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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

duh-food update-

thomas bagel square, 1 slice bread, 1.5tbspn PB, trail mix, apple, hard boiled egg(yes, yolk too) ~650

100 cal brownie type thing so topped w/almond butter+trail mix, glass of milk~310

sandwich w 2 slices of cheese, veggies, fage w sauce, plum, cookies+fluff~600

1 cup ice cream 250

chicken salad sandwich(chicken, mayo, salt+pepper), veg salad w avocado+almond butter ~550

almond butter+jeely+trail mix on toast, apple, yogurt 

after food shopping and i stop being such a mental retard, 3000 will be no prob!  tomm- AT LEAST 3000

spunky.. thanks... i know i need to remember that.. carbs and fats are hard for me.  im not used to having to "gain" weight. 

lulu... when do you leave?

gibbit... how did it go? you feeling better?

aussie... how was your bday?

so tonight's wedding wedding was beautiful!  The traditions are amazing and my friend Kelly looked stunning.  She only knows the most posh people so of course I compared myself to everyone there.  And of course they were mostly all beautiful and successful.  At first I was worried about the food... but something stupid helped me.  There was a girl there I have been friends with forever who is a Channel model who I haven't seen in a while bc she was in mulan but she came and she had a big ol plate of food and she was chowin down so I figured, "hey she is a statue of perfection and she eats it!"... sad to compare my outsides to someone elses but it helped me.  I actually didn't even take my scale out of my bag and I didn't weigh a damn thing.. I just ate.  Not that I know the weights of Indian food anyway so I can't even estimate my cals today or carbs or fats and I am seriously kinda buggin tonight but it was freeing as scary as it is now.  I like it and I hate it too.  Tonight I am not freaking about carbs, I am freaking about fat... if its not one thing its another isnt it.  But no need to freak its just a day and I am ok.

So, I know the first half of my day but I don't know my total.  I hope I didn't go tooooo far over my cals.  I know I am trying to gain but you should understand that fear.  I am sure I didn't go under!

I am tempted to still do my night snack bc its a habit now and I am a creature of habit and I don't eat out of hunger ever I eat for habit or ritual or fear or comfort... thats why I was a binge eater.  So, I don't know if I should.  It's not like I need to or even want anything I just feel like I do it usually.

B.... French Toast with 2 tbs honey instead of syrup for a change and 6oz greek yogurt (410 cals)

L.... BIG bowl of high protein cereal (I was in a breakfast mood today) with soymilk and almond slices and raisins a grapefruit with a stevia (550 cals)

D.... cocktail hour: 2 pappadams with sauce, 1 large FRIED samosa

       Dinner:  Baigankabharta platter with big piece naan bread and chickpea salad                         with boiled squash 

I'm thinking it was ALOT more than usual... don;t know a number.

dana- you should totally have your night snack! Don't restrict just because you don't know the cals for the day. I'm going to eat again also even though i'm still full from the party just because it's a habit and also if we're not hungry, but not neccesarily stuffed to the point of exploding, there's always room for more, right? wow, an indian wedding sounds amazing! I love the whole culture and the food! I do that too, I compare what other friends eat and see how most of them are still beautiful and thin and still truly enjoy their food and it helps me eat too. Mentally i'm feeling better today, how are you? 

agru- great job adding in all the extras today! your menus keep getting better and better! mayo would be great if i could stand the taste :\ It will be good to challenge yourself this week with all the family dinners, try and focus more on the company and make the eating come naturally. I think families who eat together are known to have healthier diets and relationships with food. my family is big on having all meals, and even snacks together. That's what i love about coming home, i'll even make my mom come sit with me when i have snacks even if she's not eating, the company is nice. ugh, i totally relate with not feeling hungry at all. I've felt stuffed the last few days trying to get my intake as high as possible, i'm just eating through it anyways. 

okgo- great job! is it awful because you're full or guilty? don't let either one stand in your way! drink some tea if you feel bloated and do something fun to take your mind off of it. 

spunky- you're so smart! :) seriously, i think ED just creates a mental block, we need to tear it down and learn to be normal again. 

