1/3 of the way there.

Today I reached a milestone - I'm a third of the way there with a 20lbs weight gain so far wohoo for me

To all the others on this board - keep it up!

congratulations, youve worked so hard keep up the good work , your an inspiration hxx

This is so great! You are doing so well, keep going. x

great job! and thank you for the encouragement and positivity!

Warmest congratulations to you!

I wish I knew your secret.  I haven't gained atall. 

Good job. I have gained 30 and not sure if I feel like saying wohoo for me but for you wohoo. I'm sticking to it though. We can do it. Your upbeat spirit helps me a lot.Thank you

Waycat are you eating a high calorie diet? I'm now up to 3500 a day so anxious. That is the secret a high calorie diet. The key is within you.

Thanks :) I eat every 2-3 hours around 3500-4000cals a day; seems to be doing the trick.

Original Post by abbi333:

Waycat are you eating a high calorie diet? I'm now up to 3500 a day so anxious. That is the secret a high calorie diet. The key is within you.

Abbi, I am not eating enough calories, that is one thing I know.  I am well aware of what I need to do as I've been told by so many people - family, friends, medical professionals, not to mention the good people on this forum.

I just have such a conflict going on in my head between my sensible voice and my ED voice.  And I'm sorry to say my ED voice wins out every time at the moment.

I am seeing a therapist about this, in an attempt to change my mindset and feel comfortable about food like I used to many years ago.  I have to think of food as a fuel and not a poison.

Also, I'm an exercise addict which of course does not help because that obviously increases my calorie needs even more.

What a mountain it is to climb!!

Original Post by waycat:

Original Post by abbi333:

Waycat are you eating a high calorie diet? I'm now up to 3500 a day so anxious. That is the secret a high calorie diet. The key is within you.

Abbi, I am not eating enough calories, that is one thing I know.  I am well aware of what I need to do as I've been told by so many people - family, friends, medical professionals, not to mention the good people on this forum.

I just have such a conflict going on in my head between my sensible voice and my ED voice.  And I'm sorry to say my ED voice wins out every time at the moment.

I am seeing a therapist about this, in an attempt to change my mindset and feel comfortable about food like I used to many years ago.  I have to think of food as a fuel and not a poison.

Also, I'm an exercise addict which of course does not help because that obviously increases my calorie needs even more.

What a mountain it is to climb!!

 The key lies with in you. For many years I looked for the answer or easy way to recover. There is none. Every day is a battle and I am constantly hearing the ed voice but I know it is part of recovery. Waycat I used to be an exercise addict and really you need to stop. I have a condition now that does not allow it but even in the past I know you must give it up until your mind and body is healthy. I ended up in a cardiac unit due to the combo as a teen. You don't want that. You need to use the tools and support you have. You can do it but it will be super hard.

pknb your doing great. I am up to 3500 and your upbeat motivation helps. Thanks

Original Post by abbi333:

 The key lies with in you. For many years I looked for the answer or easy way to recover. There is none. Every day is a battle and I am constantly hearing the ed voice but I know it is part of recovery. Waycat I used to be an exercise addict and really you need to stop. I have a condition now that does not allow it but even in the past I know you must give it up until your mind and body is healthy. I ended up in a cardiac unit due to the combo as a teen. You don't want that. You need to use the tools and support you have. You can do it but it will be super hard.

 

Thanks for your words of encouragement Abbi - they mean alot to me, and I'm sure to others aswell.

I realise and understand the dangers about exercising while underweight.  I wish I could be more relaxed about it, I really do.

I'm hoping my sessions with my therapist will help.......

No problem. I am here anytime. I understand feeling the anxiety but you must. You will see in time that the fears and anxiety are worse then the reality.