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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

Alysha: I like undercooked oatmeal too :D I'll eat both ways but I get such funny looks from my family when I have it undercooked! I should also add I do actually eat it three times a day if we're REALLY low on other food - but I always do different things to it every time, haha. Not something I like to do TOO often though xD

Aimee: I always get wierd about my haircuts right after they're done because the change makes me boggle, but after it grows a little and I get used to it I relax. Heh. I highly doubt you look butch!

Agru: Happy belated birthday, hun!

Aqua: (My replies today are all about the A's) Is it bad that your comment about thinking about the Disney Channel made me giggle? Heh. Don't worry about the ice cream - you got to have an awesome time at the fair, right? ^__^ Funnel cake sounds icky to me, though. Heh. :x I just don't like that sort of thing; food that is too sweet makes me cringe. Unless it's fruit! Then I generally don't mind. '__' Like dates. Mm, dates.

agru: happy birthday :) hope you have  a fun day!!

aimee: it always takes me a few days to acutally like new hair cuts lol i always hate them at first...im sure urs looks lovely an not at all butch :)!!

gibbit: haha i like the name of the place you went to for dinner;)  dont worry too much a bout the binge hun...jus think 2moro is another day an the worst that will happen is that youll gain weight an u wanna do that anyways so, jus dont let the ed make u feel bad, an if u cant sleep mayb try do somethin that u enojy to distract you...or make yourself feel good by pampering yourself with a face mask or somethng :)

theofournay: thanks for the reply :) i hate arguments with parents...they can turn horrible especially if its about the ed. yay for oatmeal lol :) how do u make yours? with water or milk? i think its the same as porridge an if so then i used to love it lol. oohh i bet itd be sooo good with p/b an nutella yum lol!! i dont feel sick alot but i do feel very bloated? i think it cud jus be your bodys responce to food if it hasnt had any in a while.

t17: im anxious about college too ...i find out if i get in or not on monday an if i get in my whole daily food routine is gonna be sooo thrown off. i think tho its somethin that once u get there ul find a way to make it work for you. my bmi is around 13.9 or myb 14 at the mo. an dont worry about your binge...i wud hardly call it one ....when i went thru a binging staage i shudda seen then amt of food id get rhu...sickens me :S danm this ed !!

heading up: im not sure exactly how many cals im eatin ...id say 1600 at east or 1700 a day. i drink these drinks called fortisp that sound alot like the ensure u drink...there on prescription from my doc an have 300 cals in them an are nutritnally balanced. i had to add 2 to my meals wen i started goin for ed recovery a year an a half ago an never giained weight even tho i was dirnkin an extra 600 cals a daybut now that i replaced one of them with food worth 300 cas i feel like im suddenly gaining...i dont get it? with the ensures does this ever happen to you? an im sure youl be ok on tue...jus think about how u wanna be betetr for oxford :)

alysha_: im shy too so i know how u feel :) but the beauty of comin here is you know no ones judgin cause were all in the same boat...tryin to fight the ed lol.  how long have u been eatin 3000 for? an how much have u gained since incresin? hmmm try fruit juice? or mayb flapjacks? dried fruit, milk, p/b. oh an cereal.....i find that soo easy to eat loads of...like for my breakfast i eat like 100g almost no prob an that gives me at least 300 cals.

aquaev: it sux that ur so young an have to deal with this ed....but jus think once your recovered you will not have to deal with this later on in your teens or twenties....so beat this danm ed now an then u can start thinknin of stuff the other ppl your age do :)

psychoj:yeah lol what u said made sence.....oh an i think the exact same way about food and refuelling my body with healthy stuff to keep the "engine refuelled " :) oh an your snack with cookies n p/b sounds yumm!! oh an sorry about your shcedule not bein the same about your bfs that sux :( hopefully youll be able to fix it.

ok so is oatmeal the same as porrige? an how do u guys make yours? water? milk? in a pot or the microwave? lol im so curios cause everyone always talks about it!!

b-ceral an milk- 300 cals

s- 2 oatcakes with p/b n nutella, fruit salad (banans melon rasberries n strawbeerries) fruit always makes me feel so healthy lol.

