wildntaken's Journal

dont know what else to do

Feb 20 2009 11:06

well here i am still stuck at 170. i have zig zagged calories, upped cals, lowered cals, upped workouts.... what else can i try?? i have been stuck at 170 for quite a few months now. starting to feel like giving up..... wishing i knew what to do.... i so want to get to my goal weight, but my body is not working with me.... how long can this last?? why am i stuck for so long?? am i dumed cause my mom n dad were very overweight and the most of my family is?? just wish i had some answers.....

FIRST POST THIS NEW YEAR

Jan 04 2009 09:49

well, here it is a brand new year. and i feel like i am stuck in la~la land. my weight loss is stuck. my treadmill died again, and my mom in hospital, what a great start to the new year...... well since christmas i have not counted my cals. but i did my workouts. now i am back to counting again. i would love to loose 30 pounds by late march or late april. before vacation.... well i did sign up again for big looser challenge. i just hope i dont let my team down.... but it is not due to the lack of trying. well good luck with loosing this year...

maybe things will calm down now??

Nov 13 2008 07:08

alot of saddness has happened here in the last 3 - 4 weeks. to start off my baby girl (toy poodle) got sick. we think she mite have had a heartack, and she got a few spunks at times. durning this time, my aunt did have a major heartack. she is finally home and recovering very good. well nite before last, baby girl took a turn for the worst. i was up with her all nite and all day yesterday. my hubby came home from work and took her from me. about a half hour later, she died in his arms. she was daddys girl! she was ~~like~~ our little girl. we had her the majortiy of her little life. we know she is better now. but still leaves a empty spot in our hearts. so while all this sickness with my aunt and poodle going on, my bro's woman left him while he was at work. so i have been his shoulder to cry on. now that my aunt is doing better, and baby girl is gone, and bro slowly getting used to being alone, maybe things will only get better. and maybe my body will let loose of some more pounds. too much stress in not good! i am not a stress eater. i just dont eat. but durning all this i have tried to eat something. and now maybe i can consintrate on me for a bit.

until next time................

hopefully on my way down again

Oct 21 2008 07:55

this morning i got on the scale and i have losted the 4 pounds that i had gained! doing the happy dance! maybe i shook my body up a bit!! looking forward to get out of the 170's. maybe by next week i will be. got my fingers crossed.... as of this morning i have lossed a total of 43 pounds!! got 57 more to go..... 43 pounds in one year...... sounds slow, but maybe it will stay off that way.

well my bro and his co workers liked his birthday cake..... wanted me to stick around for a piece. but i said no thanks, it was for bro and him friends. i have no problem passing up cake that i make, because i get sick of it while makeing it.... it was a big sheet cake that took 3 boxes of cake mixes.... and smelling it while it was bakeing smelled good but after i worked with decerating it that frosting started to get to me..... smelling too much of something good, starts to get old.... yucky smell.... when i decerate cakes, i never taste of the frosting, i let my hubby taste of it.... i know by his expression if its good....

well thats all for now.... just keep digging so i can be in the 160's next week.

i could just scream!!!

Oct 14 2008 08:53

but if i did that to loud, i would get all the dogs barking! as there is many close by! the scales are just bouncing around 174 - 177! guess i have hit that wall again! so frustrating!! wondering if it is cause of going thru the change??? i have felt bloated for the past 4 days. since the scales is jumping all around, this week i did not count calories.... just did my workout and ate healthy foods... did not work..... wondering what to do........ i had a good last chance workout yesterday, walked the treadmill 30 min. and i had a lot of boxes that needed to go upstairs.... usually hubby takes them up, but i carried them up there. i made about 20 trips up the stairs carrying boxes. i could have made fewer trips up, but i thought it would be good to make as many trips as i could.. but that didn't make the scales move either! well i going surfing to see what else i can do to break thru this stalled wall! if you got any suggestions for me, i would greatly appreciate it.

my jeans fell off of me!!

Oct 06 2008 09:17

well things are finally slowing down here. the fair is over. we had a great time and did very good!! sold out of alot of differents scents, and sold out of alot of inscent sticks. we didnt eat much of the fair food. but didnt eat much at all. i know i didnt eat my allow calories since thursday! and only got in all my water on friday. and about 1/4 on sat. and didnt get in any workouts. as we had to be up and ready at 7 a.m. and closed at 9 p.m. i did alot of standing and a little walking. and my feet was really hurting by the time we got home at midnite sat. nite. we unloaded the truck on sunday. and had to go shopping as we didnt have much food in the house. so now i getting back on track and hopefully this water weight will leave!

oh yeah, i wanted to wear jeans. i havent wore jeans since last winter. so i put my jeans on and they fell to the floor!!! my hubby started laughing at me! and said see if these fit. so i did, nope to small. so i started going thru a pile that was to small for him and i never figued i would ever get into them. but i did!!!! and my hubby said looks like they are too big do you need one of my belts?? i was so happy!! now i looking forward to seeing those hit the floor!!!

well that is about all. going to go for a walk on my treadmill.

i dread weigh in day!

