Waiting game...in-patient_motivation

Hey,

I'm currently struggling while waiting for admission into an in-patient program. I'm currently not in school thus with the extra time I have been resorting to old eating disorder behaviors.

I have been engaging in unhealthy binge-purge behavior and this seems to be intensifying. I have stopped the cycle... despite the urges.  I have been sticking to a health meal plan despite urges to restrict. Exercise urges have also been strong.

I need some motivation to continue fighting...

-Anyone have advice to continue to push when feeling of hopelessness surface and the thinking that "I'm going to treatment.... so ed can come out an play", "Sicker before better".

--I know these are not relation thoughts. 

Does anyone have statements that I can say to myself when the urges surmount or any strategies to keep pushing forward while waiting?

Thanks

Kate