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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

gibbit... sometimes when i go to an event i bring my own food and ask the caterer to keep it in the fridge and bring it to my table....  i may do it tom. just in case.  i mean they ARE getting paid so they will accomodate...   

i dont like when other pl cook either.  but thats our ed.

im stressed about carbs too.  im at 65% today.. we shouldnt even know that!!!!  and its ok bc carbs are good and energy and we are trying to gain its just hard and i feel like its too much and not healthy ad when i binge i binge on carbs and sugar... it gets hard to stop.  i did 330g of carbs today... is that alot?  i think it is....

sandwiches are always easy things to bring when you have to pack lunches... tuna in cans.. those pouches of tuna and crackers or bread and some mayo packets (i hate mayo but you like pesto so you can put some in a tupperwear and bread in another and put it on a sandwich), cereal travels, are u near a whole foods?  they have ready to go meals as well... i always buy those when i have to work... prepackaged macncheese or sandwiches... im not big on trail mix or bars... i like meals....

ok, so i've made almost 3000 today anways according to the logs here. Ended up having giant bowl of oatmeal, probably about 1 cup dry? with lots of pecans, dried dates, made iwth soymilk, honey, then also had a banana and another bowl of soy vanilla ice cream.

i'm definitely way too embarrased to bring my own food to the bat mitzvah party, so i'll make do with what's there.

agru- yeah, veggies are a safe food for me, so i always have to pour oil on and add stuff to it. i know i need to get over the fear of bready things, but I honestly don't like them much either, plain bread anyways, i'll eat a lot of rice, pasta, and cereals so that's not really a fear. i think it was the beans that did it today because i normally don't get that bloated, but i really wanted to challenge myself to eat the whole can at lunch since it's one of those things i feel weird going over the serving size with. AndI knew I needed to eat more but didn't have time to cook, so the already open can was fastest. i guess i should start making more sacrifices for now just to be able to gain and I can go back to more veggies later, but i worry about not getting adequate nutrition. uggh stupid ed fears!!

dana- i won't get a chance to go anywhere before and there's not much as far as portable foods here. I also don't think we'll really be taking any breaks so i'll have to be able to work and eat at the same time. I'm at 478 g of carbs?? yeah, you have nothing to worry about!

 i know its just my ed being crazy... youre right!! we are doing great and carbs are good...

good luck tom.. let me know how it goes...

pps.. did the whipped cream and stuff.. 2300.... arrrrggghhhhhhhh

I LOVE CARBS, CARBS CARBS CARBS CARBS. OM NOM NOM BREAD

Seriously! Don't worry about if you get high gram intakes of food! You're looking at percentages and even then 65-70% is okay. :z I don't log my foods any more for that reason - I get too finicky about my numbers! I just eat and eat plenty and well from all food groups and nutrition groups, and estimate. Except for the things I admit weighing because I screw up portions with them still, like rice and pasta. But that aside DO NOT WORRY ABOUT CARBS, THEY ARE GOOD. D:

Now what I don't get enough of are veggie-tables. Low calorie is baaad.


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I didn't sleep very well last night because next door was having a house party. So I am a bit hyper and sleep deprived. Wakka wakka wakka wakka.

I have ballet today. Yep. Hope it goes alright. Afterward it will just be errand running, the usual weekend stuff. Which of course means eating out. Why???? I suppose it'll be Subway again for me.

dana- Erm yeah, ignore all the other forums on CC right now. Most of the people are undereating. But you're revving up their metabolism so you can eat as much as you want, and they're just slowing it down. OH and sorry for not messaging you about indian yet. I'll do it as soon as I'm done here...

agru- I'm actually really not that in to the organic movement. Just because an egg  carton said the hens were "free range" doesn't mean that they had an acre of land to roam around. They're still stuffed together with thousands of other hens and pretty much get treated the same as regular hens. Plus they have to ship the eggs from like across the country to get them to you. So yeah I don't waste my family's money on organic much. I do try to buy mostly whole foods and stay away from like frozen pizzas though. I don't really know where most of the expenses from grocery shopping come from, because aren't whole foods usually cheaper than processed stuff?

