Chelle 42 yr old Pagan Witch, mom of 4, living in the MidWest
willowraven's Journal
Eh....Sep 21 2006 00:23
Today is day 17 of my diet - yay! I am happy that I have made it this far and will continue working on it.
Today was kind of 'eh' for me today. No matter what I did, I just felt very tired and just wanted to sleep. I even took a nap for a couple of hours and woke up and still was tired. Not sure what it is or if I'm just having one of my occassional "off days". I am hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. I know one of the things that got me sort of down was that my husband went to his meds appointment (he goes about once every 3 months). Now mind you, he's not on a diet, he's not on meds that will make you lose weight, and he eats pretty much whatever he wants, and yes, he weighs about 280ish - well, did. He comes back home and tells me that he LOST 11 pounds. While I am happy he lost it, I'm pissed that he is able to lose it EFFORTLESSLY while eating junk food, soda and whatnot, and I have to watch and count every calorie, cut out the stuff he is able to eat, and struggle to lose every ounce. It just isn't fair. I know men lose faster than women, but he wasn't even trying!!! Why can't I be that blessed? (Oh yea, because I never have been that blessed... long story, another time.)
I was doing good with logging my food today, and then I had a real big stresser of an argument with my daughter and husband (of course, after the news about the 11 lbs loss), which resulted in her storming off to the bedroom and my husband and oldest son leaving the house (just to get out). I hadn't eaten and it was dinnertime then, so I figured I'd leave her be, let her blow off her steam and come out when she was ready. I really wanted something comforting so I had tomato soup with a 1/4 cup shredded cheese in it. Normally I'd have a peanut butter sandwich with it, however we have about 3 spoonfuls of peanut butter left and NO bread, so I opted for saltines with a little butter on them. Granted, not the best choices, however we are at the end of the month and pickings are very slim. Later on, when the guys came back and Mike (room-mate) got home from work, they all went to Taco Bell. I was good, I declined on the food, however I did take an offer of "real" pepsi. (Haven't had it in 17 days and just wanted the caffeine!) And I found that I was willing to use my last 500 or so calories for the day for the drink. The guys came back to the house with the food, and I only had 1 bite of my husband's chalupa, and 1 bite of his taco, and I'm glad I didn't give in, because my stomach didn't even handle those 2 bites all that well. I'm not really sure how to log in those 2 bites though. The rest of the night I have been drinking water, and I had 2 rice cakes about 1/2 an hour ago, so I have still managed to stay at my 1700 calories/day range. Just not the best of choices, but at least I weighed what I chose vs. just going hog wild for the day. So I am still kind of proud of myself.
Tomorrow we will go to the gym after we pick up Rebecca from school. I figured, since we will already be out, might as well just go from there, and then we can be back in enough time to prepare dinner, which is usually started around 5:30 ish. (Wes - my husband - is a chef by trade so he does the majority of the cooking.) He has been really good about not making a lot of fried foods, and choosing to either bake, broil or grill the meat instead, and having veggies and another side dish with the meat. However, as I said before, it's the end of the month and pickings are SLIM, so we eat what we can. We pick up our Angel Food order this Saturday, so at least we'll have a little more food in the house then, and then it will be just getting to the 1st of the month, which is going to be a little tough since we are currently sitting at a negative balance. UGH. I hate being broke.
My left upper leg and hip have been hurting today - don't think it's from the bike though because then (I would think) both legs would have been hurting, and my right leg and hip are fine. I took some Aleve and then put TheraGesic on my leg. I don't know if I slept on it wrong or what, but I was mildly limping today. Hope it's better tomorrow for the gym. I did 7.5 minutes my first time on the bike - I am going to try and shoot for at least 10 minutes tomorrow. Granted, the 7.5 minutes was broken up (and wow, did it show me just *how* out of shape I really am), but I know, with time, that I'll be breezing through 10 and 20 minutes, non stop, with little effort. I just feel so OLD that I have to stop after every few minutes. But at least I start up again. When I was 160ish lbs (in my pre-children days) I had a stationery bike of my own, and I used to ride it for 60 minutes at a time... now I think "HOW did I do that?" lol
Well, hoping everyone had a good day. Keep up the good work, all!!
Today was kind of 'eh' for me today. No matter what I did, I just felt very tired and just wanted to sleep. I even took a nap for a couple of hours and woke up and still was tired. Not sure what it is or if I'm just having one of my occassional "off days". I am hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. I know one of the things that got me sort of down was that my husband went to his meds appointment (he goes about once every 3 months). Now mind you, he's not on a diet, he's not on meds that will make you lose weight, and he eats pretty much whatever he wants, and yes, he weighs about 280ish - well, did. He comes back home and tells me that he LOST 11 pounds. While I am happy he lost it, I'm pissed that he is able to lose it EFFORTLESSLY while eating junk food, soda and whatnot, and I have to watch and count every calorie, cut out the stuff he is able to eat, and struggle to lose every ounce. It just isn't fair. I know men lose faster than women, but he wasn't even trying!!! Why can't I be that blessed? (Oh yea, because I never have been that blessed... long story, another time.)
