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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

Aqua: sometimes i think fixing things up with my dad would help too but most of the time we just let it be. Maybe thats just how are relationship is. Him and my sister have a closer relationship, shes only 11 and still needs her daddy. Im not so much now. Maybe one day things will change. If you ever wanna chat about it or anything teen related really just pm me.

Mashed and Lala:Thanks for the replies my lovlies! I have had nak'd bars and trek bar's before and they were goood so i think i will get them again. I just need bars and packets of things to take to afterschool clubs or to eat walking home when im finished (dont like eating at them for some reason, makes me feel panicky, paranoid and stuff). So far i have been doing pb sandwhichs/crackers and homemade bottles of smoothies.

"are you happy now?"
Is what my mom said when she helped me comb my hari, 2/3 of it fell out, and i am not almost bald. I can't stop crying and i'm so afraid right now, nothings working. My stomach and thighs are bigger than before and i've gained weight but my mom says shes making all ym meals frm now on and i have to eat what she gives me :S She's also switching to fullfat EVERYTHING which i dont like because my stomach could never handle full fat dairy, and she said so many hurtful things about how stupid i was and how awful i look... when i look in the mirror im kind of chubby in places and defs dont look starving anymore, but my moms still insisting on making me feel awful, and atm i look awful because im %$()%&$)( BALD

I'm so scared to go to school now.. and withmy friend gone i feel like the wrolds crashign down on me

*hugs slr*

oh sweetie :-( i'm so sorry about your hair. quite often once you have gained a bit it then starts to fall out - i saw it happen to loads of girls in hospital. your mum is probably just worried by such a stark manifestation of your health - like it's one thing thinkign 'ok she looks thinner,' because i guess she can then rationalise to herself 'well maybe it's me fussing' or 'i'm her mum of course i worry'... but hair shouldn't fall out. it does not happen to healthy people. and that's what's frightening your mum.

can i suggest that maybe you're just seeing yourself as chubbier at the moment because you're feeling rubbish and ED thoughts are feeding off that rubbish feeling? i know that whenever i'm upset or low or depressed, i feel fatter. i physically see myself as fatter in the mirror. i *feel* fatter. and yet i get on the scales and quite often i've actually lost weight. i promise promise you're not chubby. there's no way you could be chubby. you're just very low and very vulnerable right now.

we're all here for you, lovie. please be strong.

Slr: Hun, you are a strong, beautiful person, not chubby at all.
*Hugs*
Your hair will grow back, it will take time but remember, at this point things can only get better. You are stunning on the inside and that reflects on the outside too :) I'm so so sorry about your friend :/ But just think that when you go to school you are showing the world how strong you are by facing everything and carrying on as normal. I know it's hard. It's one of the hardest things ever. But you CAN do it. Say it to yourself :)
Your mum sounds like a pain right now but remember she's just got your best interests at heart, you've just got to try and work with her, yo uboth want the same thing in the long run. Remember we all love you! :) And we'll giv eyou all the support we can. Mashed is probably right, although you dont wanna hear it, it probably is just ed talking with the mirror.
Stay strong :]

Food for today...

Breakfast: Bran Flakes, Soya Milk, Trail Mix -

Snack - Plum
Lunch: Cinnamon and Raisin bagel with loads of peanut butter and nutella, cantaloupe melon, dark chocolate

Dinner - cauliflower stirfry with haloumi cheese

Snack - yoghurt and trail mix

had a really sedentary day cos it's my prelims this week and i was studyng all day D:
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Hope you're doing okay lovelies xxxx

Hey slr, sorry you are having such a rough time! I have a rocky relationship with my mom as well, just because she tries so hard to get me to gain weight and get better and I keep saying I will, and then I only maintain because I'm scared of the consequences of gaining back to normal weight.