gibbit- Thanks for the ideas. It's pretty obnoxious because all my family wants to eat in like boxed mac and cheese, pizza etc. I could cook my own foods, but that would look kind of weird and I think it would be sort of fostering the ED. Like I said to agru, I don't really get why we spend so much money grocery shopping! Glad you managed to hit 3000.

dana/gibbit- Darn lala beat me to it. I was about to go MMMMMMM I LOVE CARBS! BREAD BAGELS PASTA ALL MINE! Like lala I don't log because I get to wrapped up in my percentages. Carbs are good, they give you lots of energy mmm carbs.

Breakfast- Hm, I'm thinking banana stuffed french toast. Yum. And of course oatmeal w/ pumpkin, egg, and an apple

I am watching a documentary that was on a little while ago called "Dana, the eight-year-old anorexic" and it is... truly horrifying. But at the same time, it gives a brilliant perspective of anorexia and how it manifests. As it goes on you see her become happier, healthier, her face fuller and smiling more.

What I think are some key quotes:

"People think anorexics are stupid, 'cos they do it, 'cos they want to be thin. I'd never do this in a million years if I just wanted to be thin. I'd never hurt myself the way I'm doing, I'd never hurt my family the way I'm doing. I'm not that kind of person."

"Every time you sit at that table it's like trying to fight your worst fear, continuously. And you have to be so strong to deal with it every day."

"It is a demon. It's something that comes in there, possesses your child and you can't fight it, they can't fight it - you don't know what to do."

"A lot of people say that anorexia is like another voice in their head. I call her Anorexic Anna. It's half you, and half this, y'know... other identity. And you have to learn to kind of, push it back and push it back."

"Just because someone comes in here and eats certainly doesn't mean that they're better, because everybody comes in here and eats and they can still have a very anorexic way of thinking."

"... it's more than a dream. It's just like... finding her in a different... y'know, a different person."

"You remember the days when you just ate what you wanted to eat, you didn't think about it, y'know?"

Some of the girls are quite thin and it may be triggering, so please, if you're worried about the triggers within it don't watch. I am not sure if it is available outside the UK anyway. But I think it is an interesting, if not horribly sad insight.

http://www.channel4.com/video/dana-the-8-year -old-anorexic/catchup.html

I just wanted to sayt hat even though i don't reply to posts often I read every single one and i really admire all of you and the progress you've made and wish that i could too :)

at the party one girl who i ahvent seen in a while was like "you look GREAT! like you could be a model of the Atkisn diet or something?"

which makes me strongly believe that a 13 year old girl SHOULDNT know what the atkins diet is, and it really shocks me >.<

at the party i ate a slice of cheese pizza, some really good veggie and cheese-SMOTHERED pasta, some salad (hadnt eaten ANY veggies that day), and a slice of ice cream blizzard cake =) oh and some nachos after (but my friends mom kept commenting on the salad >.<

dads birthday.. and he got all drunk like he always does and makes our lives unbearable but i guess i'll just plug in the headphones and do homework... :S

food so far:
b- oatmeal with brown sugar, cinnamon, apples, maple syrup, =) (sort of a dump everything i thought might taste okay into a bowl but it was good :)

Hello All. Wow, miss a day and suddenly there are several pages to read. I'm afraid I probably won't reply to everything… I've had an ok day so far. Met my boyfriend for breakfast this morning, then had a 10km erg to do. The erg was pretty awful. I have so little strength at the moment that I was pretty much in tears for the second half. I think I scared my captain a little, but I did finish, which was good. And then I managed to wolf down an energy bar afterwards before I felt too sick to eat (intense exercise makes me lose my appetite). I'm playing squash this afternoon too, but probably only a gentle half hour of knocking a ball around.

