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It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
Nov 05 2009 10:46

I got an email from Kraft Kitchens titled "It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas" and it put a big huge grin on my face. I'm such a nerd. I don't care! This year I'm giving back.

Want to hear some exciting news? And I knowwww I probably am not financially sound to be doing this, but I'm going to have a LITTLE SISTER soon! I signed up for Big Brother Big Sister and they just let me know they are now in need of Big Sisters. When I signed up in July, they didn't. But I guess things are cruddy so they're reaching out. I have an interview Dec 2nd. Its a FULL YEAR dedication that I must commit to, but I want to do this. I really wish that my little brother went through with the program when he was doing crap. Now look at him. I know what growing up in shit is like, I know what it's like not to have money, and I def know what it's like to live in a broken home with a drug addicted/mentally ill, parent. I just want a little one to know that they don't have to slum to what's surrounding them. There's life out there that needs to be lived. I WENT TO COLLEGE despite all the crap. It's really awakening my eyes to how far I have come myself. Oh I feel a baking buddy in the making. Hopefully we can go on enough hikes to counteract the cookies. Right? :)

I also want to volunteer my time during this Thanksgiving. It's coming up fast, so I must research. I want to work a soup kitchen for the homeless. Salvation Army does that? I think so... I really want to feel good. I've felt in the dumps for too many months here.

Last night was SUPER rough. I'll admit, I wanted to drink. And I didn't let myself. I pondered it over and over and over until I curled up in a ball on the couch so long I felt sleepy and knew by being so bummed about it, I sucked all the potential fun out of the whole thing. Ezra laid there with me, until I realized I just wanted to be alone. I indulged in an additional bowl of popcorn over my calories, I did not exercise, and I had a few pieces of un-budgeted melon, but I did NOT drink.

Ah but when I woke up this morning, my gut didn't feel bloated. I actually put my ring back on my finger that I had been refusing to wear from bloat. Even decided to pull my hair back and put some earrings on. Oh but my jeans are not as forgiving. I tried on my black jeans I thought wouldn't button. They buttoned, but I can't imagine sitting in them for 8 hours at work. My ass looked good in them tho! Because they weren't as baggy as they used to be. Ha!

So I put on a different pair of jeans. They're kinda buggin and riding a little too low for my taste, but I'm on the nicer dressed side today. Feels good. Heart rate monitor is already strapped to me for my afternoon walk! Ah so great. Hopefully this attitude lasts well into the weekend. Weekends are tough.

I have 3 movies I must watch:

Nanny McFee (or however you spell it)

Food Inc (which is a documentary on how much hormones and crap is pumped into our food, processed food, and the treatment of animals - egh I just want to see)

And Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs!!! In 3D!!! I'm a nerd, I know.

Then I'll play in more cake and cookies and bring them to my boyfriends moms house. I guess we're going over there this weekend since his sister will be down.

Loves! It's Thursday (my last working day of the week until next Tuesday). Hang in there and keep me accountable people!