xxxxx

 

 

 

Happy birthday agru!! and well done with the ice cream :)

aussie oatmeal = porridge, and i make it with milk in the microwave, tastes sooo much better that with water (yeuch)

so heres what i had yesterday (oops i forgot to post!)

breakfast: apple, oatmeal with milk and an actimel yogurt

snack: toast with 20g pb and a chocolate fudge granola bar

lunch: 2 slices ww bread filled with falafel and tomatoes (a pret inspired sandwich) and a hot chocolate with 40g melted choc in!

snack: yoghurt topped with rhubarb compote and 25g crumbled hobnobs

dinner: egg noodles with spinach, soy sauce, sweetcorn and sweet chilli marinated tofu (a veggie tofu stirfry)

snack: milkshake with banana and strawberries and a bowl of oatmeal with honey!!

i will post todays food later

7:30 3 eggs, 2 wm toast

9:30 1 pear

workout + whey in water & banana

12:50 big bowl wm penne, with 1 tin tuna, onion,red pepper, homegrown chili&tomatoes, garlic and basil, +olive oil

hey

new here, but not new 2 the eating disorder :(

im a 14 year old boy and have had anorexia for about 6 months now

i got admitted to hospital about 3 months ago at about 75 pounds (im  5"1 and havent weighed since :))

ive been gaining since then but havent gained very much :(

i play tennis competitively and play about 2-5 hours 4/5 times a week

i also do loadsa other sports but cant now because there much 2 active/aggressive

ijust find it reli hard 2 eat enough calories to gain, probably bcuz i do a lot of exercise, but i love it to much to give up! what things are really high cal and good 2 eat 4 a lot of energy?

I probably eat around 2000 - 3000 calories a day and feel incredibably bloated and uncomfortable even at that :(

anyway sorry 4 the longness :D

today

B - mini chicken rolls things (m &s) (100)

L - ham & branston pickle roll (240)

   -twister ice cream (85)

  -strawberrys (10)

S -packet of snack a jack type things (110)

  -low carb/high protein bar (137)

D - ???

today has been a bad,restrictive day cause i am goin 2 my grandmas 2nyt, and she makes the most amazing, and the most food i no and she nos but doesnt understand my ed, so want her to be happy and see me eat, even tho i hate restricting throughout the day :(

 

anyways i hope every1 has a good and healthy day!

psycho- Haha my sleeping schedule is all out of whack now from staying up late to watch the olympics. And thank you! Yeah I know most 13 year olds don't think about Disney Channel! But that's the thing, I haven't had a normal social life in so long I don't even know what they think about! I'm sorry that you don't have many classes w/ your BF. I hope you mom managed to get you in to a few more classes together. If not, it's just another reason to hang out later!

lala- Haha, no it's fine! Like I said to psycho I don't even know what normal teenagers think about. Eh funnel cake isn't all that fantastic. I had a few bites of my mom's and that was enough. My mom was like freaking out and pushing me to have as much junk and possible. She was going "Kiki, how about a deep fried Oreo? How about a deep fried Snickers? Candy apple? Cotton candy?" Mmmm fruit.

gingerbreadman- Welcome! This thread is really supportive of people with ED's, because most of us have them. If you don't want to feel bloated, you have to eat really calorie dense food. Stuff like nuts, peanut butter, full fat ice cream and yogurt, etc. give you a lot of cals for very little volume. Congrats on coming this far though! Hehehehe you think your post is long?

agru- HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

ARGGGGGG! So. Yesterday my mom got a call from my ED doctor saying that my lab went well and everything is pretty much normal again, expect one thing I forget. Last time, my estrogen level was so low it couldn't be measured, but now it's back up to a healthy level. And a day after that happens, guess what I get? Yep my period. I've been missing it for almost a year, and I know it's supposed to make me happy that it's back. But it's actually making me feel really disgusting because I have the thought that you have to have enough body fat to get it back. I have enough body fat. I am normal. Why me? My doctors were saying that it probably wouldn't show up for another year! I feel like a failed anorexic because it's back. I don't even know why I want to be a successful one though. If anything it might lower my GW, if it's actually real and lasts more than a day.