Jess- hey! dont worry about not posting, you're out there having fun and living life, that's recovery! I'm sorry about your knee, i know you have to be soo careful with injuries even after you think they've healed. I have so many chronic problems because when i was really competitive in gymnastics i would just ignore pain anytime i got hurt, because i wouldnt want to give up competing. I wish i could eat haagen daz! the soy ice creams are never as high in cals. 

aqua- i'm close to being done with the omnivores dilemma, i've really liked it! unfortunately it's been put on hold while i read books about foreign policy :\

slr- that's awesome you had what you were craving! wow, 12 cups?! that's crazy. I'd suggest replacing it with a more cal dense snack, but since you were hungry again anyways, i guess that's good! also great that you snacked on goldfish with your friend, that's so normal and healthy :)

ok, so i had sooo much fun at the bat mitzvah! I danced the night away with my friends and family and a bunch of middle schoolers, we just let loose and got all wacky and had a great time! they even had a dj and were giving out fun things like hats and those glow in the dark necklaces to wear, and funny sunglasses. The food made my stomach hurt but I ate it all! it was catered where they bring you your courses to the table. the veg main meal was smothered in butter, i know because the girls brother is severely lactose intolerant and wouldnt eat it, but I figured, what the heck, i'll deal. yes, it did and is still sort of worrying me that it was so much butter. It made my stomach hurt for a while but i danced through it and made myself forget. it still hurt too much for dessert, plus desserts were like a cheesecake and a chocolate cake with a lot of cream too. At the moment the stomach bloat seems to finally be lessening so i'm going to have my big nighttime snack too. Hope everyone else had a good night! 

so, other snack was: vanilla yogurt, pecans, and applesauce

d- salad with dressing already on it. White rice with lots of butter, roasted vegetables with more butter. glass of wine. 

s- to be determined...prob oatmeal, dried fruit, pecans, and maybe topped off with soy ice cream. 

Hey everyone! I'm back in sydney =( so sad... I already miss my cousins and miss singapore. I actually didn't miss sydney one bit at all. But anyway, I think you guys are right. I have to talk to my parents to tell them but I don't know how! Everytime I talk to them and try to explain how I feel, I don't know what to say and I choke. I wish they could trust me and believe in me but they've already said 'Remember the doctor said, WE make the decisions for you?' and even my dad said this arvo, 'Your mind is not thinking properly and you can't make decisions for yourself.' Ouch.

So my eating schedule was really stuffed up because of the plane ride, but that didn't stop me =p

B - Plane food ugh.. Some wholemeal roll. Got back and had a big bowl of cereal

S - Lots of biscuits and cookies and shapes

L - Poached egg on toast (the yolk was disgusting but i ate it!)

So I feel a bit guilty because it was not a very healthy day... but I'm trying not to make that restrict my dinner. We're having some glutinous rice dumpling thing and I'm pretty sure thats high in cals! And my mum bought Ensure, so I'll be having that for dessert I guess. =)

Falling: Eww, plane food. Good job on eating the yolk, they are amazingly good for you. In regards to what your parents are saying, how long did your doctor tell you that? Do you think you could go back to him/her again with them and have a reassessment? Try to get the doctor to give some praise of your progress? If you don't know what to say to them write it down first and read it to them, there is no shame in doing that. If you're having Ensure for dessert you could try freezing it, like ice cream. >> Heh.

Aqua – I love fall too (or autumn, as we call it). I like autumn clothes more than summer ones too. Prettier colours.

Lala – I watched the show. It is quite shocking. I kind of want them to go back and see how she's doing in a few years though, because so many people were saying they were worried she'd relapse, and I really want her not to.

Lulu – Don't worry, I find it funny too. And it all worked out for the best in the end, because it brought to light an underlying problem. No races for a couple of weeks. We're just sorting out crews for the new year, which is turning into a bit of a headache.

Gibbit – Good for you for eating all your snacks and having lunch. Keep up the good work. I know I need to keep building up the calories now that I'm rowing again. I expect my appetite will start growing again once it kicks in properly, which would be nice.

Spunky – Well done with the increase, and sorry to hear about your bad night. I really hope things get better for you soon, that all the tests pay off.

