just wanted to clarify...

no, i am not trying to lose weight, i am looking to maintain where I am and stop the whole purging thing..thats why i was looking for a health buddy. sorry if i was unclear in my last post! and i did re-get my period again even though it had been about 4 months without, so I'm assuming i'm relatively of good health/weight.

And what's your weight and height? Getting your period doesn't mean your body is automatically healthy and healed.

The issue here is you're not going to a doctor for a checkup when you've a history of purging and bulimia that has probably left a great deal of damage behind. Period or not.

Original Post by lalabanana:

And what's your weight and height? Getting your period doesn't mean your body is automatically healthy and healed.

The issue here is you're not going to a doctor for a checkup when you've a history of purging and bulimia that has probably left a great deal of damage behind. Period or not.

I agree with this completely.

What's your weight and height?

Are you having any other problems/symptoms? (like low energy, nausea, muscle pains or aches, headaches, etc.)

It's great that you want to be healthy, and finding an internet friend (healthy buddy) to help you is a good way to support yourself in that goal, but it's probably more important for you to get a real-world checkup to get a true baseline and get some face to face advice from a professional.

periods are not always an indicator of good health. i had one once when my bmi was below the starvation level and wasn't healthy at all.

they're also is a lot of debating going on about completely taking the period thing out of the diagnostic criteria for eating disorders because of this and it being so different for everyone.

I haven't weighed myself for a couple weeks, but last time I checked I was 89 pounds and i'm 4'11". hmm..i suppose i'll have to see if i get my period again next month then? I suppose it probably would in the long run be a good idea to get a professional check up, but I do feel as if i am not deep enough into this to continue, as in i think i can stop on my own. I think. I just have to get past the mentality thats its horrible if i eat something "illegal," then I should be better off

everytime I see one of your posts I get very aggravated.

first of all, your display name says COWCOW but you're probably one of the smallest people on this website... this screams to me "I think I'm huge" therefore making it seem like you have an eating disorder, as much as you claim that you don't.

sure we would all like to be healthy.. but getting past those thoughts is part of the battle, getting your period doesnt mean much... heck I got my period at 92lbs and 5'3, but was I recovered? no.

perhaps you just need to realize that your body is not happy or healthy at this weight, even if it is a healthy BMI for someone your height... and even if you can maintain this weight (give or take) can you do so consuming adequate calories and NOT purging? if not reacess your goals... i'm sure you looked just fine at a slightly higher and realistic weight.

Original Post by carmenxox:

everytime I see one of your posts I get very aggravated.

first of all, your display name says COWCOW but you're probably one of the smallest people on this website... this screams to me "I think I'm huge" therefore making it seem like you have an eating disorder, as much as you claim that you don't.

sure we would all like to be healthy.. but getting past those thoughts is part of the battle, getting your period doesnt mean much... heck I got my period at 92lbs and 5'3, but was I recovered? no.

perhaps you just need to realize that your body is not happy or healthy at this weight, even if it is a healthy BMI for someone your height... and even if you can maintain this weight (give or take) can you do so consuming adequate calories and NOT purging? if not reacess your goals... i'm sure you looked just fine at a slightly higher and realistic weight.

...this was a bit unnecessarily rude..i'm always nice on posts i don't see why you have to treat me like i'm a whining little bitch...

First, my name is cowcow not because i think i'm huge, but because that is a nickname i've always had (and NOT because others think i'm huge.)

Second, I DO consume adequate calories, and the whole purging thing i think actually didn't make me lose weight because i did it after binging so i think i probably actually retained extra calories (because its impossible to purge everything.) My goal is to stop purging because its really bad for health, and I would like to maintain where I am because I believe I can stay on the low end of a healthy weight while being HEALTHY.

What I am trying to overcome is my odd thoughts that I can't eat anything remotely unhealthy, and that it is ok to every once in a while overeat. I am not anorexic, or anywhere near it, although I think I am mildly bulimic. There.

what exactly were you trying to accomplish by calling me aggravating? Did i ever say "I would like to eat 600 calories a day, and have a bmi of 15." ? No, i never have said i would like to have any sort of eating disorder..

well sorry then.

that's just what i got out of this post, maybe i'll creep on you next time and figure out whats really going on.

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why dont you just try inncorporating a 'bad' food into your diet everyday, nothing huge, just a tad of this or a bite of that.. more if you can handle it. Build your courage over time, and go for a walk rather then purge if you over do it. But dont resort to purging through excersize, because that is no better.

I'm with you, I agree that 'junk' foods or processed man made "foods" were never meant to be consumed by humans, and si I live with this idea most of the time, everyone once in a while i let myself have something small to keep my sanity and prevent binging.

but as for being on the low end of healthy, go ahead try it... but if you keep missing periods or resorting to unhealthy behaviours then i suggest you eat a little more and learn to be happy with yourself.

its fine, sorry if i overreacted by being so defensive.

I really really do want to be healthy, and I am trying so hard to stop binging and purging. Short term goal=1 week. I can do this.

We all overreact, especially when under the influence of hormones and eating disorders.

1 week will hopefully lead to another and then to yet another.  What are you going to do to reward yourself for 1 week?  Give yourself a manicure or pedicure?  A hot bubble bath?  Read a book just for fun?

Binging and purging is symptomatic of disordered eating.  Which means that there's most likely some other issue going on that you need to tackle to give you a better chance of success.  This may not be the case for you, but in general it often is the case for those suffereing from disordered eating.  My point being that while you really don't feel that you have much of an issue that in and of itself can be yet another symptom.  If you have a counselor or a doctor that you've seen in the past and worked well with (note I did not say liked), try to make an appointment to discuss your health issues.

Rewards are a good idea, I'll have to think of something good for 1 week! I've decided that if I can make 1 month I'll buy those teeth whitening strips. Maybe go shopping :)

Yes, I've realized that I'm not really sure why i decided I wanted to lose a few pounds in the first place..I think its kind of an issue like I want to be the best at something, and that could be being in the leanest shape possible. Maybe thats what it is. I don't really know though, talking to a counselor would really help.