agruskin: Happy 25 th Birthday! May this be your absolute BEST year ever (and hope they keep getting better as you go along!)

gibbit: You mentioned your love of gnocchi. When you were in Italy did you ever come across cavatelli? My Italian grandmother used to make it. It is similar to gnocchi except that instead of using potato she substituted ricotta cheese and then used her thumb to individually shape the dough into little shells. A plate of those with her fresh tomato sauce and grated parmesan. Mmmmmmmm... I like gnocchi too but find that it sinks in my stomach like a ton of bricks, cavatelli seemed much lighter so I always ate a lot.  Never been to Italy but it's at the top of my list of places to see. (That's what recovery's for, right? Getting to do all those things ED prevents us from doing.)

theofornay: Thanks for you supportive comments.

aquaev: Thanks for the link regarding saturated fat. I actually had read it before but rereading positives never hurts!

psychoj: If your mom is unable to get your schedule changed I wouldn't worry too much about it. Usually there is so much switching around the first couple of weeks of school that classes are often up in the air for a while. You very well may be able to change it during this period. My first year of teaching I had my classroom all set up, name tags attached to desks, etc. Two minutes before the first bell rang the secretary called to tell me a new student would be joining my class. Agh! Talk about scrambling around trying to locate another desk, books, and so on...

Oh, struggling, struggling. Yesterday, I was weighed and although I am weighed with my back to the scale and thus am not privy to the results, it was evident by my therapist's response that I had gained. I have never, ever gained an ounce in twenty years on my own. I've only ever done it IP. Though I know weight gain is the point, it terrified me. There are so many dichotomies about this disease. I can look in the mirror and see a horribly emaciated body, bones protruding, veins sticking out, and yet, at the same time, feel so uncomfortably FULL and bloated. My legs seemed soooooooo heavy. But, I was determined NOT to backtrack. Going back now would have no positive benefits, save for the temporary relief of my anxiety. I thought about all that I know about the refeeding process and metabolisms. It is easy for me to convince myself that I alone am different, that because of my avanced age (103, at least that's what I tell my students) and the number of years I've been going at this, I have permanently damaged my metabolism. While that may, in fact, be true the only way to know for sure is to try. And, backtracking now would only serve to further harm my metabolic rate. The only surefire cure to mending a broken metabolism is to EAT. So, that's what I did. I came on this thread and read people's posts which helped a bit, then headed into the kitchen to fix dinner, adding oil and starch to my meal to boost the cals. Every mouthful was a battle, I wanted to get up and dump it all down the garbage disposal but I ate every last bite, even scooped up the last few drops with bread. I later ate a bedtime snack because as much as I wish to avoid this phase of recovery, there's just no going around it. (Believe me, I've tried.)

I just began counting calories again and I HATE it! I think I tend to overestimate which is of no benefit to me. I find myself getting too bogged down in the minutae. (Okay, I know I spelt that word wrong but I can't remember how it's supposed to be.)  But I think if I don't count calories I'll go under as I am usually quite devoid of an appetite. Those of you who count/estimate calories, any suggestions?

Yesterday:

breakfast: 1/4 cup Kashi Go Lean, 3/4 cup shredded wheat n' bran, 2 tbsp. almonds and pistachioes, 1 cup nonfat milk, strawberries, blueberries
Ezekiel bread w/ 1 tbsp. almond butter
orange (600)
snack: banana (90)
lunch: veggie soup and pea puree w/ 2 tsp. olive oil
salad w/ turkey, tuna, eggplant hummus, sunflower seeds
2/3 cup brown rice (450)
snack: smoothie (oj, yogurt, soymilk)
2 bran-a-crisp crackers w/ peanut butter
kiwi (310)
dinner: curried "cream" of butternut squash and pumpkin soup made w/ silken tofu w/ added oil and brown rice
3 oz. tuna on toasted Ezekiel bread w/ salsa and tomatoes
veggie medley w/ hummus and sunflower seeds
orange juice (510)
snack: 1 heaping cup nonfat yogurt w/ mixed berries
warm nonfat soymilk w/ cinnamon and pumpkin pie spice
watermelon and cantaloupe (430)

total = 2390

My goal was 2500 which I will make it today!

