Chelle 42 yr old Pagan Witch, mom of 4, living in the MidWest

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numb
Jan 21 2007 23:50

I'm just writing to let you all know that I'm here...barely, but I'm here. Don't want to go into it - mostly because I'll start crying again and don't want to. Been crying most of the day. Ground has been ripped out from under me and I don't know what to think or feel. I can't eat. I can't drink. I can barely sleep even though I'm exhausted. I know I should eat but it just gets caught in my throat. I forced a mini rice cake down about 20 mins ago, and I may have had 1/2 cup of water (and that's stretching it). Feel like my world is coming apart and I can't do anything about it. I have to wait for others to decide what they're doing. Part of me just wants to curl up in a ball and die.

I am hoping that things improve. I want it to improve. I can't think of the alternative. It's too devastating to me.

Good night.

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1. tamji
Jan 22 2007 06:26

aw hunny bunny! I'm wishing and hoping you'll let me know if there's anything I can do. Please know that there are so many people on this site that care about you.

Sweet dreams, I'm hoping everything looks brighter in the morning :D

2. hipsdontlie
Jan 22 2007 12:18

oh sweetie, i really do hope you feel better. so many people are going through so much in life and sometimes you never know it. hang in there. things will get better!

3. fauxtograph
Jan 22 2007 13:01

feel better honey, you will get through whatever is troubling you.

4. chippertoo
Jan 22 2007 13:25

Just share what you can for now. We don't need all the little details, to care about you. We are all here when you need us (((HUGS!)))

5. salome190
Jan 22 2007 13:35

****hugs**** I hope you have a better day today.

6. watergirl
Jan 22 2007 13:57

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^what salome said

7. spoiled_candy
Jan 22 2007 14:56

(((HUGGS)))
Let me know if there is anything that I can do!

8. jm101dm
Jan 22 2007 15:57

Things will get better. Attitude is everything. You can overcome this. Hope that you feel better soon, take action and make it happen. Good luck to you. Remember those 4 little ones need you to be strong.

Jeff

9. cherrim
Jan 22 2007 18:08

Sorry for the pain...remeber to take care of yourself..Attitude is everything..as Jeff said. Here's to sunny skies ahead ;-)

10. marjael
Jan 22 2007 19:18

Just sending a little strength your way...

11. sarah_11235
Jan 22 2007 20:58

{{{hugs}}} you are stronger than you think. but just for now, lending you some of my strength.

Hoping today was a better day for you <3

12. watergirl
Jan 26 2007 14:24

chelle? how you doin? hey i got your tribe invite. i registered but havent explored yet. thanks for that. been thinking about you and wondered how you were doing. hope you are feeling better than when you wrote this. hang in there, O Goddess of the Metal.

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