My weight gain, concern

I have been to this site an I swee you offer alot of suppot for people with eating disorders and problems with body image. I realized what I was doing to myself with my ED recently, and I wanted to change. For some reason though, I can't stop eating a crapload....I went through 2 jars of peanut butter in one day. I cannot stop eatng peanut butter, and I never liked it before. I am taking in about 8000 calories when you add the peanut butter and other things. My question is: Is it unhealthy eating all this peanut butter? Should I slow it down? This is so weird but I cant stop. I am thinking eatin this much could be very uhealthy.

If you've been on any kind of restricted/starvation diet due to the eating disorder then a natural physical reaction is often to go completely the other way in an effort to repair the damage.  (It has even been shown in rats that they behave the same way.)  If you're not experiencing discomfort, pains or having digestion problems then the chances are that your body is handling the extra food OK.  If you do experience any of those then see your doctor immediately.

There's nothing wrong with peanut butter as part of a healthy weight-gain diet but it's not especially bulky or filling.... hence why it's easy to eat it in large amounts.  Try to get a better balance of foods... high-cal, low-bulk ones like peanut butter, oils, full-fat dairy products etc..... and lower-cal, higher-bulk ones like vegetables and fruit.   You may find that if you get a broader range of nutrition and foods you'll feel more satisfied.

Are you getting medical treatment for the eating disorder?.... You may need some guidance from a dietician to help you work out a more balanced menu.

The wise GI Jane is right on.

I can testify to give you someone with experience.

Even after increasing to a "weight gain level" diet I found the "standard recovery" was compromising for me--I was still putting limits on what my body "really" wanted, living in a cage that idolized and treasured eating, ,and wanted to eat lighter foods so I could eat more. 

This was on 2500-3000 calories. With 80+ grams of fat, etc.

When I finally decided to really jump-embrace the fact that I was DITCHING food control and taking care of my body: finding something new that I "could be" my eating went througha  huge rebound.

I ate half a large triple decker pizza at midnight [after a hefty dinner, etc.], came home from work and ate 6c of lasagna for a snack, and honestly had a bottomless pit for a stomach! I also found myself eating everything I haven't liked int he past [even as a small child] like chocolate and cheese.

It was a mental rebound of being abhorred with the monster, and a physical rebound with soooo much damage to be reversed.

And this was after having not had an actual "restrictive mode" diet for ages!

Also, to give you hope-it doesn't STAY like that.  I got the idea of "how high can I set the bar" to maximize what I give my body to my goal, thinking I'd easily be on 4-5000 calories til then, and now I find myself getting full muuuuch sooner. 
And after finally getting a chocolate stock I don't like it once again!
And I even feel like a vegetable... 

I can only imagine that by the time your body is fully caught up-not only at a happy weight, but having fixed everything, it's not demanding so many resources! 

I was underweight (ever so slightly) when I got pregnant with #2 and was sick a lot. So my body was calling out - during the hours when I wasn't nauseated! - and PB was my gig, too. 1/2 a jar at a time. On warm banana bread. Ohhhh yea. Mouth is watering right now.

It's normal - and now I only like PB in passing!

wierd...when i went through an eating disorder last year i had the same problem...I wouldn't eat, but when I did i ate tons and tons of peanut butter...

im all better now and i only eat it occasionally on sandwiches, but i know how you feel i got addicted to it

being a bottomless pit is totally normal! believe me, and many of the people on here know it, too. (lol!) it's fine to eat a ton on peanut butter (could anything be more healthy?) as long as it doesn't cause you to under eat in other areas and you are still getting a healthy balance of carbs, fats, and proteins, including fresh fruits and veggies, whole grains, and saturated and unsaturated fats. worry about the crazy calories when you're overweight, now now! (and tell us if you do become overweight, because i've never heard of it.)

Thanks guys you really made me feel much much better. All I can say right now is I am still very hungry all the time, and having an eating disorder was horrible, and I cant beleive I even did it. I was concerned because I am eating more then the most obese people ever. I hope I can get to a healthy weight and have alot more muscle. I hope its all muslce, but IDK how thats gunna happen on a 8000 calorie diet! lol but anyways I hope the hunger subsides cuz this is absolutely crazy. I just ate a whole pizza, and Im still freakin hungry.

this really is normal , your body has been and still is starved it will be trying to get you to do everything to refeed it . i was and still am constantly hungry . try your brst to eat a balanced diet minimal of 2500 eventually as you restore your weight the hunger should go . i know its hard your not alone i woulf urge you to battle through this h x