VENT .. I'm sorry ='(

OMG I want to bury myself in my room and never come out. I'm such a dumbass! I got my exam mark today for an exam I studied my ass off for (I didn't go to the gym for a week) and I got 64.53% WTFFFFFFF! When I wrote the exam I thought I ACED it! And last week I also didn't go to the gym because I had another exam to study for .. OMG if I do bad on that one I'll go nuts. I'm already doing terrible in school .. I can't afford to be doing so badly AND not going to the gym. I'm so scared I'm going to gain weight too! OMGGGGG HOW THE HELL DID I GET SUCH A BAD MARK?!?!

I hate my life =( It seems like no matter how hard I try, I always fail!

I can relate to what you are feeling.  I ended up dropping out, but after a year of having a couple of horrible jobs, I realized that I needed an education in order to live a comfortable life.  When I went back I made sure I got all the help I could. I quit working and seek the help of multiple tutors offered at school for free.  Once I learned how to managed school, I got a part-time job.  I was a person who dropped out of college and now I am person who is getting her masters.  If I did it so can you.  Good luck!

I eat when I stressed out.  I've gained a lot of weight as a result of stress in school.  Each semester I was gaining about 5 lbs.  :(  Now I am trying to be committed to eating as I was committed to school.  Wish me good luck. 

Bad grades happen to everyone.  If you stress over it, things will only get worse.  Figure out what you did wrong on your exam so you don't make the same mistakes again, and then move on.

There are way more important things in life than grades.

I failed a final exam that I was tutoring people in. I knew it. I understood it. I was teaching people it. I was the reason that some people passed the course.

And I just messed up that final exam so badly that I failed the course (failed final exam = failed course).

It was a kick to the head.

I have had similar experiences before, quite often, actually.

Last semester, I took an awful Immunology class.  I wasn't really prepared for just how bad it was going to be, and I slacked off for the first two tests and got a 54 and a 70.

I needed a 70 to pass the course and I had a D, so I studied a lot of the third test.  I was anxious and nervous, and I ended up getting a 68 on it.

Of course, I was angry.  I studied my butt off and got a D, how could that have happened?!  I thought I did okay, I thought I knew the material!  Worse, I still had a D, and now things were getting very serious - I was likely to fail the course if I didn't do quite well on the next two exams.

The fourth test came around.  I stayed up late studying for it, and before the test, I went to the campus coffee shop with a friend.

I told her how worried I was and how I had never failed anything before and how I was just absolutely terrified.  She is older (in her 50s) and has been through a lot in life, and had a different perspective.  She really helped me relax, and I stopped worrying about it.  I accepted the fact that I was probably going to fail the class, and instead of spending a few more hours trying to frantically study, I just took it easy.

After I took the test I felt quite sure that I had gotten another D, but to my shock I managed to get an 80!  I ended up passing the class (and believe me, I am prouder of that C than I am of any A I have ever gotten) and I am still thankful for that, every single day.

It might sound stupid or too simple, but it really sounds to me like you are worrying too much about it and getting too anxious, and then making small mistakes.  Remember that you have studied, you are capable of doing well, and don't get so anxious about it.

I'm wishing you luck!!  I know how frustrating it is and if I managed to dig myself out of such a huge hole, you can, too!

Find out who is doing well in the class. I know for every course in college, there are a few kids in there that the subject just comes naturally to them. Ask them to form a study group, or just ask if they can help you. If they do well on the tests, they must know what material to study.

Don't feel too badly. Does your school have a forgiveness policy that allows you to retake the course for a better grade? Remember, if you don't have confidence, it makes it even harder to succeed. So believe in yourself! :)

Hey guys!

Thanks so much for the responses! They mean so much to me! =D

cristy108: thank you for the motivation! oh and about the eating--i eat a lot too during school and going through stress. i find bagging chopped veggies, taking fruits to school and a fiber one bar with me keep me pretty good for a while! then i usually go to subway when i feel like lunch-food (it's healthy AND delicious!). i also keep my 1 liter water bottle with me at all times! since i'm at school, i can't pig out the way i do when i'm at home =)

plasmagirl: thanks for the reminder! i definitely need to stop stressing and learn from my mistakes. i also do need to realize that things could be worse!

jef9up: oh wow, that must have been so horrible, i'm so sorry to hear it! at least you can learn from it and do better next time =) thanks for sharing that with me

sasquatch7: WOW I can't believe you got an 80 after all that! it must be all the anxiety =S ahh, i definitely need to work on that. thank you!

muttlover: that's a good idea, and yes i definitely need to be a little more confident thank you very much