x17star17x's Journal

HumP day
Aug 12 2009 11:31

I just burped.

Aww how cute ;)

Job Interview Day!
Aug 06 2009 09:14

It's on days like this I really wish I didn't have anxiety so bad. Like I get dizzy. I'm writing this and I'm already dizzy! And I haven't even left the house, put on my slacks, none of that. Oh gawd here we go.

Off to go find where this job is located. NERVOUS! Just have to keep my head on straight and I can nail it. Oatmeal is stuffing my stomach, enough, but not too much water in my system (don't want to be asking for the restroom already. hehe), and ready to go.

I'll update when I get home. AHHH! And I'm off ;)

UPDATE:

*sings: It's a small world after all, it's a small world afterall*

That was too funny. I walked into the office building and see an old co-worker of mine that left my previous previous job to move to washington or something. Anyway, guess who interviewed me? HER. And the marketing manager, but that was hilarious.

Problem is that they dropped the 'would you be willing to contract?' line. I told them that I'd rather be temp to hire than to contract. I just hate all the paperwork involved in being a contractor. Plus no health insurance and all that jazz. We'll see. Maybe they'll hire me on full time, but I guess the company has been through a lot of "change" this year and yea.... Not a good look.

We'll see! Hopefully I'll have more interviews and we'll see what these folks say. Stay tuned!

UPDATE #2:

I have a second interview next week. Ah. Life.

Hump Day
Aug 05 2009 10:08

So both Ezra and my own's back has been totally tweaked for the past week. Right around the shoulder blades, up the neck. STRESS. I think this job thing is hurting him as bad as its hurting me. He's been sleeping on the couch so that he can lay on his back. Doped up on IB Profen and tons of massages. See... in bed if he lays on his back he SNORES the roof off. Heh ;) So he's doing me a favor by sleeping on the couch.

On the dieting front, I'm doing fine. I've been going to the gym. *sigh* It's hard to get my head in it. Really I just want to sit on the couch and eat a bowl of ice cream while watching The Notebook. But I know if I allow that to be my routine once, I'll just keep doing it beyond no end. I'm tired of not having a job already.

I heard back from the job I TOTALLY wanted and they are not hiring for that position anymore. Yesterday morning was spent crying a river feeling like a hopeless failure. I can throw my resume into the wind and have better luck than submitting them. The market I work in is saturated with people that do what I do. The one guy in my field I talked to was out of work for 5 months before he got a new job. The other girl had to move to TX because she couldn't find work here. I'm trying to stay patient, but my mind keeps telling me that I'm going to end up living back at my moms in CA and being away from Ezra. I can only do so much, and I can only apply at places I can. I'm better off living on unemployment (when that kicks in) for 3 months than I am taking a minimum wage job. Just saying. This blows. But I'm just trying to look forward and push through to the next week. I just can't believe it's been nearly 2 weeks and I haven't even had a PHONE interview. It's brutal out there. They weren't lyin when that was said.

Tuesday
Aug 04 2009 08:52

On the job front I've yet to hear anything. Unemployed for a week 1/2, and nothing from no one. Applied for 8 jobs so far. Resume, cover letter, everything sent. Oh and to top it off, the weekly enrollment system on the unemployment website is down. The joys, right? If I skip a weekly claim, I have to start the process all over again. My unemployment money is already 'pending' and can take up to 4 weeks to be applied to my card. The Arizona unemployment system is SHIT. If I wasn't so organized and determined, I wouldn't get a dime. But I want my $240 bucks a week dammit! :) Not even half of what I used to make, but it will cover my bills. Not food or gas, but bills.

On the food front, let's just not focus on that. I went to that party in Tucson and enjoyed the crap outa myself. There were about 40-50 people at the house party, and I talked, drank, joked around, ATE (cake, brownies, breads, pita chips, etc), and danced until 4am. My favorite part was laying with Ezra by the pool at 4am staring up at the stars. They're a lot clearer in Tucson, and the weather was perfect for star gazing. Ahh buzzed and stars. Doesn't get better than that.

Back at home the clean eating starts once again. I'm going to try and do vegetarian breakfast/lunch, and only meat for dinner. I normally eat lunch meat and a sandwich for lunch, but have found out that it's cheaper to eat eggs and salads. Never said vegan, just vegetarian. So it's my plans man. A head of lettuce is a buck, 12 eggs is another buck 50, and some red cabbage is 2 bucks. Round that off with a 2 dollar bottle of dressing and we're good to go! So that's my plan.

I also wrote down dinners here that we're going to eat this week:

Monday: Chicken Stir Fry Wraps

Tuesday: Beef & Broccoli

Wednesday: Chinese Chicken Salad

Thursday: Lemon Garlic Baked Chicken & Green Beans

Friday: BBQ Chicken Sandwiches & Corn on the Cob w/ Cocktails

Can't wait for this week to be DONE with already. Thursday's menu might change as I am going to see Julie and Julia. FREE. A premier I got on the VIP list for. Lifes changing a little bit, but we're good. I mean, nothing has changed. As much as Ezra and I argue, and I tell him PLEASE try to pay for groceries more, he just hasn't. He says he will, but I do the grocery shopping so it gets lost in the mix. I have been buying tons less boxed food and I'll tell you the bill has gone down by $30-$40 bucks a week.