I got a little freaked the other day when my director of studies mentioned that I looked like I'd lost weight. And he's really not the most perceptive of men. And I talked to one of my rowing friends who said she'd gained a stone due to not rowing. Gah, why did I have to fall so far in the other directions? It isn't fair.

Food so far today:

Breakfast: cappuccino and lemon drizzle cake – 400

Lunch: bread, pb, nutella, biscuits – 500

Slr – My birthday's the 6th of November – nearly 21! Well done on your party eating!

Agru – well done on hitting 3000. I'm crossing my fingers for you about the job too!

Gibbit – Sorry to hear about the job, but if it wasn't what you wanted/needed then I suppose that's something at least. Hope the campaigning has gone well. I know what you mean about other people cooking. I always struggle to put that aside when I'm eating in hall, but it's hard. I still find myself wondering how much butter or oil has been used etc. Try and enjoy the party anywhere.

Aqua – I've been back at college a week and I still haven't quite got all the food I need in my house, so I'm visiting almost every day. I agree that it's frustrating. And I constantly feel like I'm spending too much money. But health over savings I guess.

Dana – Sorry to hear you've had a bad day. I hope things get better.

Spek – Don't worry about not posting so much. If it's helping you, then it's doing its job.

Lala – so do I. Really need to find some non-carb snacks though… Ah house parties. The room at the end of my corridor is a double set (two bedrooms and a big living area), so it's often used for parties. It can get a bit noisy. But the (drunk) owner last night invited me to any parties they happen to throw in the future…

spunky: I agree with Agru. Go to the student services center and inquire about what accommodations are available. Due to all the disability legislature untimed tests and such are required by law. I have taught numerous students who qualify for the "gifted and talented" moniker and many of them were slow test takers. (Of course, some of that was due to perfectionism.)

gibbit: I'm going to lovingly give you a little kick here. The other day you wrote about having a stomachache from eating a sandwich at lunch. But yesterday you ate a can of beans, which also gave you a stomachache. I think you should try the lunch sandwich again. It seems as though bread would be much easier for the body to digest (as well as not being quite so filling) than beans are. Maybe have a side salad with it or veggies cooked in oil or with a peanut sauce. Experiment with different sandwich fillings to see which is least bothersome to the tum-tum. I am anal about getting my veggies in too but I have scaled back on the amount I eat in order to make room for the other stuff.

hi guys!  i am feeling so good! its so nice out, im happy, whatever, food is food.  this week, or the next 2, are going to be challenging!  my brother is com,ing home and it will change the family dynamics in a huge way, eating patterns especially and its a 8 day holiday starting mon too, ofcourse centered around food, duh, rt!?  but its cool, thats life!  yesterday my dad yelled at me for not going to the gym more, lol, so i lied and i said i do go but i havent been since like the summer! lol, SILLY PARENTS!  ok, we CAN do this, YOU have the power to make a change, dont stall, dont make excuses!!! TODAY IS THE DAY!  oh, so im alo going to buy higher cal breads and yogurt+stuff asap bc i figure once i gain ill just switch to some lower cal choices bc 3000 cals, even on lowfat, not nonfat, is too much bulk!  oh yea, carbs-yum, energy!!! come on guys!! lol also dont log foods, pretty much same reson LALA said! oh, i dont get enough veggies either! i will in time, rt?!

GIBBIT-hi hun! so i meant bring food to the campaign thing, not the bar mitzvah! lol, those are deff tough but i meant prepare yourself as in eat EXTRA before to make up for not having enough there, altho if you did choose to eat there that would be a major accomplishment, remember, this is life and events like this will happen, many times, so we need to get comfy w it now.

AFONELERI-hi hun, whats an erg?? sounds like a tough day, i say you need to remember how weak you felt, how scared and embarassed you were about the sports, what teacher said...use this as motivation! again, you need a lot more cals to recover, gain, +get healthy, how much more of life are you willing to waste? remember that!

