Chelle 42 yr old Pagan Witch, mom of 4, living in the MidWest
willowraven's Journal
Mar 19 2007 16:40Good afternoon everyone~
Just dropping in to say "hi" and let you all know that I'm here. Been lurking for the most part, and last week I wasn't around much at all. My husband's (Wes) b'day was on Weds, and I think that's the only day we didn't have something to do or some place to go. On top of everything else, my email program decided it didn't want to work anymore about 2 days ago, after the latest Windows update (which I have it on auto update) so been back and forth with the tech support trying to get it working again! LOL
I have to admit, even though I'm not going hog wild on food or anything, I'm having a very hard time trying to get back in the swing of things like I was before with my food logs, water for the day, exercise and everything. Ever since the crisis at the end of January between my husband and I, I just haven't felt the same. I've been trying, but ... I don't know. I still want to lose the weight, I know I need to lose it, I feel more miserable now than I did before about how I look and feel, yet just can't seem to get motivated. I just feel so "dead" inside, you know?
I saw my doctor beginning of this month - he is referring me to a nutritionist and an endocrinologist. He also wants me to seriously consider having the surgery (lap-band). I am not ruling it out - just want to exhaust all other options first. Will keep you posted.
I met my biological sister on 3/11. She is so great - I felt like I had known her forever! We talk once or twice on the phone each week, and pass on emails and such. She gave me a bunch of pictures of different family members, including my biological mother. It just seems so surreal. I can't really explain it. However I am *so* glad she found me. Now that I know her, I can't imagine her not being there. Her husband is really nice too - fun to talk to - and her son is pretty smart! He participates in Tae-Kwon-Do tournaments and does really well in them!
I'm still working through the loss of my friend, Dawn. I mean, logically I understand she is gone, but every once in a while I'll come upon an old email of hers (we were in some yahoogroups together) or something else pertaining to her, and it just doesn't seem real, or right. She was so young, and had so much to live for, and going for her. I feel so bad for her husband and small children. I did find out that the baby is a girl, named Ireland. Such a pretty name.
::sigh::
Ok... gotta go deal with this email thing. UGH.
Will talk to you all later!!
::hugs::
Just dropping in to say "hi" and let you all know that I'm here. Been lurking for the most part, and last week I wasn't around much at all. My husband's (Wes) b'day was on Weds, and I think that's the only day we didn't have something to do or some place to go. On top of everything else, my email program decided it didn't want to work anymore about 2 days ago, after the latest Windows update (which I have it on auto update) so been back and forth with the tech support trying to get it working again! LOL
I have to admit, even though I'm not going hog wild on food or anything, I'm having a very hard time trying to get back in the swing of things like I was before with my food logs, water for the day, exercise and everything. Ever since the crisis at the end of January between my husband and I, I just haven't felt the same. I've been trying, but ... I don't know. I still want to lose the weight, I know I need to lose it, I feel more miserable now than I did before about how I look and feel, yet just can't seem to get motivated. I just feel so "dead" inside, you know?
I saw my doctor beginning of this month - he is referring me to a nutritionist and an endocrinologist. He also wants me to seriously consider having the surgery (lap-band). I am not ruling it out - just want to exhaust all other options first. Will keep you posted.
I met my biological sister on 3/11. She is so great - I felt like I had known her forever! We talk once or twice on the phone each week, and pass on emails and such. She gave me a bunch of pictures of different family members, including my biological mother. It just seems so surreal. I can't really explain it. However I am *so* glad she found me. Now that I know her, I can't imagine her not being there. Her husband is really nice too - fun to talk to - and her son is pretty smart! He participates in Tae-Kwon-Do tournaments and does really well in them!
I'm still working through the loss of my friend, Dawn. I mean, logically I understand she is gone, but every once in a while I'll come upon an old email of hers (we were in some yahoogroups together) or something else pertaining to her, and it just doesn't seem real, or right. She was so young, and had so much to live for, and going for her. I feel so bad for her husband and small children. I did find out that the baby is a girl, named Ireland. Such a pretty name.
::sigh::
Ok... gotta go deal with this email thing. UGH.
Will talk to you all later!!
::hugs::
Just wanted to stop by and say hello and give you a hug. **hug** |
The little girls name is beautiful. I am very sorry about your friend. I know what it is like to lose a friend and I also know what it is like to meet my biological family. I have 2 half brothers and 2 half sisters and my birth mother is still living. She had never told anyone except her husband about me so when I searched her out it came as a great shock to the family. I had searched for 10 years or more when I found her. Long story. I am glad you had such a good experience. I am sure you will get back on track soon. You deserve to give yourself a pat on the back and stop being so hard on yourself. Have a good day! |
So much joy and so much sorrow. No wonder you're having a hard time feeling 'on track' and motivated. It's hard at the best of times, let alone when your life is out of whack. Take it easy, do your best. HUGS |
glad you're back around! i would much rather see you go the lap-band route than gastric bypass... i've just done so much research (obviously) and even though GB the weight comes off fast... i feel that lap-band is a far better and healthier alternative. that's what im going with, but exhausting options first, as well. if you have any questions about the surgery, feel free to private message me. |
(((HUGGS))) I am so glad that you and your sister are getting along. Your friend Dawn will come and comfort you when you need it. I hope that you plan on staying in touch with her family. They are going to need you. |
Your friend Dawn will come and comfort you when you need it. I hope that you plan on staying in touch with her family. They are going to need you. We've been trying. Wes' has some mutual friends, however Dawn's husband isn't really doing much talking or contact - he's been keeping to himself, mostly. At this point, I'm just sending energy to help them get through this difficult time. It's harder still because they're on the east coast and I'm in the midwest - about 1700 miles difference. |
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