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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

helllllllllllllllllllllllllloo!

oh my goodness, it's been a week since i've posted! do you all remember me?lol

how IS everyone!!?? i havent managed to keep up so you will have to fill me in. Any AS/A level students? i got my AS results - B in biology (which was gr8 consdering i missed half the paper as i got the times mixed up!) and A in english language! not bad i guess!

i went to cornwall ^^ AND i had a lovely time! i saw my friends who havent changed in 10 years! and i just enjoyed being 'normal' with great people! the weather was a bit tempremental - but didnt get washed out like i thought i would. i exercised normally, rambled on coastal cliffs, walked into town to randomly buy clothes and to tesco to buy supplies! ;o) also - went out for 2 course meals at night - BIG dinners and - dun dun dun yummy desserts! the last night i was so hungry i had a bowl consisting of 4 1/2 huge scoops of ice cream! AAAND i had a bowl of cereal before bed after that!! i was so proud of myself.

i'm home now and feel a bit deflated. I've tackled loads of my ocd habbits though and have reduced my exercise by 1 3/4 hours! it's a start, but i'm feeling it now more than ever just how much i miss being normal and enjoying life.

oh to be free from anorexia

missed you all

Suzy Roo xxxxxxxxxxxx

Agru: A belated happy bday- hope you had a super day and tried to enjoy the celebrations especially the food without getting too worried about things.

Aquaev: Thanks for the pics of the funnel cake- I was so disappointed, like theo I thougt it would be in the shape of a funnel! Reminds me of that Spanish stuff "churros" which is the same idea and they dip it in thick melted chocolate or coffee for breakfast. Congrats on the period, that really is fantastic, don't listen to that ed, instead of feeling like a failed anorexic you should feel like a brilliant recoverer, you can be the best at a good thing rather than a bad one.

Aimee: Your comment about butch lesbians made me laugh! hehe! I bet your hair looks great. I never have anything other than a trim done to mine as I'm too frightened!

Alysha: Homemade almond milk? Sounds amazing! You can't buy almond milk in the UK as far as I'm aware but I've seen posts including it and it always sounds yummy. If you make it successfully perhaps you could post the recipe. I'm really into cooking and making stuff at the mo so def up for trying that.

Gingerbreadman: Welcome! This is a great place to be and seeing as you've done the hardest bit and made the difficult decision to get better we are all here to support you in the process.

Gibbit: Blackbean burger sounds yum- I never go anywhere which does food like that if i go out to eat with my family. I was thinking the other day how fun it will be when i'm older getting to buy and cook food for myself and choose exactly what i want  and not be restrained by my family. I know how you feel about the 2-sidedness, it really is as if there's some bitch inside me fighting everything positive I do in recovery, i find it helps to recognise that when I feel crap these feelings aren't my own but it's that little creature inside me trying to make me feel bad.

Aussie: Yep the fortisip sound a lot like Ensure plus, I havn't tried replacing them with food but I was taking them previously and then trying to eat normally as well with the aim of them being the extra needed to gain but I ended up just using them to make up the cals to maintain. Now though I've increased my meals and added other snacks so I'm actually gaining. I don't think your body gets used to the sort of cals you're consuming so I guess you just must be eating more if you're gaining. Well done you! How are you going about upping the intake?

Charlieuk: your food sounds super delish yest. What brand are the choc fudge granola bars? Do you just put a pc of chocolate into the hot choc or do you have hot milk and then turn it into hot choc with solid choc? The yog/rhubarb/biscuit thing sounds good....hell the whole day does...the stir-fry and the milkshake!!!! YUM!

Charliebo: sorry you're struggling but you're def doing the right thing, I'm so proud of you for pushing through this- A lot of motivation for me keeping eating comes from the fact that i don't want my body not to trust me to feed it and to restore my metabolism. I figure it doesn't matter for what reasons i'm doing it as long as I am! (Like the sound of that soup)

Linny: I'm so glad you're posting here now, you really are "positive" and it rubs off on me, yay! I think the flavours of Ensure plus are diff in the UK to the US we have vanilla, choc, strawberry, orange, banana, forest fruits, caramel, blackcurrant, raspberry, coffee. I personally like them all but maybe strawberry, coffee and blackcurrant are particular faves! Hehe. I think they make a great snack, v. convenient and good balanced nutrition.

Theo: A big pat on the back for you for deciding to up the cals- I lurked at 1500 for months pretending I was recovering because I was eating decently ( but not enough to gain) so it was a big step to actually move up to 2000 a couple of weeks ago. I'm weighing on Mon now, eek! Hoping I gained this week obviously just scared it will be a lot.

Had a day off work today and I actually managed to let myself relax and not feel like I have to be doing something the whole time. This morning I did a bit of crocheting! My new found hobby! I went blackberry-picking this afternoon, there are so many in the fields at the mo I can't stand seeing them all go to waste, then i printed off a bunch of recipes for my recipe file and took my doggy on a nice walk along the river. Managed to keep going with the 2000cals too! Yay! Be happy everyone it's an amazing feeling

Food today:

B: All bran with prunes on top, 200ml cloudy apple juice

S: Ensure plus peach flavour

L: Wholemeal wrap with falafel, last of my spinach, cherry tomatoes, Activia vanilla ff yoghurt.