AQUA-hi hun!  are you veggie? i forget, subway has decent stuff, i like ham+american melt toated, yum, and the cookies too!  lol, i think anything labeled as "pure" or "healthy" is bound to cost molre, oh well, have fun today!! maybe kashi pizza? imy family likes it.

sat-

thomas bagel square, 1 slice bread, 1.5tbspn PB, trail mix, apple, hard boiled egg(yes, yolk too) ~650

Hey guys... just got back form my running race!!!! was so pleased how it went.... i had energy and didn't feel tried so i m ust be eating well!!! it was one of a set of 4 races that all points add to gether over the 4 races! it was the first one so far!!!also i think having the pasta yesturday evening helped... goin to have the same this evening as need energy again for tomorrow.... county lacrosse trials!!! it never stops!!!!!

I made sure i ate straight after running and as soon as i got back to the house... and now i feel much more motivated as i just want to keep running and racing etc so need to make sure i dont get it tken away from me!!!

B= porridge w water, few seeds and tbsp maple syrup..... 2 toast one w marmite and one w honey (this is the breakfast i have to have before a sports competition as i find it lucky hehe wierd i know!!!! but what is odd is i can have seeds and syrup on this day but i find it really hard on other days!!!)

S= wholewheat pitta w tuna and 1/2 tomatoe

Just before race had fruseli bar... race = 4.9km

S= straight after had low fat rice pudding and protein shake

L= (in car) wholewheat pitta w pb and j.... 1 pear.... 2 slices malt loaf

S= as soon as got home.... 1 cup special k w fat free yogurt and 150ml fruit smoothie..... 1 piece of toast with 2 tsp hummous!!!

so far = 1822 cals!!! but not sure how much burnt in race??? but still really plsed wiv my eating efforts.. for as u guys know the last few days havnt bn a successfu as they shud have been!!!

agru - that is such a good motive... and brill on targetting 3000 cals!!!! you sound so positive so kep up the awesome work!!! i will be nce to see ur brother and u can do it!!! :) i know how u feel about snacking i get slightly confuse of when and what... hehe

gibbet - yer i envie anals they seem so relaxed and take things a they come!!!! i have 2 dogs... trigger a labrador and myrtle an irish wolf hound (she is massive!!) and the i have my cat- feather which i love!! hehe my mum confronted me today at the running race for my housemistress had tod her i was throwing away fll fortisps... (i am only having 1 a day not 2) so she asked me y. i explained that i would much rather eat the extra cals than have a fortisp which is totally true.... i thought she wud be cross but she too it quit well and  thin she understood... then she said i know u r paniced about Mexico - and i replied that  scared of all the differnt foods etc, she was quite reassuring but i s=just want to say thanks for ur advice about saying what i feel really helped... mum did also bring up the point u did.. u could try adding new stuff but if it is making thigs worse u dont ave to! thanks!!! hope th party went well!!... many hugs :)

aqua- i spend so muc money on food it is insane... i was lookin at my balance the other day and was like **** where has t gone!!!! well i thinking of one of the ivy league Uni's - I've heard so much about them and they sound amazing and also american unis a much bigger on the whole sport thing!!.. do u know if u can take sport scholarships there?? thanks and hope ur wekend goes wel.. and have fun at ballet!!

lala - i watched a bit of the program when it wa on the TV but couldnt watch much as i started feelin terrible but those quotes are accurate!! and  i think it ould help some peeps if they cud handle it!!!! hope ur weekend is goin well!!??

dana- thanks so much.... and hope youhav fun at the wedding, even though it might b quite different! you cn do it!! and alo realy hope the filmin goes well!! try not to compare yoruself to other peeps for u know what u need!!! but keep up the brill work!!! :) glad u sound so positive abot the whipped cream thats such a gd step!!! and yer carbs r goo i dont know how many ive eaten in the last few days but with out them i wud have done not half as wll in my race/ sport etc!!!!