Slr – Good on you for eating oatmeal instead of yoghurt.

Charlie – Good luck with reaching 2800, and hope the experimentation works out.

Psychoj – Glad to hear you're doing well, and that food is no longer an issue for you. I hope your knee isn't too bad though. I had a hamstring tendonitis – strained the tendon behind my knee – and it's only just got better enough to start rowing again.

Dana – Well done for not taking the scales out and for just letting yourself enjoy the evening. That's a great step. And go for the night snack. Every little helps in the weight gain stakes after all.

Falling – Maybe you could try writing to them? Write down what you want to say and get them to read the letter before you talk, then you won't need to worry about choking. And don't worry about the plane ride messing with your eating. It always does, and at least you ate.

So I'm upping my daily aims again. 2500 from this week on, plus snacks to make up for the exercise. I bought some dried figs yesterday to add to my breakfasts and to snack on throughout the day. They're really yummy and pretty calorie dense, so I'm happy. I'm also really stiff from yesterday's rowing, and I need to do another one today. But it's half the distance, and I can't keep putting it off or my captain will get very annoyed.

Food so far;

Granola, orange juice, milk, two dried figs - 450

Afoneleri: I thought it was touching and sad when the older girls were like, "She's only eight, she's not supposed to know what calories are, she should be with her mum" even though they were all in the same boat.

Morning. Whyy am I so sleepy?

I'm going to see the City of Ember movie with my sister today. Afterward I'll probably go to whole foods. But I have to admit, Whole Foods has sort of lost some of it's luster for me. I read two book by Michael Pollan (In defense of food and the Omnivore's Dilemma) and it's really changed the way I think of food. He pointed out that the organic market has really been industrialized now. The farmers who started organic farming just wanted a clean way of farming without chemicals, and they wanted to keep their sales local. But stores like whole foods just started marketing it, and now there's organic TV DINNERS?? With ingredients flown in from as far away from Argentina? Sure, free range hens aren't given chemicals. But they're still packed with 20,000 other hens. They aren't allowed outside until they're 5 weeks old, and by that time they don't want to risk going out. Then they get butchered 2 weeks later. Sorry to just ramble on like this but whole foods is pretty much a regular grocery store, with much higher prices. As sad as that makes me to admit, because I love whole foods!

lala- Both of the books are really good. The Omnivore's Dilemma was actually the first one he wrote, but it doesn't matter what order you read them.

agru- Aw, I'm sorry you had a hard time last night! Ha amen to high calorie condiments. Regular fage is yummy! Much creamier than 2%. Yeah, the books are actually helping me. I think that they have kind of helped me break some of my orthorexic habits.

psycho- Glad you're back. You must tell us more!

dana- Glad you had  agood time at the wedding! And I don't think that your motivation to eat was stupid at all. Seeing that normal people sometimes eat way more food than I do actually helps me too. Hope you didn't restrict, your body needs all those cals!

gibbit- Yeah, like I've said, that book has really changed my mind about what it means to eat healthy. I want to go to Polyface farm! I'm glad that you had a good time at the bat mitzvah! Wow, good job eating all the lactose-laden foods!

xfalling- Plan out what you're going to say to your parents. You could even write them a letter about how you feel so you won't choke when you try to speak to them in person. Ensure *shudders*. Good luck with that.

Breakfast- Blah what to have. Banana stuffed french toast topped w/ PB, oatmeal w/ pumpkin, egg, apple

aquaev- how do you make banana stuffed french toast?

as for me.. going shopping later to do a project (buying materials and a seperate project called Mall Analysis).

maybe using this as an opportunity to just eat fast foods (not mcdonalds but like sushi or something?),

b- oatmeal with cinnamon, PB, raisins, 1/2 cup greek yogurt [500]

will post other foods later :)

xfallingstar: Welcome home! When I am having trouble figuring out what to say in a difficult situation I often practice out loud and/or write down my thoughts. Maybe that will help you sort through what you want your parents to know.

psychoj: Hey there! So glad life is going well. Don't know enough about knee pain to offer any advice.

dana: Terrific job at the wedding!

