!!Yay!!This is the first binge of the week and I hope its the last..I think the reason why I binge was becase I was angry..My idiotic brother took off my Cherub: The Fall book without intend to ask for my permission..ASSHOLE!! Then my mum nag nag nag again..In the end, I get frustrated and binge in sandwiches..The WHOLE LOAVES>.< That would piss my mum off since I finished all the EXPENSIVE bread and not the cheap white bread..haha..so, this was what I had.

25 pieces of macadamia nuts,

1 pack large instant noodles

2 Lollipops

14 pieces of Breakthrough bread(110 cals/2 slices)

5 tbsp peanut butter plus 2 tablespoon chilli sauce

2 Hi-5 chocolate bun (180 cals/one)

10 chewing gum, Extra brand

2 cups of vegetable (stir fry) and shiitake mushroom

2 pack of Meiji Crackers (101/one)

2 slices pineapple and 3 slices watermelon

I guess thats all..FOR LUNCH..haha..I'm such an idiot..Nvm le..I'll just pull myself up..Dieting is a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG journey anyway.. Though I gain a few pounds, I think I'm able to lose it back..

Reason :

1. A big exam year at 2009
2. Have to study but no way I'd do that at home so going to stay back like EVERYDAY..muahahaha!!!poor mum..she's going to spend 60 bucks on me per week..MUAHAHAHA

So, thats all for now..I hope the next time I wrote about binging in would be at least the sunday after this..

Is this a binge?
Mar 19 2009 06:35

so, I had a big breakfast again..let's take it as a power breakfast cause its going to last pretty long..

I started with 10 macadamia nuts and a slice of papaya then a bowl of instant noodles..suddenly feel the urge of eating bread so got some pb and whole grain bread..I ate 3 and a half sandwiches..Was about to eat four sandwiches but my stomach started screaming, "stop! you're hurting me!!" So i stopped eating and it still hurts now.

I guess this is alright huh? Not really a binge right?