Sep 14 2008 21:18

what a weekend!! hubby and i was on the go all day sat. he took me yard selling, to a fabric store (where i was in hog heaven), then to walmart to buy me a chip for my camera. he had me to pick out some new cloths, (down 2 sizes!!) and of course i got them off the clearence racks cause i didnt want to get hi $$ stuff when i am working to go down a few more sizes. then he took me to another town where we did some baby shopping.... and then took me out to dinner. i mainly filled up on salad.... but yip i had to hit the dessert bar!! this morning about 8:40 our power when out! yip ike going thru..... some rain and alot of wind! hard wind!! guess i will go out tom. and clean the limbs up that broke off. ele. came back on about 5 this evening..... well today was tuff too. nothing to eat that i didnt have to cook, we was going shopping today. no power and no water!! so only one place here in town was open..... a junk fast food.... generator back up..... so we went there and grabbed a buger..... and it tasted nasty!! but i never cared for that place anyway..... the whole county was out of power...... and towns close by was too...... boy i am glad that ordeal is over!! now we are back up and running! getting back on track!! and hopefully i wont be up too much! only 2 more weigh in for the bbl. and i am not going to meet my mini goal... i wanted to lose 20 lbs. but i now know that is not going to happen.....

as of this past tues I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 40 POUNDS!!! and it feels great!!!! and to my so called friends that are mad at me for being able to do this, to heck with ya! i do feel better...... and you could do it too if you wanted too!! so if that is the only reason for ingnoring me...... thats is your problem!! well thats all for now....... until next time......

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Sep 02 2008 08:40

well the long weekend is over. and we had a pretty good one. the family reunion was ok. saw some family that i hadnt seen in a couple of years and some kids i had never saw.... the bonfire was great. even when only 4 people showed up. we had a good time. the friends (so called) that didnt come missed a good time!! after all the activity that when on, food wise, which the food was great both days. i ended up gaining one pound. thats not too bad, i guess.... i thought it would be more after the reunion! but i did have a great selection of good foods there..... where i blew it, was on the desserts. one of my aunts makes a yummy blackberry cobbler. i had to! and i know it was more than one serving. but i dont get that kind of things every day. so i dug in. ha. the bonfire food i made all so was the good foods. and no real junk. sure there was chips, but i not a chip eater so they was there for others. so i guess i cant complain gaining one pound over the weekend. and its probley just water. or ttom. now i am back on track and staying buzy till the 4th of oct. baby shower on the 4th so i got to get this baby quilt done a week before so i can mail it. and i got to get stocked up on candles so i will have them to set up at the fair. and there is the garden still..... that almost done but enough that i got to pick still and can or freeze. well i gotta get off here and get buzy.... move, move, move, and drink my water!

i am ready to quit.

Aug 27 2008 08:59

well i am getting pretty disgusted. i have been staying pretty buzy and walking my treadmill and eatting my cals. and still not loosing very much.... maybe i am trying to hard? i dont know..... but now i want to quit! but i dont want to quit! i want to loose!! i have upped my walking time on the treadmill and had to cut it back again cause of my ankles.... my ankles stop me from doing alot of things. so maybe after the all the canning and gardening is done i will be able to up my time again... i am also getting my candles ready for the county fair... so i am on my feet picking my garden goodies and canning or feezeing them, and making candles. that is alot of time on my feet.... and doc says they will never be the same again. i thought maybe i could keep working at making them stronger and better. but i think that is a lost cause. and it really sucks cause it cant sit still! the rest of my body wants to move!! doc says they can do surgery again but he can only give me a 5% chance of it helping. i cant afford to pay for it and it not working and ins. wont pay with that low of percent. so i guess i am dumed!!

this weekend is a buzy weekend. so i guess it will be a cheat weekend.... we have a family reunion on sat and on sunday we will have our end of summer bonfire..... i am not to worried about the bonfire as i wont be drinking, i not a drinker, i mite have a couple of hot dogs that i can work into my calories for the day.... but the reunion, all the good stuff that is always there.... that i guess will be my cheat day.... then on monday we have a bbq here which i can controll my calories cause i doing the grilling.....

good luck and have a great fun weekend......

BUSTED THE WALL

Aug 21 2008 07:42

well i have once again busted that wall. lost one pound this week! and i will take that one pound loss! just 5 more pounds and i will be out of the 170's! guess my treadmill is working for me.... i have been staying so buzy with the canning and freezeing of my fresh veggies! its a rainy day here today so i will be indoors today, so i going to take a lazy day. but i will walk my treadmill. and do some house chorses..... hubby and i are having a bonfire the last sunday of this month. so i want to be down to 160 by then. wish me luck. that is 5 pounds in 10 day. so thats my mini challange for the month. but i will take all that i can lose.... just as long as it is not a gain. well till next time i find time to blog, good luck. i know i can do this!!!