Chelle 42 yr old Pagan Witch, mom of 4, living in the MidWest

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2 weeks today!!
Sep 17 2006 20:22

It's been 2 weeks today that I started my diet AND discovered this site, and both have been a real life saver for me! I really feel different this time around, and not feeling like I'm being deprived. The other day, on the way back home from Wal-Mart, we drove by all the 'lovely' fast food places, like Taco Bell and KFC. Normally I'd have wanted everything from those places but this time - not even a glimmer of a craving. I really think things have changed this time. I can't explain it. I have found a resolve from somewhere inside of me that I really want all this FAT gone. It isn't worth it, to me, to blow it this time by eating that food. Yea, it smelled good - but that was about it.

I haven't been able to step on a scale, which is kinda throwing me a little since I am not really knowing if I am making any progress or not. I am hoping - praying - that I am at least under the 408 lbs that I was at the doctors back in mid-August. I have been doing awesome with my water and even though I bought some Diet Coke w/Lime, I really haven't been drinking it. Amazing huh? I used to drink 4 or 5 glasses of regular Pepsi a day and now I'm barely drinking any carbonated soda at all. What's even more amazing is I really haven't had the caffeine headaches like I used to have. Life is getting good.

I can't wait til I can actually SEE and FEEL the difference in my clothes and in the mirror - then it will hit me that I'm making progress.

I go to the fitness gym this Tuesday to talk with the trainer and set up my exercise schedule/routine. I'm looking forward to this, which again is really odd for me because I have always hated exercise! I mean really, truly, hated exercise. I know I'm still not fond of it, however if it is going to help me lose weight, tone up, and get to my goal, then so be it. I just keep picturing my "goal look/weight" if I even think of wanting anything that my body really doesn't need.

Wow... 2 weeks and not even a glimmer of wanting to give up. Who'd-a thunk??

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Didn't Do Too Bad
Sep 17 2006 00:01

I kinda figured that today, being Saturday, was gonna be a 'free day' for me, however I am currently sitting at just a little over 1100 cals for the day which means not only did I not go over my allotted cals (I try to stay between 1500-1700 cals/day), I am actually UNDER. I will have to go find a snack LOL I have been drinking down my water, and did about 1/2 an hr or so of housecleaning, and logged that into my activities (I claimed sedentary as my usual activity level, which is true).

Just touching base and hoping everyone else is having a good weekend.
:: hugs :: to you all....

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First Posts Are Always the Toughest, And a Little About Me
Sep 15 2006 18:37

I didn't even know there was a blog here til a few days ago. I am going to try and be good about putting in my thoughts, ups and downs while I am on this diet (excuse me, "new way of living").

The weight I have as my 'starting weight' (408 lbs) is actually what I weighed at when I went to the doctors in mid-August to have some bloodwork done. This is the heaviest I have been in my entire life, and sadly, even seeing those numbers didn't "inspire" me to do something it wasn't til that long, hard, emotional first weekend this September that accumulated in me having an epiphany about myself, my weight and how I got to the state that I am in. Eye-opener to say the least. And I have my daughter to thank for getting the wheels turning in my head that made me think and realize. (Thanks Becka.) So on September 3rd, I started my diet - or should I say my "new way of living". Oddly enough, I also discovered this site that day. I have to say that I don't feel negative or deprived about this diet as I have in years past. I feel good about what I am doing, and why. I am doing good about getting more water in (I was lucky if I did 1 8-oz of water a day - I'm now up to 6-8 8-oz a day!) and cutting out soda, and watching the calories and fat. Most of my days my total intake of calories have been between 1500-1700 cals, and my activity levels have been around 200-300 cals burned/day. I admit that right now I'm sedentary, however I am hoping soon (see below) that that will all change.

I am actually finding I want to step on a scale now as I have been on this diet for 12 days now. Unfortunately we don't have a scale here, and the ones that go to 400+ lbs cost a bit more than I can afford at the time being, so for now I'm just having to go based on how I feel, and how my clothes feel on me. I know it's going to take a long time before it gets to where my clothes are VERY loose on me, but at least I know I'm on my way.

Also, about 3 or 4 days ago I received a call to tell me that I had won a raffle from a local fitness club. So I now have a 2 year membership to the place, so now I have a place that I can work out, and even weigh myself (tee hee), even if just for the next year. (Will have to see, when the year is up, if I can afford to continue it.) I go next Tuesday to talk with the trainer there to set up my exercise plan, and determine what I need to work on (everything!) and the best way to go about it. As much as I don't like exercise, I'm looking forward to starting this as well. I *know* I'm gonna be hurting those first couple of weeks, but I will just keep thinking about my goal, and what I want to look like and feel like when the weight is all gone. I know, realistically, that I won't get rid of all 268 lbs in a year but maybe I can get about 40-50% of it gone! And that would be awesome!!

I am trying to stay positive about it, and if I have a 'bad' day, to just chalk it up to a bad day, or moment, and get back up and try again.

Just wanted to give a little "thanks" to everyone in the community forums here who have been great about answering questions, and being so friendly - and also to my friends at my yahoogroup that I own called Witchy Weight Loss (started about 2 years ago) for pagans who are trying to loose weight. They have been great in listening to me and offering support, friendship, and guidance. I also give big hugs and kisses to my husband (Wes), my daughter (Becka) and son (Kris) who are supporting me through this, and my other friends like Mike, Liz and Rici. Thanks.

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