Chelle 42 yr old Pagan Witch, mom of 4, living in the MidWest

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First Posts Are Always the Toughest, And a Little About Me
Sep 15 2006 18:37

I didn't even know there was a blog here til a few days ago. I am going to try and be good about putting in my thoughts, ups and downs while I am on this diet (excuse me, "new way of living").

The weight I have as my 'starting weight' (408 lbs) is actually what I weighed at when I went to the doctors in mid-August to have some bloodwork done. This is the heaviest I have been in my entire life, and sadly, even seeing those numbers didn't "inspire" me to do something it wasn't til that long, hard, emotional first weekend this September that accumulated in me having an epiphany about myself, my weight and how I got to the state that I am in. Eye-opener to say the least. And I have my daughter to thank for getting the wheels turning in my head that made me think and realize. (Thanks Becka.) So on September 3rd, I started my diet - or should I say my "new way of living". Oddly enough, I also discovered this site that day. I have to say that I don't feel negative or deprived about this diet as I have in years past. I feel good about what I am doing, and why. I am doing good about getting more water in (I was lucky if I did 1 8-oz of water a day - I'm now up to 6-8 8-oz a day!) and cutting out soda, and watching the calories and fat. Most of my days my total intake of calories have been between 1500-1700 cals, and my activity levels have been around 200-300 cals burned/day. I admit that right now I'm sedentary, however I am hoping soon (see below) that that will all change.

I am actually finding I want to step on a scale now as I have been on this diet for 12 days now. Unfortunately we don't have a scale here, and the ones that go to 400+ lbs cost a bit more than I can afford at the time being, so for now I'm just having to go based on how I feel, and how my clothes feel on me. I know it's going to take a long time before it gets to where my clothes are VERY loose on me, but at least I know I'm on my way.

Also, about 3 or 4 days ago I received a call to tell me that I had won a raffle from a local fitness club. So I now have a 2 year membership to the place, so now I have a place that I can work out, and even weigh myself (tee hee), even if just for the next year. (Will have to see, when the year is up, if I can afford to continue it.) I go next Tuesday to talk with the trainer there to set up my exercise plan, and determine what I need to work on (everything!) and the best way to go about it. As much as I don't like exercise, I'm looking forward to starting this as well. I *know* I'm gonna be hurting those first couple of weeks, but I will just keep thinking about my goal, and what I want to look like and feel like when the weight is all gone. I know, realistically, that I won't get rid of all 268 lbs in a year but maybe I can get about 40-50% of it gone! And that would be awesome!!

I am trying to stay positive about it, and if I have a 'bad' day, to just chalk it up to a bad day, or moment, and get back up and try again.

Just wanted to give a little "thanks" to everyone in the community forums here who have been great about answering questions, and being so friendly - and also to my friends at my yahoogroup that I own called Witchy Weight Loss (started about 2 years ago) for pagans who are trying to loose weight. They have been great in listening to me and offering support, friendship, and guidance. I also give big hugs and kisses to my husband (Wes), my daughter (Becka) and son (Kris) who are supporting me through this, and my other friends like Mike, Liz and Rici. Thanks.

Replies

1. mydivinesunshine
Sep 16 2006 12:00

Hi Willow Raven, Again I'm gald to have you here. The fact that you are taking you life into your hands is wonderful. Keep going, don't ever give up. I'm here to support you and give you any advice that you need. I myself need to lose 140lbs. My highest weight was 354. I'm now down to 326, it has taken some time but I remain committed to changing my life for better. Just remember you have more friends out here who understand and can give you some guidance. Sending my best, mydivinesunshine

2. deniserice
Good for you....woo-hoo
Sep 17 2006 21:32

Willow Raven,

You go girl!!! You have a good attitude about this, and I know you will succeed. We must remember that we aren't dieting...we are changing our lives forever....and that's okay. Food should not have that much control over us....we can't let it. I'm with you girl. I've lost 61 pounds since January 13, 2006. That date will forever be the day I started to live again. I still have another 20 pounds to go, but I will succeed.

If you read my profile, you will see that my older brother is the inspiration that motivated me to change. He has lost 84 pounds!! Now if we could only get our younger brother to start taking care of himself

Looking forward to getting to know you better,

Denise

3. deniserice
One more thing...
Sep 17 2006 21:35

I remember adding you to my friends list...I added mostly ladies in their fifites....I added you because I am an Okie too. I was born in Norman, Oklahoma and now live in Southeastern Oklahoma.

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