I was doing good with logging my food today, and then I had a real big stresser of an argument with my daughter and husband (of course, after the news about the 11 lbs loss), which resulted in her storming off to the bedroom and my husband and oldest son leaving the house (just to get out). I hadn't eaten and it was dinnertime then, so I figured I'd leave her be, let her blow off her steam and come out when she was ready. I really wanted something comforting so I had tomato soup with a 1/4 cup shredded cheese in it. Normally I'd have a peanut butter sandwich with it, however we have about 3 spoonfuls of peanut butter left and NO bread, so I opted for saltines with a little butter on them. Granted, not the best choices, however we are at the end of the month and pickings are very slim. Later on, when the guys came back and Mike (room-mate) got home from work, they all went to Taco Bell. I was good, I declined on the food, however I did take an offer of "real" pepsi. (Haven't had it in 17 days and just wanted the caffeine!) And I found that I was willing to use my last 500 or so calories for the day for the drink. The guys came back to the house with the food, and I only had 1 bite of my husband's chalupa, and 1 bite of his taco, and I'm glad I didn't give in, because my stomach didn't even handle those 2 bites all that well. I'm not really sure how to log in those 2 bites though. The rest of the night I have been drinking water, and I had 2 rice cakes about 1/2 an hour ago, so I have still managed to stay at my 1700 calories/day range. Just not the best of choices, but at least I weighed what I chose vs. just going hog wild for the day. So I am still kind of proud of myself.
Tomorrow we will go to the gym after we pick up Rebecca from school. I figured, since we will already be out, might as well just go from there, and then we can be back in enough time to prepare dinner, which is usually started around 5:30 ish. (Wes - my husband - is a chef by trade so he does the majority of the cooking.) He has been really good about not making a lot of fried foods, and choosing to either bake, broil or grill the meat instead, and having veggies and another side dish with the meat. However, as I said before, it's the end of the month and pickings are SLIM, so we eat what we can. We pick up our Angel Food order this Saturday, so at least we'll have a little more food in the house then, and then it will be just getting to the 1st of the month, which is going to be a little tough since we are currently sitting at a negative balance. UGH. I hate being broke.
My left upper leg and hip have been hurting today - don't think it's from the bike though because then (I would think) both legs would have been hurting, and my right leg and hip are fine. I took some Aleve and then put TheraGesic on my leg. I don't know if I slept on it wrong or what, but I was mildly limping today. Hope it's better tomorrow for the gym. I did 7.5 minutes my first time on the bike - I am going to try and shoot for at least 10 minutes tomorrow. Granted, the 7.5 minutes was broken up (and wow, did it show me just *how* out of shape I really am), but I know, with time, that I'll be breezing through 10 and 20 minutes, non stop, with little effort. I just feel so OLD that I have to stop after every few minutes. But at least I start up again. When I was 160ish lbs (in my pre-children days) I had a stationery bike of my own, and I used to ride it for 60 minutes at a time... now I think "HOW did I do that?" lol
Well, hoping everyone had a good day. Keep up the good work, all!!
Hey, You did really good with the two bites and the Pepsi....If you are too strict on yourself...you'll feel deprived and want to quit. And I know what it is like to be on a tight budget....the fattening foods are the ones that are the cheapest and go the farest. We do the Angel Food in my town...it's a good deal. I didn't walk last night...had a pain in my upper back and the nurse at school said that it was a lung. She listened to my lungs and said their wasn't much air there...don't know how she did, but I guess she knows....I have been fighting a sinus thingy, and I do know that I have a lot of congestion in my chest...If it gets worse, I'll go see the doctor. It isn't fair how men can eat more and not gain weight!!!! My husband wore a 31/33 jean....I did too... when we got married and through our 31 years of marriage he has gained some weight, but not like me...He now wears a 34/33 jean....I can too since I've lost 60 pounds..woo hoo!!! I've changed very little about his diet...he now drinks 2% milk...but I still have to fix foods he likes, which includes fried foods...I stay strong and eat a frozen diet dinner. Good job on the bike....keep it up...I'm rooting for you!!!! Gotta get ready for work. I'll check on you later. Denise P.S. I went to Filmore Elementary School , OKC when I was in Kindergarten. Do you know it? That was long ago. |
I am so proud of you!!! You are doing awesome!!!!! My hubby can cook also, but since he works full time and I stay at home, I do most of the cooking. He doesn't complain unless I get on my chicken kick and I serve it all week long. :) Great job on the bike too. The first time I got on a stationary bike (physical therapist office) I was lucky to do 7 minutes too. But I did find that each time I did it, I was able to go for longer periods. So keep up the good work. yeah, it sucks being broke. Been down that road too. One day it wont just be light at the end of the tunnel, you will actually be standing in it. :) It's like trying to loose weight, just keep making the "healthy" choices and things will get better. Did I mention I was PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!! :) Big hugs |
Youre doing great! He may be losing faster, but youre doing it healthier! and you'll be able to keep it off way easier. Hmmm .. shredded cheese in tomato soup.. never thought of that before. I must try ir someday :D |
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