The hair loss... I have experienced a lot. I used to have thick beautiful black hair... I'm Chinese. And it's dark on the top, but light redish in the light at the bottom from the sun. But now... yea, I haven't had to cut my hair for nearly a year (and it hasn't gotten longer) because of ED. It's stopped falling out in clumps now that I have been eating better for the last six months, but really, it takes time. Try not washing it as much (every other day at the most), and put in heavy conditioners. It takes time, but you won't go bald. What helps is you put it up like in a bun and no one can tell. Don't comb it with a thin comb and when you wash you hair and use a brush, hold onto the ends of your hair so that if you strain the hair, you don't pull on it. Often, the ends are loose, so if you strain it a little, they fall out.

I think your mom is just really worried about you. I don't know how to help except that I know I can share that my mom would threaten me with things like you can't go this internship until you gain weight, or I am making you go to college at home, but she doesn't really want those things. She is so desperate to help me, and yet, no matter what threats she makes, it doesn't help, because in the end I have to make that decision to recover. I know it is harder for you because you still live at home and are younger, but see if you explain her how far you have come and explain to her why you got sick if she would be more supportive in a gentler way. On the other hand, you might need something like what your mom is pushing to get better. I think sometimes we need to pushed out of our comfort zone, to be coerced. I feel like ED lets us make excuses for ourselves. Be strong. You will make it.

oh, gibbit! Glad to hear from you. Good that you are doing so well. I knew you'd pull throught.

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Hey all.  I guess it's been a little over a week since I posted - last Thursday I took a two-day trip to visit some other cities here in Ecuador, and this past week my parents were visiting.  I had a great time being with friends and family, and especially enjoying food without counting calories!  I really wanted to log everything into CC, but I was busy having fun and didn't have time to do it.  Of course I estimated, and I know that I was definitely not hitting 2500 on any day, but it was so freeing to feel like I was eating normally and not when the clock said it was time.  Nothing pre-planned or measured out.  Sure, I had a lot of ED thoughts - eating all my meals in restaurants where I can't control the ingredients is still scary to me.  But I also challenged myself - shared a slice of apple pie with ice cream one night with my mom (I never ever eat baked goods), and I actually drank acohol.  And definitely in way larger amounts than even most non-ED folk would find good for themselves.

AND I went on a few dates with a boy (hence most of that alcohol), and even though I know I'm way underweight (he kept calling me "flaquita," like "skinny little thing"), he made me feel really good about myself.  It made me realize that the only one who actually gives a damn what I weigh (or don't weight) is me, because to him, what makes me beautiful are my eyes, my lips, my intellect, NOT a number on the scale.  I definitely needed that!

I've read over the last few pages of the forum, though I'm not completely caught up...

slr:  Stay strong.  About a week ago when I went MIA I remember you had such a positive attitude about gaining!  Don't let your mom get you down, prove to her that you are strong and want and know how to be healthy.  And know that you are beautiful and any voice telling you otherwise is wrong!

dolly:  It looks like you've been getting your cals up to 2500 - way to go!!!  You've made so many improvements since when you started posting, keep it up!

gibbit:  I'm gad to hear eating went well on your trip (what were you doing in NY?).  I totally feel you on restaurant/hotel/catered food eating.  But it's good that you were able to talk to your mom - my parents kept making little comments about my weight, or about how I've been cutting foods out of my diet, but I've just never been able to talk to them honestly about food/my weight/eating habits.  One day I would love to sit down and have an honest conversation, but I've always been too stubborn and out to prove that I can do things on my own.

ladydanger:  Welcome, I don't think we've "met" yet - I haven't read all your posts but congrats on deciding to gain and keep it up!

likear0ck - thanks :) im so glad youre doing well too. I was out with my friends last night and we were talking about depression and eds etc...And they just kept telling me I was "a Ride" lol and sayin gI was hot and looked like diane off the x factor lol. And I was just like, awww :') It really is just in our heads, we're really not fat, or ugly...It's just this niggling voice telling us we are. It's evil. And I wish I knew where it came from, and how to make it go away. But for now, as my friend George put it when I tried to explain my guilt about eating a cherrybakewell to him:
"You've just got to take a big p*ss on that part of your head that's saying that."