charlie- as i said to aqua im thinkin of the ivy leage Unis.... but yer they are quite hard to get into i gues!!! hehe .. but i have heard a lot about them and my school have told me if i want to aim for them i should!!! but they are big in sport as well right??? also do u know if u ca take sport scholarshis or something lke that? hope all is well and thanks

afon - well done for having the energy bar.... sometimes after intense exercis e feel terrible but u have to remember to eat so your muscles can resock thier glycogen levels and repair!!!! bu yer i love running!!! hehe have fun t squash!!! dont feel down about maybe loosing some weight just increase ur cals and u can do it!!! mayb have more snacks through the day!???

o soz ive writen another essay again!!! o well!!! xoxoox

HI  LULU-great job eating before+after the race, you NEED the energy and not to freak you out, lol, but id say about 1000 more cals, have some ice cream for dessert, cake...remember, after a workout youre still burning cals, you need to make those up AND more in order to gain!  remember your motivation, sontinuing w sports, you need stregnth+health for that, you need to eat, to replenish the cals burned, to heal your body from malnutrition, +more to gain(gaining health, rt),,so that a lot of food but to continue running+stuff thats waht you need to do, you can do it, remember, health+eating==life+sports!  you can do it!

hi All,

Had a bad day y'day. Cud eat jus 1620 cals. Have severe stomach ache.. but managed to hav a 500 cal breakfast and an apple so far today so that makes 580 so far.

Will post the diet for the day later...

take care all.

PEOPLE WITH STOMACH ACHE!

You need to push your calories NO MATTER WHAT. Even if it means you eat more oil in your food, even if it means you have a wierd day of eating lots of liquidy things. Make stews with oil in them, make creamy soups, make liquidy porridge. Eat ice cream, eat nuts, eat nut butters and avocados. Make smoothies, make milkshakes, find yourself Ensure-type formulas if it is a long bout of sickness.  Soften bread in your soups or make bread puddings, make croutons, make cheese on toast - my point? EAT.

It is possible to eat with a stomach ache. Do not use it as an excuse. I have seen waaaay too many people going "my stomach hurts so I'm not going to eat enough today". I had a kidney infection last year which was so bad I couldn't keep down solid food for weeks. I lived on nutrition drinks - admittedly, why I no longer like them - and lucozade, thick stews with pasta and/or grains in them and starchy veg, and ice cream. Yes, I admit, I lost weight but it was largely fluid based due to the amount I was being sick - and my point is I still ate. SERIOUSLY. Don't make excuses for yourself, just do!

On Food Prices

I've seen a lot of you all saying how hard food costs are hitting you. I, too, know your pain, but I have greatly reduced some of my costs a few ways. First of all, and I know this might not be so viable for some of you, we already grow a few things in our back garden. Namely, squash, blueberries, strawberries, chillies and peaches. The squash and chillies are the only things in season right now but we have been using the little squash that are actually growing nicely. It is a good investment in the long term.

To repeat stuff I said from over on Dana's thread on food costs, aim for fruit and veg that is in season and make regular trips. Only buy the fresh produce you know you are going to use within the next two to three days and make sure you use it. For dry stables and cupboard stores, try finding a local wholetrader and buying in bulk as it saves money long term. Do not get picky about brand labels and organic food. Some things it is not worth paying organic for anyway as there is little difference in content of pesticides and what have you. I understand wanting to be eco-friendly and things but it isn't always an option when money is tight.

My dad being someone in a warehouse, he can also confirm that many things that come in a "Value" or cheap line of a store (for Britons, an example of this would be Asda Smart Price, Sainsbury's Basics ranges) come off the same trucks as their better foods. For example we have Value frozen sweetcorn and value cocktail prawns in my fridge/freezer and Value dried fruit right now that I know of that are as good as any from a more expensive line.

