xjocelynx87's Journal

I feel like a failure, as usual.  It's only December, and I've gained about 10lbs since coming to school.  Now I'm about 20lbs away from my goal weight. I am such an emotional eater, and I don't know how to stop it.  I am going to start writing down my feelings every day in order to keep them in check.  Here goes....today: I am stressed out about finals.  I really hate the end of the semester, and the fact that I'm at my highest weight in a long time really isn't helping.  I wasn't counting calories, but I was building some really good habits and ever since Thanksgiving I've let them all go.  I really do not know how to deal with stress other than eat.  My exercise has been consistent, which is a good thing....but I really cannot continue to eat like this.  I refuse.  I am SO determined.  I WILL do it this time....I have to.  This is my rock bottom.