Lol :')

Btw anyone got any good sites for portioning stuff like cereal? I know lalabanana found a few, but I would really appreciate one with pictures of different types of cereal measured out, as I don't have scales except for really dodgy ones that work in ounces and stuff. For example, what does 30g of fruitful shredded wheat look like? Cos I find it dificult to measure in "small handfuls" or whatever :/ Pictures would reeeally help tbh =] Any links? :)

xxx

 slr - i am so sorry to hear about this moment in your recovery. But i also have never seen such a supportive group of people. Look up for the support.  Just think those negative thoughts aren't you, nor are they realistic. Giving into the sadness is giving the upper hand to the ED. You are so strong. Imagine how beautiful and back to blue skies it will be when that voice is no longer a voice, just a muffle that you can roll your eyes at and shake your fist. X

likear0ck - HELLO! I felt quite silly joining this thread, as i'm still at the 'i honestly don't think i'm that skinny' stage. Knowing full well Anorexia's voice is louder in the mornings!! So i come on here and wait till it's gone.. then eat eat eat. I can't explain how ecstatic i am to have found you lots. I get professional support and help. But ALL i wanted was real people who are going through/HAVE been through exactly what i'm going through. It is like a weight, off my shoulders. A freedom.

My problem with snacks is,  thinkabout it(of course i do. i ALWAYS think about food..please stop thinking about food:(...) So much that i get stressed and then either DON'T eat anything or go for something lesser calories.

This morning i'm having oats(sachet plus a little bit more..) a small handful of all bran, vanilla soy milk and blueberries - i estimate how many cals.
A large banana thats been in the freezer all night.. and i know i need to add something extra. So i was thinking 9 grain toast. But what if i have 9 grain sandiwhc for lunch? Do i put carbs with my yogurt for snack as well? But i'm having carbs tonight! Why am i so afraid of food.

SLR- I can completely understand where you're coming from when you talk about what your mom is doing. My mom has freaked out several times over ED situations and had threatened everything from not letting me cook to taking me to an in-patient clinic. I've ended up reasoning with her for pretty much everything, but I realise that this might not always work, and with your mom you may want to just give yourself and her time to calm down - then try to negotiate and make a plan together.

I can't exactly relate to the hair loss problem, but I know many people who have experienced this during recovery, so it's not really uncommon or anything. Just try not to worry about it (or the mirror) and simply try to focus on a complete, healthy recovery - both mentally and physically. You don't HAVE to eat full-fat dairy to gain. In fact, there's often not much of a difference calorie-wise. Nonfat yogurt is 120 calories a cup and whole milk yogurt is only 170. You can make that up with extra nuts - easy.

Good day everyone! So, I"m sure you'll all be happy to know I've completely caught up on reading here! Yes! I'm so great at wasting time lol. Today is going well, I HAVE to get myself back up to eating 3000 again. LAst week was terrible, there was the slight relapse, then in NY I was still trying to pick myself up, and dealing with only being able to eat what was given to me at the conference or going out to eat, so I barely made 2000 every day, which is insane and i havent been that low since before recovery. But I went shopping with my mom and clothes still look bad. So I gotta get the weight back up there!!

Last night was really awesome! I had a date! OMG first time in over a year and a half. I don't think Im very interested in anything serious with the guy, but he's super nice and really intersting and we had a lot of fun. We went out for sushi and I had a bunch but didn't even count how many rolls i ate because iw as busy talking. THEN we walked around this shopping area and got Ben and Jerry's! I absolutely hate having dessert right after dinner, i like spacing out meals, sticking to one type of food, etc, i know it's super ED of me, but I think making myself go on dates forces me to be more normal because I of course dont want to scare the guy off. Also he invited me to his office cocktail party which will be a casino night with an open bar. I have to dress up, meaning look good in a dress, and be prepared to drink and eat party foods, eekk!! but i will do well, and i'm going to try and at least get a few more lbs on me before having to dress nicely for this.

Tonight my friend got us free tickets to go to the theater, so we're also dressing up and going to see a play.

I'll try to make a few responses, but apologize ahead of time if i can't remember everything because i'd have to write 5 more pages at least to get everyone.