Aquaev-Yay you got your period! That is awesome girl! Sorry you are feeling guilty about it. I understand what you are trying to say. But that is the ED. The ED wants you to think a period means that you are fat. But it is wrong. A period means you are at a relatively safe weight and are healthy! Sounds like the fair went okay. Good job having a few bites of funnel cake! You are an inspiration...What is your goal weight if the period is "normal?"

Charliebo-Well, my school is a small private, Christian school so we do not really switch a lot. Since I have ~31 kids in my class I think it is wrong that I should only have one class with ANYONE, but the fact that it is him just makes it even more painful! I was able to get it changed last year so I am crossing my fingers that my mom can do her thing :] When I was not in recovery, I overestimated way too much. I was required to eat at least 2000 by my parents during the end stages of my anorexia and I am guessing that I only had 1600. A small apple would automatically become 100 calories. I always rounded everything UP. I never want to go back to that point in my life. I actually get very sad and a lot of other emotions just come out.

Feeling tired today. Having trouble sleeping lately >.< I am not letting myself go to the gym tomorrow. I worked out for 1.5 hours there yesterday.(Not b/c I felt that I had to exercise or anything, my mom just went to a movie while I was at the gym so I was there longer than usual!) I do not want to hurt my knees by overdoing it or anything, so I am just going to do leg exercises. I am making lasagna tonight! I got the recipe from "Get Fresh with Sara Snow." It is Butternut Squash Lasagna. It uses mushrooms, squash, (I used whole wheat) organic lasagna noodles, and lots of cheese :D

Breakfast: Heart to heart cereal w/ milk, pear

 

AGRUSKIN- HAPPY BDAY LOVE!! YEAHHH!!! Celebrate with food!!

GIBBIT-last night I had this amazing spinach alfredo with red pepper and tomato sauce and spices and I thought of you in Italy!! I wish I could go there someday!

CHARLIEBO- I know how hard it is to weigh in and to notice that your doc says you have gained. Believe me when I first got weighed she was like "ohh so I see you have been eating more"..ughhh ed thoughts came soaring in. But I think the thing that we have to remember is that we are not gaining for the fun of it, we are gaining to be healthy and that is what matters. The fullness and bloat will go away, but like you said, you can't go back now, you have come so far!!

PSYCHOJ- I agree with the whole switching around with classes. I remember I changed mine after they told me I couldn't because people dropped out or whatever, don't worry babe!

AQUA- don't feel down about the period thing. Getting your period means that you are a woman, it means that you can do what we were intended too. And this is a blessing. Not a curse. I think the hardest thing for me when I got mine back was thinking about being at a healthy fat level. But I remember thinking, gosh I can have kids now. And I really want them oneday soo...I guess its a great thing!

GINGERBREADMAN- welcome! I am glad that you have come here to this site for encouragement. I am sorry that you are struggling, but we are all here for help. I think the best thing that you can do though is to not restrict during the day leading up to your grandmothers house, this is still ed related ways of thinking, continue to push yourself harder with eating!

LALA- Funnel cake in the states is pure fat. They fry flour and dump it into grease. They they top if off with sugar, powdered sugar, and syrups. UGHHH....I remember eating this once at a fair and I was soo messed up for days because I felt like a blob and this was before ed. Yea and the deep fried oreos are even worse. I think I'll stick to fruit too or maybe just a nice frozen yogurt!! HAA...

T17-how is your whey in water and a banana? Do you mix it like a shake, do you add ice like a smoothie?? Just curious.

CHARLIEUK- our meals sound alike, I usually have oatmeal and an apple with yogurt and I gotta have my toast. What do you put on your toast? I either put pb or jelly!!

AUSSIE-glad to hear that you are doing well. I look forward to all of your posts girly!!

AIMEE- rock the cut girl!