gibbit: Glad you had fun at the party. I think my first venture into full fat dairy will be cheese.

lala: I just wanted to offer a toast in praise of your dedication. It must be very sigh inducing at times to constantly repeat yourself but hopefully it helps your recovery at the same time. I used to be extremely self-deprecating and passive-aggressive. The cure was a house mate with similar traits. She got on my nerves and forced me to realize how annoying I was. In order to not be like her, I changed. (I'm not saying you're annoying. I just mean that many eating disorder fears are exasperating and I think hearing them day in and day out may cause one to wish to be as far apart from them as possible. I hope that made sense and was not offensive.)  

spunky: I am so glad you are around! You always give me something to mull over. Hope things are going well for you. It's Sunday, take a break from the studying and relax!

lulu: Yes, there are sports scholarships available. I'm not sure if they are awarded to citizens of other countries, probably, but I've never thought about it before. Aim high! I know you are young but NOW is the time to get rid of your ED. Time speeds up the older you get and before you know it you'll be in college. Do you have any area(s) of study you are interested in?

afoneleri: I love autumn as well. Do the leaves change colours where you are? I live in southern California so we only have about one and a half seasons which means very little fall foliage.

Today:

breakfast: 1/2 large blueberry raspberry oat bran muffin doused in almond butter
shredded wheat n' bran w/ nonfat milk
orange

Hello.. I'm new! Had anorexia for about 4 years, preceeded by years of BED and bulimic tendencies.. a therapist's nightmare! Was an IP in an adolescent unit for about 2 years but am now an outpatients and just been handed over to adult services rather than child services cos I turned eighteen. Finding it v. difficult because they pretty much let you do what you want rather than pressuring you all the time to gain (I need pressure otherwise I just sit on my bum and don't do anything haha.) Anyway.. I'm maintaining at a BMI of around 14.2 which isn't great and I really want to recover... My daily meal plan (on a school day) looks like this:

Breakfast: 1 cup all bran, 150mls skim milk, 1 small banana - 360 kcals

Morning snack - Cereal Bar (go ahead yoghurt slices) - 140 kcals

Lunch - Small jacket potato with big salad (no dressing - I know this is a cruddy lunch but it's the only thing I trust in the school canteen!) - 230 kcals?

PM Snack - Fage 0% yoghurt with 1 tsp honey - 100kcals?

Dinner - 190g potato mashed with 1 dessertspoon skim milk, 120 kcal veggie burger, loads of vegetables (usually about a cup of broccoli and one big carrot sliced and steamed) or a big salad - 350 kcal

Pudding - Either a magnum (260kcal) or a chocolate bar (225)

Snack - 2 pears. (90kcals)

So I guess on average around 1600 a day (I have the odd coffee with a spoon of skim milk)... I know skim milk isn't ideal for gaining but I honestly can't stand the taste of any other type.. Any suggestions guys? I'm struggling so much to move on from this position and it sounds like you guys are doing really well despite the struggle ED presents.

xxxx mashed tats

agruskin; You are doing great!! Good job for 3000!!Sorry I was not clear about what & how much ate on my last post. I will make it clear today. My height is 157cm(5.15 ft, so very short), and 42kg(92.5lb) at the moment. My Dr says  I still need to gain a fw more Kg and when I wear skirt or short pants, I can see I need to gain but sometimes especially when I look at my tammy, I dont want to gain weight anymore. I will keep trying to gain though as I dont have period yet and, even it is scary to be bigger, I know there is no benefit to be under weight for and it is unhealthy. And I want to be strong to give strong massage even on big clients!!Your pastrami, cheese, avogado melt for lunch sounds sooo good! Do you make it like sandwich?

gibbit;Im g you had good time at the bad mitzvah and well done for challenging your self by having food there!Thank u so much for your advice on my study. Yes, I will do what I want to do so that I wont regret later! I understand you can  eat lots at night but hard to do so during the day. Im the same. Now it has become kind of bad hobit, but initially probably because if I eat lots during the day I will runout of kcal that I can eat later. I know this is very stupid idea especially becasue I aim to gain weight and now it is scary to break this hobit... I  challenge myself and let myself have bigger meals or snacks during the day when I go out though.

aussiegirl;Im still in australia, flying out on 21th october and coming back on 16th Dcember.