Welcome to all the new people!!! Sorry i've been absent for the last week, but I"m looking fwd to geting to know all of you!

lady- you sound a lot like me at the start of recovery, and food still makes me really anxious, it's not even about the calories, i just get so nervous, but you have to start learning to relax, try making yourself switch up the food groups, the times that you eat, eat with people and try to notice how they dont care, or they're not portioning out carbs to protein ratios, etc. your body will naturally even these things out. it sounds like you're eating well! congrats! oh, and i'm a bit confused about what i did that was romantic, but thanks!

dolly- glad you're doing well!! are you over 2500 yet? you can do it!! as Lala said, no "maybe" or "Ill try" if you want to make it to 2500 you can, it's as easy as a few more squares of chocolate, extra scoop of complan, or as clay does, i also eat pb from the jar if i'm really low.

likear- glad you had a great time and relaxed! but don't let it be an excuse to under eat, i did that this last week and its very difficult to get back up there. I was in NY for work, translating for a medical conference. So cool about the dates too! it's funny how we can overcome ED thoughts to impress a boy lol.

slr- i'm so sorry, i totally understand about the hair!! i can't wait for mine to start growing back, it seems that the hair loss starts when everything else gets better. Your mom is just worried and doesnt know how to express it. Parents are human too, have you ever found yourself being really short tempered or yelling at your family when you're actually upset or frustrated with something else? they do the same thing. Keep eating and use your previous posts as reminders of why you're doing this. YOU, the real beautiful you that you are inside, is so much more important than whether you're eating full fat cheese, right?

aqua- haha i was going to ask about the billy goat plan, that would be so funny! i love modern dance, but the kind that's a bit more like jazz, not the ultra alternative styles tha tdon't really take that much talent.

dana- how are you doing hon? sorry the weight gain has been freaking you out lately, it might just be water weight because it would be hard to gain that much so quickly. YOu're doing so well with the ff, so keep it up! hugs!!

clay- awesome metaphor a while back! you're making me really crave clif bars, and magnolia, i need to get to austin soon! ugh my weekends are so packed but i'm sure everyone will be too busy to see me during the week, especially the week before finals, who knows, maybe i'll try and make it there for a few days. Well go on a date to whole foods and watch kung fu panda! i will message you back on the fb soon!

lala- i hope your sister is doing better!

ok, gtg shower and stuff for the theater, but i'll be back tonight.
lotsa love!

mashed... thanks so much.. dont feel so pretty these days.

gibbit... i am well.  congrats on the date i want details!  yeah the gain sucks!  it is bugging me out.  i mean it's good but its too fast for such low cals... im only at 2500.

dolly... wish i could even leave crumbs!!  the binger in me licks em up.

here's my day...

b... french toast and honey and a cup of greek yogurt (500 cals)

l... coffee with soy milk and stevia and a footlong subway veggie hoagie (640 cals)

d.... lobster tail and roasted asparagus in oil (710 cals)

s... popcorn and strawberries and a cup of frozen yogurt (650 cals)

total... 2500

dana - that's ED telling you that, you are a stunner, believe me!

gibbit - i want a date! i feel so unattractive right now - gift from good old Anna Rexya

zebu - you and dolly have almost exactly the same profile pics - like you actually could be sisters or twins. *twighlight zone theme tune* you're both gorgeous though - and will be even more so when you're healthy, not deathly frail!!!

dolly - OI. WHERE has the complan gone from breakfast? and the handful of pecans? tskk, i am like an all-seeing eye, and i don't see 2000+! *waggles finger* remember girl, four, five, six years can go past in the blink of an eye with this illness - don't make the mistakes i did.

food today (oh my god.)

breakfast - all bran, banana, juice, skim milk

snack - trek bar

lunch - wrap, aubergine dip, tzatziki, salad, fage with blueberry spread

snack - fage with applesauce and cashews

dinner (help me god.) went to giraffe (nice restaurant over here,) and they do a 'pizza tostada' which was effectively a flatbread (like a tortilla type one) with tomato, goats cheese, spinach and onion on top. it was delicious (i ate about 2/3, along with salad and some dip to start with) but huge and i freaked out when it arrived because it looked so much like a pizza, even though the base was a wrap. i tried to rationalise 'if this sauce was on pasta i'd be fine with it' but it scared me a lot. plus i've been pretty sedentary all day.