THEOFOURNAY-I think your idea of nutella in oatmeal sounds great. I have never had nutella, what is it like?

HEADING UP- I am thinking about trying an ensure for a snack just to see what they taste like, any particular flavor that is the best?

ALYSHA- Feel free to message me anytime if you need to chat or whatever. I know how hard it is coming here and talking openly about your ed, but we all are here for the same reason so....

Anyway, have a great weekend...

So far today:

2 cups of hazelnut coffee with 2 tbsps of creamer

2 toast with strawberry jelly

2 eggs with cheese and ketchup

We're all so chatty, yay!!

linny- I love hearing from you more!! :) I personally did not like ensures and they always made my stomach hurt so I just started making my own smoothies, but there's no harm in trying! I've actually used the vanilla to make oatmeal or in cereal before, and it's not too bad that way.

psycho- good job not pushing the exercise too much! I've been really struggling with that since I started allowing myself some cardio again and I get so tempted to overdo it, but I know that won't help me at all in the long run. I've been wanted to make butternut squash lasagna! Tell me how it turns out. i used to always overestimate my calories or lie to my parents about things I had eaten. Ugh, it makes me sad too to think about how screwed up my thinking became or how I ever let myself think that something like starving myself made sense. But luckily we're getting better now and much much happier!!

charliebo- I'm sorry you're struggling! ED's like to sneak back in like that sometiems but we have to prove that we're stronger than that now. Are you stressed out about anything, such as school starting again? I know that always triggers me to start counting again or to do something to feel more in control. It helps to realize what you're reacting to and know that it isn't actually about food. I'm so glad you are making yourself eat despite feeling down. That's what I've been doing too, even eating when I'm not hungry or fulll because it's the only way we're going to get anywhere. I'm the same way with the two sides of me pulling  in different directions. I can look in the mirror and feel so ugly and bony, but I still have to really push myself to eat because I feel ike such a pig and I shouldn't be eating so much. Cavatelli sounds so good! My aunt makes ricotta gnocchis that are probably similar, can't have too many though because of the cheese :\

aqua- congrats on getting your period!! Having enough body fat to get your period doesn't mean you are fat or even have very much of it, it just means you have enough for your body to not fear for its life anymore. You're more of a woman than I am! hehe, and I secretly watch the disney channel sometimes :) My mom is like that about food too, she doesnt think eating healthy and gaining weight can go together so shes always trying to shove fried things at me too. I never liked fried food anyways, donuts and funnel cake have always given me stomach trouble.

gingerbreadmaan- welcome!! I hope you continue actively posting on here, everyone is wonderful and so helpful! Good job deciding to get better, the biggest step is realizing this is not healthy so taht you can keep that in mind anytime your brain starts to play tricks on you. Keep increasing those calories! And try not to restrict, just eat normally throughout the day and then eat normally again at night and enjoy your grandmothers cooking! Are you still allowed to play tennis at such a low weight? I know many of us have had to cut out most exercise, I know I didn't gain at all when I was trying to balance exercise and eating. It really sucks to have to give up something we love so much but I would suggest taking it easy for a while to focus on your health and it will give you incentive to get better faster.

t17- Maybe you could try mixing your whey with fruit juice or milk? I do that with mine for extra calories that go down just as easily as water, plus it just tastes so much better!

aussie- thanks! I know the binge wont hurt me, I just hate the loss of control, and the fact that I need to gain weight is what I think really drives it because I can justify eating such large amounts. I just know it's not a healthy mindset. oatmeal is porridge, I usually make mine in the microwave with milk and honey and you can add anything you want, nuts and dried fruit, banana, pb, cinnamon, I sometimes put coconut milk for the extra cals. I was putting either condensed milk or wm powder but that hurts my stomach. As a dessert or snack I love putting chopped up fruit like apples, strawberries or cherries and then topping with ice cream, it's like pie a la mode!