Ah this is all a learning experience for me. It's a good thing right. Utilizing free, shopping the deals, letting go of boxed snacks, and banging your head trying to file for unemployment. It's like I'm a grown up or somethin ;)

Choices
Jul 31 2009 07:48

I must remember.... It's my choice. It's my choice to make the best of today. It's my choice to smile. It's my choice to wake up proud of myself tomorrow. My feelings, my emotions, and what I do today is my choice.

Hors d'oeuvres
Jul 29 2009 15:51

I want to have a cocktail party. With hors d'oeuvres (had to look that one up) and a light refreshing entree, with a fruit parfait dessert or strawberry shortcake. So cute! That's what I get for cleaning my entire apartment, takin away all the dust, and lighting some candles.

Off to the gym!

laid off
Jul 23 2009 14:39

i was just laid off

i guess that gives me my 'i wanna new job' wish. now time to look...

*sigh*

BUFF!
Jul 17 2009 08:40

I am a woman with a plan! So BUFF! OHH look at my buffness! Hear me ROARRRR! ;)

Happy Friday!

HISTORY: How I used to eat
Jul 08 2009 12:24

Wow. I never actually dug through all the nutritional info on the web to see how many calories I used to consume in ONE sitting. This was just ONE meal. Doesn't count the donuts for breakfast, or crossant sandwiches, doesn't even count after work food, or the bags of chips, boxes of brownies. I'm really surprised I'm not heavier at my heaviest.

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     Mc Donalds
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2 cheeseburger x 2 = 600
fries = 380
bbq sauce x 2 = 100
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TOTAL: 1080 calories

OR

6pc Nuggets = 280
fries = 380
BBQ sauce x 2 = 100
______________________
TOTAL: 760 calories

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    Burger King
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Whopper Jr = 370
Fries = 480
______________________
TOTAL: 850 calories

OR

Chicken Fries (9pc) = 380
BBQ Sauce x 2 = 80
Fries = 480
______________________
TOTAL: 940 calories

OR

Original Chicken Sandwich = 630
Fries = 480
______________________
TOTAL: 1110 calories

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     Carl's Jr
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Western bacon cheeseburger - 710
criss cut fries - 450
house sauce - x3 - 330
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TOTAL: 1490 calories

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     Taco Bell
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Bean Burrito = 340
Nacho Bell Grande = 305
______________________
TOTAL: 645 calories

OR

Grilled Stuffed Burrito = 690
Nachos = 330
Cinnamon Twists = 170
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TOTAL: 1190 calories

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   Jack in The Box
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Chicken Sandwich = 400
Curly Chili Cheese Fries (not listed on site - 760?)
Small Oreo Shake = 760
______________________
TOTAL: 1920 calories

OR

tacos x 2 = 314
Bacon Potato Wedges = 760
Small Oreo Shake = 760
______________________
TOTAL: 1834 calories

OR

Chicken Sandwich = 400
Large CUrly Fries  = 574
Buttermilk House Dipping Sauce x 2 = 260
Small Oreo Shake = 760
______________________
TOTAL: 1994 calories

OR

tacos x 2 = 314
Large Curly Fries = 574
Buttermilk House Dipping Sauce x 2 = 260
Small Oreo Shake = 760
______________________
TOTAL: 1908 calories

OR

Chicken Sandwich = 400
Bacon Potato Wedges = 760
Small Oreo Shake = 760
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TOTAL: 1920 calories

Bodies are neat little devices
Jul 02 2009 08:39

==I made these for my co-workers today==

S'more Cookies

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Scales are so silly. Okay okay it's not the scale that's silly, BODIES are silly. They're whacked. They're so unpredictable I don't know why we stress ourselves out over the ups and down's we experience with weight.

I took off all of last week at the gym. I ate okay on the week days, but the weekend was 3 days of partying. On top of going out to eat, I also ate a few bags of M&M's, a box (the ENTIRE BOX) of honey combs, whatever was left of the golden grahams, opened the box of trix and had some of those, ate an entire carton of Dryers Double Churn Vanilla Bean Ice cream, I had goldfish, I had chocolate, handfuls of pretzels, homemade pizza twice where I ate half of each one (loaded with cheese, parm cheese, sauce and pepperoni), I made chocolate chip pancakes. I drank half a 1.75 liter bottle of captain morgan, I made shirley temples, MAN OH MAN I went to bed Monday night in pain because I was so full. The scale on FRIDAY was 122 pounds. I didn't weigh myself after all the weekend eating. I don't like to see that number, but I felt super bloated and heavy. The 122 pounds was before I had a heavy weekend.  Monday - Tuesday - Wednesday back at the gym and the scale is at 120.4. Wha? I snapped back so fast I don't even know to believe the scale. But what are numbers anyway? Just that. Numbers. On a scale. Numbers are not health. Numbers are not even a judgement of how well you did in a weeks time, or a months time. It's just numbers!

This experience has helped me breath a little easier. We will have times when we eat like crap. It's called the holidays. We will have times the scale jumps up 5-8 pounds and we freak out about it. We'll have times where we can't make it to the gym, or we simply don't wanna. But we all have the better judgement to jump back on track when it's all over. :)

Ah my thoughts flooded in an internet window for you all to read. Good times.

Have a happy and safe 4th of July!!!

==Rainbow in sky the day Michael Jackson diet==

Ah karma's a bitch