If you're buying fish and seafood tinned fish is still good. One thing you can afford to do is look for sustainable, seasonal fish and meat when you shop. If there are worries about mercury look at sardines and pilchards in particular - they are oily fish, contain calcium and vitamin D, and have one of the lowest mercury contents of any fish.

One of the big reasons why I eat mostly cleanly despite having to eat so much is because it costs a lot less to make your food from scratch than to buy lots of processed goods. Look at the cost of a tin of soup and then try to think how much cheaper it would be to just make a massive pot of it that you could freeze and would last you a longer time. This is one of the reasons I try to encourage you to learn to cook, Agru!

If you can get buy one, get one free type offers on cupboard staples particularly stock up, but if it is on fresh produce stick by the rule that I posted above: are you really going to use that in the next two to three days, before it goes bad? With how much we have to eat we can't afford to waste food - literally.

http://www.eattheseasons.co.uk/ - What is in season
http://www.fishonline.org/advice/eat/ - Sustainable fish and seafood list
http://www.healthcastle.com/organic_foods.sht ml - "What should you buy organic?" Article from healthcastle.com

Today, not Tomorrow

I remember when I told Jason for the first time about my ED and he told me the first thing he wanted me to do was go and eat something extra. I told him I was scared; he replied "I know, but if you don't start now you'll put it off and put it off until I get there, and you'll be three pounds lighter and further away for all I know. Go eat something." So I went downstairs and got a satsuma. Okay, not huge, but at the time I had been living on about two hundred net calories a day. I was practically dying. And I did it, there, and then. I didn't wait until the next day, or the one after that. If you constantly tell yourself, "Oh, I can do this tomorrow" it will never get done fast enough. It's one more day of recovery added on to your total, it's one more day of your life you live under your ED and that you will not get back. 

If you are in a sport or active one day know you need to eat even more than you usually do. If you're going out somewhere BE PREPARED, take extra food. If you are under calories, surely, you know the lists of heavy density foods by now. If you're eating half-fat switch it to whole. Go to the supermarket, buy some whole-fat yoghurt, eat it. I know it isn't easy, I know, but the more and more excuses you make for yourself the easier it gets for your ED to get its fingers in. And you're all better than that. Think of what you will have after recovery, when you don't have to worry about all this any more. The more "tomorrows" you make for yourself, the further away that gets.

ill just say DITTO  to what LALA said, there will always be an excuse, always another tommorow, and another and another...when will it end?  when will YOU  take that step, fight back, and win!  who is in control here?

HEY AGRU thanks and putting it like that makes it seem i can do it. thanks for the encouragement... i cant eat cake/ ice cream (major major FF) but i made sure i ate loads of pasta for spper and i didnt freak out!!!! hehe lets hope tmorow i get though ok as i have lacrosse all day..... but i find the weekends so hard and trying to keep monday normal is such a drag... however i have motivation!!! thanks and love that equation!!! hope ur weekend is goin well?!

pmercury- sorry ur feelin not gr8 but as lala said u have to do it.. even though it may b horrd... i find it hard aswell but u can do it!!! and hope ur weekend gets better hun! :)

 lala - brill advice.... the whole tomorrow thin i can relate to.... i sometims have that problem so will try not to now, ur BF sounds gr8 :)

watchin Xfactor.... hehe!!!!

hi guys! so i know ive said this once before, but when i was really in the ED my father, and sometimes i too, wondered if i was depressed bc i was always so blaze, didnt care abotu anything, never had energy...but i really think it was that i was just malnourished, like im happier just bc im not hungry, then i can add even more reasons to be happy bc im in a better mood to begin with, its just awesome what health, or approaching health, can do for a person!

sat-

thomas bagel square, 1 slice bread, 1.5tbspn PB, trail mix, apple, hard boiled egg(yes, yolk too) ~650

100 cal brownie type thing so topped w/almond butter+trail mix, glass of milk~310

LULU-good for you, and you will get thru tomm, not hope, but will, bc YOU  want to continue w all these sports.  think about this--youre like a car, a car needs gas to run, oil...w/o it it starts to not function as well, slow down, stall and needs the  gas+oil etc to rev up and be able to operate, fuel yourself and youll be amazed at what you can do!