I think I've hit everyone, so I'll post my food later. I'll be cooking all day for a friends pot luck tonight. I'm making argentinean empanadas with soy beef crumbles! mmmm haven't had those in soo long :) I'm really scared about the potluck though because I always feel ike I have to try everything, especially if my friends are making it so I don't offend everyone. I'm not good at politely turning down food I don't want :\

agru- happy BIRTHDAY! :D:D

theofournay- I think my test went well. I suck at math, so maybe that's the only weak spot :p haha. But I get my results monday so I can plan my schedule. woohoo seeeniors 09. Oh yeahh, I used to eat oatmeal 3 times a day. I put pb on it, chocolate, fruit- anything. It's like my all time favorite food. Now I'm trying to vary things a little, haha.

psychoj-girrrrl I know how you feel about the whole schedule thing! It sucks. Last year I didn't even have any periods with my bf and I was mad. And this year I have to be without him cause he graduated. haha it really sucks at first, but you'll be fine (hopefully). I mean, if they change it, great! Just don't kill yourself over it

gibbit-I made the tofu ice cream! Except I tweaked it a little. Skipped the choc chips, added pb and blueberries. maaan so good!

alysha-I also like oatmeal with milk better..haha and I like mixing in cream cheese usually (not cottage) because it takes like oatmeal cheesecake I swear haha. oooh maybe I'll try one of those tim horton donuts too..

aqua-I can totally relate to the period thing. It's like my ED mind thinking that if I don't have my period yet, my bf% is still low. AND it makes me feel good! If I got it, I'd feel like a failed anorexic too. Wow, but I'm supposed to be getting over this! Sigh. We just gotta learn to push these negative thoughts away. Having a period is healthy, it's normal, it's womanly.

also, I read someone posted links about saturated fats? Can you post them again? They're like my fear food

ohh and yesterday went so well! Since I wasn't at home and went to the airport, we stopped at Chili's. I ordered veggie fajitas (hugeee portion) and I ate nearly the whole thing! I felt oh so proud!

I'll post my food later!

Linny i just mix the vanilla whey with water, then eat the banana hah, i use water as it fuels your muscles quicker than mixed with milk aparently.

 

party tonight so im not sure if i should be restricting slightly but i am...

7:30 3 eggs, 2 wm toast (500)

9:30 1 pear (70)

workout + whey in water & banana (200)

12:50 big bowl wm penne, (310) with 1 tin tuna, (130) onion,red pepper, homegrown chili&tomatoes,  garlic and basil, (50)  +olive oil (100) (590)? (600)

ham, pickle and peanut butter (240)

nectarine (60)

small bow of muesli (180)

hah well "restricting" im already at 1850 so thats ok i guess, i think i should really be shooting for 2500-2800 to gain properly but i seem to gain on less.

Original Post by missmagill:

 

Dairy fats aren't going to kill you, espeically in a case like this. Every doctor I've spoken to has suggested full-fat dairy as having important fats for recovery. Saturated fats are very important for our current needs!! Because of what happened to our bodies, they need different nutrients than the average Joe's. Besides, if we want to keep our body fat at an adequate level/get our cycles back we can't be going around eating practically no fat at all.

The other thing is that diet food aren't going to be as easy to gain on; that's why they're weight loss foods! We need "real" versions of food if we want to eat enough for gaining without feeling sick. If it's hard to get in your needed cals each day, be sure to examine your eating habits and replace the "diet" and "low-fat" foods.

I can relate to feeling afraid of these types of foods, but they are essential to a good recovery. If you allow ED even the tiniest slip, he can come back to destory everuthing you worked for in recovery. He's the one who wants you to avoid "scary" foods--but we hate ED, don't we? Why listen to that jerk?

psycho- I don't even know if my GW will get lowered at all. It's just a guess that since my body is capable of having a cycle that I don't need much more fat on me. But I'm probably wrong!

linny- Thank you! Having kids is a motivation for me, even if it's another 15 years in the future!

gibbit- Thanks! Ooooh what's your fav Disney Show? Hannah Montana is my guilt pleasure.. it's so catchy!

angel- The above quote is just for you! Glad you had a nice time out to eat last night! Eating what you want from a restaurant w/o knowing the cals is a huge step!