but by the time i got home i realised i should have probably eaten the whole thing, because despite the fact it 'looked like a pizza' (thanks, ED) there wasn't that much cheese on it and 2/3 of a large wrap isn't a proper dinner in replacement of my normal dinner with a pudding and porridge later on.

so

snack - fage (i'm going to turn into one of these!) with tsp of honey.

now feel sick and greedy and guilty because it's like midnight here and i've only just finished eating.

ughhh ED MESSES WITH MY HEAD.

can someone please kick me?

slr- I am so, so, sorry you're going through this. None of this is your fault, and you're not stupid at all! Like mashed said, hair often falls out after you've gained. It happened to me too. I swear to you, there is no way that you're chubby in the slightest! It's just the ED giving you another reason to hate yourself. Really though, you're beautiful, smart, and you should love yourself. Feel better.

likear- Glad you had a nice week. How long are you going to be in Ecuador? Are you going to keep in touch with the boy?

lady- Carbs are good! Mmmm bread. Bread rocks socks. Don't overthink your meals, chances are if you just eat a variety of food you'll get all the nutrients you need. But if it helps you to stop worrying, you can make a list of carbs, proteins, and fats that you can eat so you don't have to overanalyze everything. Such as protein: Yogurt, string cheese, pudding, milk. Fat: peanut butter, nuts, hummus, cheese spread. Carbs: crackers, granola bar, toast, waffles. I like to toss in some fruit/veg too. You just pick one thing off each list and know that you're getting a balance.

gibbit- Woo a date! Does this mean belgian guy is gone for good? Glad you enjoyed yourself though.

mashed- Kick!! Come on now, don't be silly. Look at the advice you gave to slr and use it on yourself! You feel like crud, so ED is taking advantage of that and making you feel greedy when you're not! You've come a long way, so keep fighting.

Breakfast- TJ's moral fiber muffins, oatmeal w/ pumpkin, egg, apple

Snack- Almonds and figs

Lunch- Baked sweet potato w/ butter, pecans and brown sugar; grilled cheese on wheat with two slices of mozarella, half a banarner with PB

Snack- Usual

Dinner- Huevos ranchores tostada!! Nom nom. And fruit salad.

Snack- Apple, dark chocolate, clif nectar bar, Ben and Jerry'

Aqua - Thanks for the list idea, it's damn good one too. I don't eat too many fats. I just don't like alot of the things like nuts and such. BUT i love cheese, and i want to bring butter back into my diet. Not much. Moderation and all that. But i'll definately make a list. It will help, because i know ED gets the better of me and unintentionally chooses the low cal straight away. Sometimes i just ahve to shove it in my mouth before that voice creeps back.. I don't have a problem with Fruit and Veg. I did. For a long while, knowing carbs in Mangoes, when all i cared about was how damn good mangoes are!!

I have weird cravings lately. Pasta, Sushi, Leda Bars(just found the Soy Choc Chip and Apple Cinamon ones today!) I don't know if i should have leda bars every day though. I wouldn't know moderation if it kicked me in the butt right now.. but i try and see it as medicine and i don't feel so bad. Plus this board is keeping me out of Inpatient.

Mashed - I know how frustrating it gets AFTER the meal is done and you know you should have just eaten it. I hate that ED can be so manipulative. Let it be your B**** for the night.

Dana - You are so flippin' gorgeous! I always love seeing your mealplan, you've given me so many ideas... for some reason i'm not as nervous eating half the things i feared so much.

This board has been a literal life saver for me.