Im worried about going back to parents house in Japan, becasue I cannot keep my pace, and we will b having same dinner to gether. And I will be having different( Japanese) food in japan from what I eat now( western style food ect) in australia, and especially dinner will be bigger and im not sure how much I should eat.So much easier doing it away for home. I lost 7kg in 4 months after coming back from treatment in Australia ( that was before I came back to australia for study and have gained back in australia by myself) even I kept eating ' normal size' of meals  as well as snacks becasue obviously it was  enough for normal +healthy people but not my body to maintain. I know I cannot let it happen again this time. I will write how it goes from japan, so if I struggle, please everyone kick my butt!!

aquaev;Hi!! You sometimes have haagen dazs for snack. What your favirite flavor? I loove macademia nuts or cookie& cream!

today's food

B; 3/4cup Kellog's special K, 2/3 cup soy milk, 2 toast ( one with PB, one with vegemite),1apple

M/T; instant cafe latte made with soymilk( of corse no water!!), non fat yoghurt( I know...)

L; sandwich( ricotta cheese, lettuce, carrot, 2 toast, honey mastard), 1 mandarine,1 biscuit, 1 piece of cheese

A/T; up&go; museli bar

D; Chicken(90g) and veges stir fry with cocnut green curry sauce, 1 cup rice

S; up&go,Le rice ( its like rice pudding)

Just got back from lax trials.... so pleased got into the U19A team... v exciting as I'm U17!!! hehe sorry to brag just so pleased!!! The last few days have been awesome!!! if this doesnt give me mtoivation then i dont know what will!!! I can do it.... and i suppose everyone will hav bad days but u gotta pick urself up and try and move on :)

gibbet - ur doin gr8!!! keep up the brill eating and it wont b too much it is for recovery!!! and glad the campaigning wasn too bad!!! :) well I'm going to a Columbia college talk in an hour, but i think i will look at Yale, havard n Princeton... but not sure yet.. any u wud recomend lookin at??? also wot is really cool in April I'm goin on a lacrosse tour to the USA for 12 days... arriving in Boston and leaving from washington DC!!! cant w8 so and will hopefully get a feel for what america is like then .. for i think we mght be playing some unis??? hehe and so glad the bat mitzvah went well!!!

agru - thanks agan for ur kind words!!! sorry u feel uncomfortable.. iafont should get better as u go along... and yer spukies info sounds gd!!! hope all is well!!

dana - i go to mexico a week today... i just hope it wl be ok :I So glad the weddin was gr8 ad that is gd u relaxed and felt u could eat to without worring... keep up the awesome work!!! keep it up and hope all is well!!! :)

aqua- hope the movie is gd... dont think it has come out in england!!! hehe thank book sound ineresting!!

afon - well hope the team selectin goes well... do u row in a team or indivdualy!!! my godmothers son who is american won the gold medal in athens for america... was such a cool moment!!! rowin does sound hard work but fun :)

charlie - thanks for ur encouragement and yup i hope i can b healthy soon!! well not sure really wot areas... but do like maths/ chem/ geography and quite interested in economics... they sound so borin but interestin!!! hehe

mashed- hey welcome... yup we r all here to get better together and a BMI of 14.2 is very low so glad u want to recover.... u can do anythin u want if u put ur mind to it.... im still under child services as 15 and it does sound very different to adult services so dont worry im sure u will get used it and b able to motivate urself forward as things start 2 get better!! hope all is well and i know how hard things are and can b.. but u can do it!!! :)

suppose i better shower a sthe talk is quite soon!!!! hehe

hi guys, still feeling super motivated despite NOT pooping and having a stomach ache-NO PAIN NO GAIN! so my bro comes howm tonite, gg get him at the airport, and an 8 day holiday starts tomm nite-eating lunch_dinner (all feasts) together!  i think this will be GREAT for me +a GREAT challenge bc for more, more than getting the cals, its deridgidizing myself, eating w others, on a diff schedule, food prepared by other ppl...my mother is cooking the next few meals for once, this means huge amounts of full fat everything so dinners will all be 800ish from what i can see so really good for gaining+normalizing my beh-SO AWESOME, IM PSYCHED-screw you ED!!  oh, so my mom didnt like the idea of full fat yogurt, i dunno what to do?

