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okay guys! I did it. Well almost. I consumed 1106 calories! That was tougher than you know.  Ugh i'm stuffed. Hopefully tomorrow will be better where I can seperate out my calories better. I bought nuts, so I'll switch out one of my snacks with 200 calories in nuts. Yay for fat! Haha.  Lets see how this works out. 1 month, and i'm not giving up.

~Melinda


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It's truly going to be bad. I feel like a failure.  All my motivation is GONE! I really wish I had a plan or knew what I was doing but I feel exhaused.  I have a sinus cold PLUS I need to boost up my calories to a higher level to get pulled out of starvation mode.  The thing is, I dont feel like I'm starving.  And I dont feel like pouring tons of food down my throat.  Food is disgusting.  I'm starting to really hate it.  Maybe I have developed an ED over the course of the 8 months I have been dieting.

Its only 1023am and I am already tired of eating. I have a bag full of food and STILL dont wanna eat it. I feel like I have to force myself. I just want to sleep.  So here is how it goes:

BREAKFAST @9
1 cup fiber one cereal = 120 calories
1 vitatop muffin banana nut = 90 calories

LUNCH @ 12
2 slices of orowheat light bread = 80 calories
4 deli slices of foster farms turkey = 50 calories
1 tbsp FREE mayo = 15 calories
1 100 calorie pack doritos = 100 calories

SNACK @ 3
1 medium size figi apple = 75 calories
1 vitatop muffin velvet chocolate = 80 calories

SNACK @ 5 (If I can manage throwing it down my throat)
1 vitatop muffin banana nut = 90 calories
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Total Calories = 700

DINNER @ ~ 7
2 pieces of grilled chicken = 200 calories
Bunch of veggies! = 100 calories or so
1 100 calorie popcorn (love these) = 100 calories

Now lets see what calorie-count says about that!

I have only gotten through breakfast and already I feel like I want to vomit. UGH! I'm just frusterated at myself.  Sorry guys!  So now It's time to pack on the pounds, going from 900 calories a day to 1100 - 1200.  So let the games begin.

Previous Stats:
Starting Weight: 294.6
Ending Weight: 199.6
Loss: 95lbs

This is kind of a new diet so I'm starting over!
Current Weight : 199.6


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So I havnt been weighing myself, and that's fine.  Right now I'm being kind of careless.  That does not mean that I'm not following my diet to a tee, just means that I'm not obsessing over what the scale says.  The scale and I have not been on good terms for a good week now.  Since I feel it is stuck at 199.8, it can sit in the corner because it's on time out!

Aside from that, I feel like poop.  I think I have a sinus infection or something.  Also, my skin feels really dry. Blah!  Hopefully with some rest and after another trip to the restroom to pee for the 50th time today, I'll feel better.

Time to go home.

~Melinda


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okay heres a quick mini update.  I finally lost my 95th pound! Yay for me, and now am 199.8 pounds. YAY no more 200 for me!  :) Lots of other struggles going on, but no time to explain. I'll be fine... just gotta keep learning about nutrition.

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okay so i realllly thought when i knocked on the 100s club door this week and that it would open. and now i'm going to start my period?! this isnt happening!!! I really wanted to hit goal.  It hasn't started YET, but i know by tonight it will reep its evil face and scare my scale 2 pounds higher. It always happens, it's destine to.

to ease some anxiety, i dug through my purse and found a watermelon jolly rancher. 16 calories and lots of fun hard candy flavor in my mouth. Cant beat that.

another thing on my mind is that i need to go grocery shopping before i start eatting out too much. my fiance LOVES eatting out, so any excuse he can find to go, he will talk about it.  I'll just go ahead and order him in some food, and sit down on my nice comfy couch with my diet dr pepper, a bottle of water, and my lean cuisine.  Maybe i'll have a sugar free jello for desert, or popcorn with my reality TV show.

I did a dumb thing last night.  I went online and bought a stove top grill, a kitchen scale, and a few other items on target.com. That sounds great, yes, but its going to take nearly 2 weeks to get here! I should have just went to target myself, saved shipping costs, and I would have had my grill already.  Really cant wait to get it. They need to hurry it up already because my frozen chicken aint getting any more frozen.

Sorry for the mini rant. I was just trying to kill a few minutes while waiting for the clock to hit 5. I wanna go home! work is exhausting sometimes.




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I lost my 94th pound today! Dang I just want to go to the grocery store and lay 10 bags of 10 pound potatos ontop of me just to feel what I used to.  Dear lord that would be a lot of potatos haha.

1 more pound and i'll have made it under my 200 pound mark. 199! wow I cant wait for the scale to switch over like that. I'll probably break it from jumping from joy.  I'm doing so good, and i'm really proud of myself.  60 more pounds to reach FINAL goal. Cant wait cant wait, oh man I cant wait!

One day at a time.

pant size: 16
shirt size: 1x
bra size: 36D
Weight: 200.2
Lost: 94 pounds!


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ive successfully lost 89 pounds. down to 205 and still stressed. Its amazing how I have lost 89 pounds and still dont know exactly what I am doing to DO it. It's like i find a diet that works, then it stops working, I gotta switch it up, and then find one that works again.  Does anyone else experience this same headache?  1 more pound until I have lost 90, 11 more until my 100 mark, and 6 more until I can say I am not over 200 anymore!  I cant wait until the day I get to see that scale read 199. Heck I cant wait until i reach my FINAL goal of 145.  Oh boy oh boy.  Gotta keep motivated, stay on track, and figure out why im hitting a wall again.

Wish me luck!


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down to 210 now and I've been a little stuck here for a while. Im going to consider increasing my calorie intake for a week or so, just to get my metabolism back up and going. :) Wish me luck!

85 lost, 4 pant sizes, 3 shirt sizes, 1 bra size, and my ring is falling off my finger!


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i moved to arizona with my fiance.  weightloss has never been harder seeing the things he eats.  when i first started my diet, i was so successful because i was eatting out of my own fridge and shopped by myself for groceries.  seeing all the heavier food in the house has been difficult.  i try to stay focused on myself.

normally when he goes to eat dinner, i will take that time to soak in the bath.  this way food is out of sight, out of mind.  the food i eat usually comes out of a box labeled by lean cuisine or south beach diet.  this has been working successfully for me so far.

as of today:76 pounds lost, 2 pant sizes lost, gained self esteem.

i am now 218 pounds and hope to hit 140 by December of this year.  I believe i can do it and i really dont see me ending my diet ever. i am comfortable with my food choices and have made a commitment to live like this.

now my only concern is my body.  i fear excess skin.

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