Breakfast -
Bowl of Oats & Bran (how much do you reckon of dry oats? i always end up chucking some out because i know it's more than a cooked cup.) With Vanilla Soy (starting to just drink it all the time now) and Blueberries.
- 9 Grain toast with jam
- Nudie Juice

Snack -
- Berry and Vanilla Yogurt
- Big Frozen Banana

Lunch -
- Failry large Sweet Potato
- Half tub of cottage cheese and chives with Wombok and Onion.
- Huge Peach

Snack -
- Bag of Frozen grapes.. don't know how many.. i was busy making dinner and chowin' down
- Halfa Leda Bar.. Chocolate Soy Chips one

Dinner-
- Two Vol Au Vonts(pastries) with Chicken(that wasn't breast.. just picked roast..:() CHEESE SAUCE(Massive FF.. but even put some on top), Steamed Greens, Corn and apotato.

Snack - Planning on Halfa Blueberry Bagel and a vanilla Yogurt

I'm scared i'm backsliding........................ the voice is very loud lately:(
............

So I haven't posted in FOREVER...life has been quite literally insane!!! And the next three weeks are just as bad...can't wait for finals to be over. Problem was, I have been staying up reading everyone, but by the time I got through reading I was too exhausted to post ;)

However, I have an announcement: (drumroll, please) I am now 115.5 lbs, which is the highest I have been since I was 16 years old!!! (6 yrs ago!!) I am kind of holding steady atm, should I gain more? I was about 120-125 pre-ED....

Quick message to everyone sitting on the fence--life is GREAT, so grab on! I have energy, I have hair, I have biceps (gotta love weight-lifting), I have the freedom to go into a restaurant and actually ENJOY the food and the ppl I am with. I basically don't count anymore--I eat a ton of food, and I am not ashamed of it anymore. If I was made with a fast metabloism, so be it...those darn supermodels can just die of envy ;p And you know what...I had a bit of an epiphany--we all (me included) freak out when we have to go up a size clothes-wise...but then I realised: I have always complained bcuz I couldn't find clothes that were long enough ( I am 5'9") and that were small enough in the waist. There is a logical explanation for this: you aren't SUPPOSED to be that height and have a size zero waist--it's ABNORMAL!!

I can never thank all of you for the support you give! A special thanks goes out to Clay--you have me rofl AND eating my bed-time "meal" at the same time, lol.

Slr--I cannot express how sorry I am for your loss. I know your friend would want you to eat--make this a fight for your friend!

gibbit--glad you are sounding more like yourself--before your trip I was getting worried...and it carried over to my attitude about weight...weird ;) You are absolutely beautiful...go steal that guy's heart,lol.

My advice to everyone is to conquer fear foods ASAP--I have now officially (another drumroll, please) conquered every fear food I can think of...and now happily eat them most days, even if I'm not exercising. Of course, now I hope I never have to go back to the fake stuff...and nobody better ever get between me and my peanut butter, lol.

Does anyone on here have ibs? I sometimes think I may have a mild case...some days I get bloated and have painful stomach cramps...I have definitely ID-ed a few foods that bother me, but it makes it tough to gain...my weight is starting to reditribute, I think, but my waist is still, well, not what I hoped for. oh wells!

Hope everyone out there is doing great---I am off to get a few hours of sleep, and then tackle another crazy day!

Gibbit: Im not sure, I think I'm getting there but I can't be positive or certain about it because I'm still all iffy about portions, I have no idea if im under or over estimating as sometimes I seriously think I do...There was no complan in Tesco apparently, my mum went shopping without me this week so I didnt have much control in what she bought :/ But I think the extra chocolate idea sounds good ;) Also I'm glad to see you've beaten your relapse! We all need to stay on track and be strong! *hugs*

Mashed: Sorry about the complan, my mum went shopping herself and said there wasn't any in tesco :/ Gutted my bran flakes wont taste all chocolately, I think I'll have to add nutella instead ;) I'll try make up for the pecans with trail mix which is mixed fruit and nuts anyway, i'll add that with my cereal.

Skinny: yay your positivity has inspired me for today :)

Foodssss I've planned so far...