SAYRI-hi hun, so basically, youre underweight, rt, yes!  what comes w that, risk of lots of health risks now+in the future, lack of energy, ability to thonk, be a part of life-be ALL YOU CAN BE, so, yes, continue gaining.  how many cals are you averaging and have you been gaining on a consistant basis? if its only 1lb or so/wk, you need to increase by 500cals-you can do it, how much more of life do you want to waste? yes, i make the sandwich-very good, i need to increase how many slices i use tho! use all those things you can do now as motivation to get healthy, not just "barely healthy" but really truly all you can be!

CHARLIE-hi hun, just wanna say i love you! lol, oh yum!! but half?? did u get to 2800 yesterday??

SLR-hi hun, so pre-ed and about your age i used to get McDs a lot, 2 cheeseburgers, small fires-it made my day! lol, let go+have fun!

AQUA-hi hun!  i honeslty think "organic" and the other similar stuff is another way of saying "pish posh" like fancy overpriced same as store brand foods!  i dunno, so my mom said no to the full fat yogurt?! never heard of the movie but have fun, get some candy!!

AFONELERI-hi hun, great w increasing, still, i REALLY REALLY think you should be aiming for 3000, maybe in a few days?

XFALLING-hi hun! so as hard as it is to be;ieve, youre not thinking properly bc of the malnourishment, once you start eating more on a consistant basis +you gain +become healthy, things will make more sense, rt now, no thinking, just doing, your mind+body are hungry!  also, your foods dont look unhealthy at all!  spice it up, have some snacks, something you want, challenege yourself +youll break free!

GIBBIT-yay for bar mitzvahs! i used to love the make your own sundae bars!!  the dancing is also so much fun, did u play the game "coke+pepsi" + do the macarena??  electric slide? lol! great job there, too bad no dessert, oh well.  i cant remember how we ate when i was in HS + before, but now we only eat together fri night +holidays but this is a long holiday+my religous nut of a brother will be home so every meal will be together! ha-take that ED! i hope you have a great day +remember, no day like today!

sun-

t bagel, slice of toast, 1.5tbspn PB, jelly, apple, hard boiled egg, slice of cheese~660

Agru: What do you mean "doesn't like the idea"? She doesn't want it in the house? Surely you can just tell her she can still get the kind she eats but you want full fat for your health? Also, I think organic is important on some things but hate how EVERYTHING can be labelled organic. I think it matters more with produce prone to pesticide spraying but little to nothing else, really. :\

LALA- she doesnt think its a good idea for me, doesnt care about it being in the house or nt.  so isaid itll help w getting the cals up but not the volume of the food, so she said try it but wasnt crazy about it, even for me? i dunno

LULU-youre so rt, life is great motivation!!!  eat, replenish yourself!!!  YOU ARE WORTH IT!  again, all that excercise, i think 3000 may be needed!!

thanks lulu_08 :) does anyone have any tips as to how to increase my meal plan in a way that might be manageable? i so want to get better but i find it really hard to shout down the anorexic voice... meh. i've never gone over 1800 at home before though in hospital i needed 3500 at one point to put on a kilo a week (2lbs) ... i wanna go slower at home, maybe 1/2lb a week? if i maintain on 1600 how much do you reckon i'd need to gain that much? arrgh.. nightmare. just had my pm snack - fage 0% yoghurt pot (150g - 80kcal) with a tsp of apricot and pear spread - yummy :) i kind of freak out going above 150kcal for a snack... even though i know i should. i'm a lacto-ovo vegetarian, if that helps..

everyone elses meal plans sound yummy and healthy.. mine looks cruddy and junky.. in hospital we used to have to have puddings all the time, hence the daily magnum/choc bar.. any ideas for alternatives?

sorry if i'm a pain the arse, just so relieved to have found like-minded people who are managing to do what i'm aiming for! xxxx mash tats