Agru – Good luck with the next couple of weeks. An erg is a rowing machine. And I'm quite proud of myself – I ate three quality street chocolates after my squash session, when usually I would have eaten one, and I'm not counting them towards my calories for the day. *deep breath*

Lulu -  Well done for the race. And good luck with the lacrosse trials. Lacrosse scares me, although I love it. I ran into the back of a lacrosse stick when I first played and ended up in hospital with a bleeding kidney. Good for you for eating after you finished the race.

Pmercury – Well done for eating a big breakfast. Do your best today. The more you eat the better. As lala said, just try increasing your calories in ways that don't mean having more actual meals, just making the meals you do have a little more calorie dense.

Lala – Thanks for all the advice. It's all things I know, but I still need someone to repeat it to me before it actually seems like things I really should follow. I try and do that, but I'm not as consistent as I want to be. It always ends up with me getting to the end of the day, realising I haven't eaten enough, panicking, eating lots of chocolate and then feeling bad because the foods so unhealthy.

The rest of today:

Snack – apple and cinnamon cookie – 100

Dinner – curly fries, fried aubergine and broccoli – 450

Dessert – raspberry and white chocolate muffin bar – 400

Snacks I'm not counting – energy bar, quality street.

Will still need more later. Grr. But squash was good fun, and I finally managed to catch my friends in hall for dinner, so I had a good chat with them (I've hardly seen them since I got back to uni).

Am sleepy. Had a good ballet class. Ate out for lunch. Blah I'm bored! I need a hobby that doesn't involve food lol. Yay I'm so happy that it's fall! It's my favorite season. It's nice and breezy outside and the leaves are starting to change color.

agru- Is your brother older or younger than you? Glad you're feeling so good today! And yep I'm a veggie :) 

lulu- Good that your race went better. See how much better you perform when you give you body the right fuel? Running burns a lot of cals. I looked up how many a 110 lb. pound person burns running 5 miles per hour, and in an hour they would burn 422 cals! So have a big snack. I would love to go to Yale. There are a lot of sport scholarships. Some schools even let you go for free if you're good enough!

lala- That was just the kick I needed. I'm suppose to eat back what I burn but after ballet today and the ED side of my brain got the better of me. I though "Nah, I don't really need to." But then I read what you posted about making excuses, and then I had some granola. So thank you for the sage advice. And the link you posted for the Dana videos only work if you live in the UK. So I googled it and there was a link to watch it and it lead to a porn site. :\ Erm no thanks!

Lunch- 6" veggie delight from subway w/ provolone, WM yogurt, TLC bar, carrots

Snack to make up for ballet- Trader Joe's granola and 1% milk

Lulu: Ex-boyfriend. But he was the person that gave me the push I needed, so, I kind of thank/respect him for doing that even if he didn't end things in a good way. I got a phonecall from him about a week ago, though, apologising for how he dealt with it. Not too happy with him still, not willing to start talking to him again or anything like that, but he was responsible for me getting so many things out of the way and getting recovery rolling so I feel like I shouldn't sit and begrudge him forever. He broke up with me because he couldn't handle my ED on top of his own depression, apparently, rather than the "I never loved you" excuse he gave at first. Which I understand. I was a different person at the start of recovery, still devious, still horrible, still snappy. I wasn't fun at all.

Aqua: D'oh. Let me see if it's on Youtube at all.

... nope, Channel 4 put a copyright claim in. Lawlz. That's a pain, it's a very good insightful documentary.


You're all welcome for the kick. I posted it in part because I'm having one of those days and needed one myself. But I have noticed so many "I can't" and "Tomorrow" lately and they need to be "I can" and "Today".