Breakfast: Soya Milk, Bran Flakes, Trail Mix, Blueberries, Nutella

Snack: Plum, Trail Mix

Lunch: Peanut butter and jam sammich (teehee spelling xD) and it's the fairtrade stall at school on mondays so i might buy a chocolate bar again ;)Scratch that, I WILL buyone :) Which will be like an extra 250 cals or some shizz

Dinner:  veggie omelet thingy

Snack: bowl of cereal, soy milk

Later lovelies :)
Oh btw has anyone got a link to an article about apple cider vinegar helping those with bad bloating after eating? Mymum wont let me take any because she thinks its a weight loss thing, which I KNOW it has been used as but I tried it before for bloating (without her knowing><) and it really helped and i need to find her an article or something to prove it lol xxx

I've heard so much about Tesco.. is that like our Woolworths/Coles?

I'M OBSESED WITH APRICOT LEDA BARS.

But right now.. i'm in a real rut.
I'm going to bed, so you guys will just be waking up.. and i need a shake up.

I don't know if it's because i'm new here and justnervous, again..maybe i'm just overwhelmed. But i;m confused and scared.

I'm having a reallybad night.

For some reason stressing about what to have for breakfast TOMORROW.
Because in my head 'if i have a cup of DRY oats.. do i have yogurt with it?... Is a cup too much? Will ED only pour a 'serving'...what about protein? how much ... what if i want yogurt as a snack? can i have a leda bar as a snack as well? what if i have sandiwhc with bread at lunch... what if i have carbs at dinner too?'

I need a kick in the butt... or right direction.

Sorry. You're the only people i feel i can turn to

please say i'm not the only one

x

ANY help... or slap in the face would be nice.

Hi ladydanger, I just wanted to say that I stress out in EXACTLY the same way as you when I try to plan my meals, it drives me insane! So don't worry you are not weird, it's just the good old ED giving you a hard time... just keep fighting it & soon it will shut up for good :) Btw Tesco is very similar to Woolworths (I'm British but now live in Australia). Where do you buy Leda bars?

My food for today....

B- coco pops + milk

S- 2 biscuits, glass of milk

L- toasted sandwich with cream cheese + tomato salsa, crisps, caramel pudding

S- toast + vegemite, crisps

D- spaghetti marinara, greek salad, 2 scoops ice-cream

S- glass of milk

Disclaimer: Please note, this is at no one in particular.

So, basically, this website is starting to trigger me and anger me because I feel a lot like people just aren't trying or listening when I give advice and for every person that does listen fifty more arrive that don't.

So, toodles for a bit.

2500 minimum if you're a girl. 3000 if you're a guy. Minimum. Sedentary, minimum. No upper limit. No making up for it. Stop thinking about portions and balance so much. Stop thinking if it means you'll start to get better.

Try and improve. Or my leave won't be "for a bit" - it'll be much longer. I'm not supposed to be here to be the only person giving you guys and other posters a kick up the bum in fighting their ED - you are. You should motivate You, not me having to push so fscking hard. Sorry.

Don't leave for good Lala! You give some of the best, no-nonsense advice of anyone on here!

So far today has been pretty good - well, actually, I just got up and my mom's not even awake yet, but we do have our Christmas tree up, which really seems to improve my mood! Hahah. I haven't "planned" everything yet for today, but here's what I have so far - I finally made it to 600 at breakfast, and last night I ate 100 calories extra THAT I DIDN'T PLAN. ^__^

Breakfast (600 cal)

• Big ole' stack of homemade oatmeal pancakes with almond butter
• Egg white omlette with tomatoes, mushrooms, and onions
• Plate full of blueberries and strawberries

Morning Snack (400 cal)

• Homemade bran muffin
• Peanut butter
• A large honeycrisp apple (my favorite!)
• Cottage cheese mixed with yogurt

Lunch (500 cal)

• Green beans
• Peas
• Black and pinto beans
• Chopped yellow bell pepper with diced onions and salsa
• Homemade tuna salad
• Ezekiel sprouted grain pita 

Afternoon snack (400 cal)

• Lara Bar (of my choosing - I love these things. They're becoming a daily habit. ^^)
• Greek yogurt cup
• Slice of Ezekiel sprouted bread 

Dinner (500 cal)* appx 

TBD - I know I'll have the usual veggies, and proboboly a nice big salad with some homemade vinegarette, but as for the entree, I'm not sure. If my mom wants to make a family dinner...