Agru,

Hooray for homecooked meals! I love it when my mom cooks dinner.  Of course I’m always the only one who has everything on the table, then goes on to hit the pantry and fridge to add in my own items and make a full 1000 calorie meal.
Don’t get so bogged down in the no full-fat yogurt thing that you forget all the other options!  Let it go and stock up on some hardcore ice cream [Ben n Jerry’s, Edy’s fully loaded—not the lower cal stuff!], hit the snack aisle, and get bigger bagels and calorie dense items in a million otherways.
And yes you are overthinking, not unable to think!  It sounds like you’re scared or nervous too even now as you seem to get it, you question it.  I meant it exactly as I put it with the additions to your meals, not exchanges.  Same dinner, snacks with full fat products wherever possible and the sides.  You dinner plus some muffins and crackers. And so on.  None of it was in exchange for what you’re already doing.

I hope you’ve still been at at least 3000? Even that’s a minimal increase for you!  It will get easier with the changes, but I hope you still made it happen!  If not, start today, 3000 the min—no matter what!

p.s. Your breakfast still looks the same!  Where’s all the new challeges and changes you get so excited about?  One egg? Same items? Come on now, I can tell from all your posts you know what you want!  As usual, I’m not picking on you, just trying to cheer you on.

Dana,
Well, those are the carb guidelines even if you were trying to lose weight!  So even with your diet levels of intake you still need over 60% carbs for a healthy diet. 
That’s a really good idea to put honey on your French toast! And of course a late snack.  I can’t imagine going to bed with nothing but dinner, much less such a small one.  I need a meal right before bed or I’m in trouble.  Even if I just have one item and a glass of milk I’ll wake up hungry within an hour.

Xfalling,
Like I was saying to Agru, I don’t think it’s that your mind doesn’t work, I think it’s just blocked because of the fear the anorexia thing creates.  Somewhere you know what’s right but the ED blocks it from coming through.  I would think it’s a great idea to let someone else, especially those in charge of you, think for you until you relearn it all and have faced your fears so they don’t mess up your thinking any more.

Charlie,
Funny you should mention taking a break.  I decided to for-go my traditional post-breakfast study session and take a “morning of nothingness” today.  A real sacrifice for my school goals because I never do anything productive once afternoon rolls around!
Ok I have got to ask: Why ½ muffin?  [even nongainers eat more than one, much less a half!] Lowfat milk?  C’mon now, who’s goals are you eating for? Yours I hope!

Ahhh Tme for work.  I’m so sorry to everyone I missed!  I’ll try to update tonight and catch up better.

SPUNKY-hi hun!!  havent gone food shopping but will today or tomm, hence the bagel+bread, had a slice of cheese instead of 2 eggs.  i NEED your pushes bc i think everyone else is too scared to push me?!  honeslty, im like the only 1 doing this w/o doctors so i dunno, just a bit of common sense is what im going by.  the next few dinners+some lunches will be family style, brisket+sides, baked ziti, my mom doesnt do diet so it should rack up altho i dont know how to count those things and may have to look them up for the cals to have an idea where i am. and i dont deny it, i do still have ED fears, im in recovery, not recovered-YET, but each bite i take i get closer+closer!  so the only thing w the additions to meals rather than swapping a low cal food for a higher one, is that its so much food and i get full so i thought switching to higher cal for the same volume of food, might work+help? the bfast you posted just seemed so big!?  still lost on the muffins w dinner? like a dunkin donut muffin? ha, seriosuly, we dont eat "normal" meals in my house, its so foreign to me! when i went to college everyone was saying how they missed their mother's cooking, i was just like, are you nuts-the dining hall rocks! i dont think i ever really did the homecooked thing, always take out or frozen.

hello, where are your meals?! i hope youre not suffering in the cal +gaining dept?? great idea taking a break w studying, you deserve it!

ah, lol, me again!

so hella cool-my jeans fit soooooooo well, like my butt, my thighs...lol, yea recovery!!

sun-

t bagel, slice of toast, 1.5tbspn PB, jelly, apple, hard boiled egg, slice of cheese~660

brownie, almond butter, milk, trail mix~330