Thanks for the supportive comments everyone. I'm just thinking about how dumb it is to want to hold on to anorexia. It's not like if I had cancer but recovered through chemo I would think "Man, I'm a failed cancer patient! My hair is growing back, so no one will think I have cancer anymore!" Same deal with anorexia, right? I have a chance to be healthy and free of ED thoughts and I want to take that chance, even though I'm going to slip up a lot still.

My friend is coming over today, I'm so happy! I was supposed to go to camp w/ her but had to cancel b/c I was too thin. I'm nervous that she'll look at me and think "She's not anorexic! She's too skinny!" AH what did I just say?!? I don't want to be anorexic! She's on of my my best friends though so I don't think she'll say anything. If she does I'll try to take it as a compliment. We're going ice skating! Then we're ordering out for pizza, erg. But I made some yummy cupcakes for dessert. They're peanut butter (with oats instead of flour) with butter cream icing, with a square of dark chocolate melted on top. Mmmmm. Sorry if I don't post much after this, but I don't think I'll be on much. Talk to everyone tomorrow!

 

t17: Don't restrict! Go to the party and enjoy it. :D You probably need more than 2500 as you're male. Aim for that 2500 regardless and go on and up from that. Meesh posted some brilliant info about how recovering anorexics require a lot more calories in recovery (and even following it for a few months!) and the reason you'd gain on less would be down to your body still being in starvation mode. :]~ So eat, and drink, and be merry! Lol.

hello there!

my name is lela, 17 yrs and recovering from BED. can i join in?? actually i got this site from a friend of mine who is also recovering from an ed, anorexia. her name is relena, i've known her from school and i still keep in touch. my ed started when i was around eleven...i was always natuarlly thin and i still am. surprisingly, i'm not fat at all even now through ed. i guess that whenever i eat too many calories i'd gain for a couple dayss then my metabolism catches up and i lose it all again. sadly, this only made things worse as i thought, "hey i don't gain on 4000 cals, so i can eat all the time and not become fat!"

anyway, i got a lot of complications as well, like, stomach pains, constipation and horrible bloating. and now i want to stop and change that and just eat normally...i'm 5ft2, 100 lbs. not bad huh? do u think if i started eating normally which is much less than i do everyday i'd lose weight??

p.s...i noticed that relena stopped posting. i called her and talked with her the whole day long,, she's really very deppressed, not eating, exercising all the time and her family is devastated and not talking to her. they will take her to a hospital soon for a whole week's hospitalization...i'm really feeling bad for her, please let's pray for her to get better, she's just turned 16 last month!!

lela-Heyy, I'm glad you're here for support and recovery.

However...if you really want to recover, you have to stop those thoughts that you want to lose more weight! I'm a recovering anorexic, at 5'3 and weigh 90 lbs. I have to at least weigh 105 to be healthy again. So I don't think you would want to lose more weight if you're already at 100? Please don't do this to yourself. Try to start eating normally and healthily, and the rest will eventually take care of itself. But I do not recommend anything less than 100 lbs. You do nt want to end up in the hospital like your friend. This is how it all started for me. I thought I wasn't thin enough at 100, even 95, and the scale just kept on going down. You are really thin. If any, try to slowly tone up and gain muscle, that way you'll weigh maybe a few lbs more but have a leaner body (muscle weighs more than fat, but you'll look thinner)

i love that everyones so chatty too :) we have our own little support group going!

gingerbreadmaan welcome :) congrats on deciding to gain!! i can tell youre in the UK by youre foods (snack a jacks, branston pickle!) if im honest i do agree with others that youll probably have to cut down on your exercise a bit at some point, youll hit a gaining plateu where you cant eat more but still arent gaining (been there). i can make some suggestions for your meals, firstly, make breakfast much higher cal, if you eat it in the morning its done n dusted, try oatmeal, its very easy to make high cal by adding things like fruit, honey or pb (or all those things) also try a snack between breakfast and lunch!! also youre afternoon snack, you could easily add cals to that by having normal crisps instead of snack a jacks (or even better try vegetable/soy crisps) and instead of the protein bar, how about something like an eat natural bar, its basically just fruit and nuts so all good :) sorry if ive gone on a bit

linney i agree we do eat similar things :D i adore toast, especially thick sliced, cant believe i used to eat weight watchers bread!! (bad times) i have pb, jelly, honey, golden syrup or nutella (which is a choc hazelnut spread) for sweet things, and cream cheese or marmite for savoury <3

'lo guys! Another day, another pound.....

Charlieuk, I'm glad to see there's someone around who loves nutella as much as me!  My friend Claire's birthday falls on Easter, and this year we bought her an easter egg about a metre high filled with nutella!  We were just eating it out of the egg with breadsticks!

Gingerbreadman: branston pickle rocks!  I'm also very into their picallilli at the moment  About the exercise...I found it hugely difficult to cut down on the exercise, I still get angry if anyone talks about going to the gym around me, but I've managed to cut down to an hour of yoga every day instead of running 10km a day  I make my oatmeal/porridge (american.us brits!) with milk, on the stove top - we don't have a microwave, according to the mothership "if there were a devil the microwave would be his work"

For everyone worrying about going to college, I actually found it easier, because you have stuff to do , so it really helped in distracting me from everything, also, everyone's eating habits kind of get mucked up, so you're not so conspicuous!

lela: WELCOME and much welcome love!

OK: Breakfast: latte macchiato with a panettone dipped in (I was pining....!)

Lunch: big thing for me actually....I had a SAUSAGE SANDWICH and sausages and bread are probably my all time scary food- both together, deep breaths!

Dinner: Comfort food binge! Beans and egg on toast!

Pudding: I decided to make up for comfort food by getting fancy! Baked nectarines in cointreau with some home-rasberry sorbet

OK: I have decided that from tuesday (when I next get weighed) I am going to jump from an average 1500 calories a day to 2500 and I am FREAKING OUT!  Big super yikes......boooo....I guess the sensible thing to do is just not look at the scales for a few weeks, right?

sorry, bit rambly that one.... 

also, please please tell me funnel cake is in the shape of a funnel, it would actually make my life!

theo- oh man, i've been craving pannetone! I really want to bake one from scratch. Great job on the fear foods, you rock! And your pudding sounds really good (hehe, pudding, so british) Enjoy all the new foods you'll get to fit into your meal plan now and yes, say no to the scale. I think more than the microwave we should say the devil made the scale.

lela- welcome! Are you just trying to maintain your weight but eat normally? I like how this discussion board sort of keeps me accountable for what I eat, everyone would notice if I underate and I've definitely confessed to my share of binges too. Please let relena know we're all hoping she gets better soon!

angel- I'm so glad you had a good night/ dinner! I sort of want to start dating again because I feel like if I were tyring to impress a guy at dinner I would definitely ahve to force myself to eat normally. isn't the ice cream great! I also just kept vanilla flavored with cinnamon and just mixed stuff in after.

Happy Bday Agru! Glad to see you're too busy having fun to post on here today :)

ughhhh so I'm feeling retarded today!!!!! I'm soooooo badly wanting to restrict for this potluck tonight. I don't know why it's stressing me out so much. I guess i just know I'm going to feel so pressured to eat a ton and I've been talking to my friends and everyone's making such good food. I'm making empanadas, which I love, one of my friends is making fettucine with a cheesy zucchini sauce ( at least I have the lactose intolerance excuse to limit my portion on that one) another one is making couscous with pine nuts and butternut squash. I'm sure there will be tons of cakes and other carby fat loaded things and I'm going to want them all. And if I don't eat tons of food and try everything I feel like everyone will judge me. I'm so afraid of losing control, and I really just want to go and relax with my friends. Why can't I have fun and not worry like normal people?!?!? I'm still forcing down my snack of several tbsps of pb on cake, a pear  and wm yogurt because the only foods I eat anymore are high cal, and i really really don't want to be eating this right now. This is so stupid too because I need to gain and I KNOW this thining is wrong, so why is it still so all consuming? AND some shorts I put on today taht I haven't worn in over a week are way tighter today. That should make me happy.......

 I'm so angry with myself! Sorry for such a negative post, I'll be better later :\