S1: 50g dried mango

S2: Ensure plus forest fruits flavour

D: Baked mackerel with herby oat crust, new potatoes and broad (fava in the US) beans, raspberries.

S: Optins hot chocolate with homemade oatmeal-raisin cookie.

Hi, Im relatively new to CC but BRAND new to the forums.

I read pages and pages of this thread and figured it would be appropriate to ask this here. I need some advice on increasing calories although Im not looking to gain weight.

Its going to be a considerably long post but I am looking for as much advice as humanly possible.

Right now I have an intake of around 600-800 a day [eee I know, shoot me :/] and have lost 38lbs since May. 10lbs a month about which has been my goal.
I have been looking to increase my calories for months but dont know how to go about it. I keep reading the most conflicting information everywhere sometimes I want to just break down and sob.

I have had disordering eating for the past 4-5 years. I went from being a skinny happy kid to putting on ALOT of weight around late elementary school so around 8th grade I lost 90lbs but wasnt eating much and suffering, then I tried my own route to recovery as I didnt have any medical help available and put it all back on within the first two months of Jan 2006.
From then until this past May it was weeks of bi-polar eating behaviors where I would fast some weeks and then binge others, my weight dropped from 180 and went back up to 200 all the time.

Then this past May after I had surgery 9 months previous [to remove my gallbladder before it shut off my pancreas and kidney functions] I made a pact that I would stick to a consistent intake. I was shooting for 1200 but in the beginning stages it was around 400-500 until about a month ago when I started averaging the 700.

I have read about so many people who are recovering and refeeding and it gives me so much hope.
I was thinking against posting this because I still have alot of weight left to lose and figured the refeeding part of boosting my intake up to 2000 would not apply to me at all.

On Friday I had my weekly weigh in and was an even 169 and I would like to get back down to my previous normal weight of 117. I am 18 years old, 5' 4'' to the dot and I do cario for about 1/2 hour every other day with minor strength training. My measurements at 117 were 35.5 - 25 - 36 so I think its an incredibly reasonable ultimate goal.

I would still like to average a loss of 10lbs per month [so pretty much the exact opposite of some people gaining the 2lbs a week! haha]
I have been toying around with the though of increasing my calories by 100 each week until I got up to 1500 but Ive been seeing alot of people saying that is not nearly enough for a undernourished person to get out of the starvation zone to rev up the metabolism?
Also I heard increasing so slowly you have a better chance of consistently gaining which Im not interested in.
The other route would be shocking my system by jumping 1000 overnight and staying there. I heard that theres a bit of a gain at first but then consistent loss when patients have entered refeeding. Or that youre thrown into hypermetbolic state, which I would not mind at ALL.

Half of me wants to get it done now but I would really like to be 130 by Christmas this year, Im flying back home and it would be like a Christmas present to me but it feels like if I correct myself now I could risk everything for nothing but an extra 20lbs and a larger pant size.

I know if I continue how I am [undoubtedly unhealthy] I can reach my wish so I was thinking of just correcting it later and refeeding after Christmas.

I have a hard time listening to advice from someone who hasnt experienced it [i.e. nutritionists, doctors. Even though I have never seen one related to this subject]. Has anyone been in a situation like mine? Previously very overweight and has stayed at around 600-800 calories for a consistent amount of time?

I want every bit of advice and proof I can get on this subject. I want to read testimonials and studies and links to anything that can change my mind until Im blue in the face.


Sorry about the length! I know it was very long. Any help is appreciated, thank you :]

Thanks everyone who reassured me about the haircut (even if you can't see it :P haha)... I'm sure I'll get used to it. Positivelinny, your comment made me burst into laughter. I loved it :D

gibbit - You're not disgusting, peanut butter is for being so seductively delicious! The 'binge' you had doesn't sound terrible, but I've been there and it's no fun. Hope everything has been going well since then! (Besides, if you're trying to gain, a little binge here and there must be good for us, right... :S haha)

agru - I can't believe I haven't wished you happy birthday yet! HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY! Hope you have a great time being 25!

 

shoot, i have to run.... have to walk the doggie and then drive home... going out to the club tonight with my friends (eek, i don't know what to wear at all) and so it's going to be a challange! haha

Welcome, lela and gingerbreadman! :D

 

Headingup- Aww, why wouldn't you be able to buy it in the UK? D: Any health food store should sell it.. heck, even regular grocers should carry it! Ah well. v_-v I'll be making mine tomorrow, have to let the almonds soak overnight, and I'll tell you how it tastes. :D Hehehe. I love to make things too. =]

Decempt- Welcome! Good for you for deciding to increase your cals!- however, there will always be a gain when you up your cals, it's somewhat inevitable. I'll wait for Meesh to swing back around, she seems to know exactly how this works and would probably explain it to you better than any of us, heh. :D G'luck!

 

Foodies todaaaay:

Brekkie: Oatmeal made with soymilk and cinnamon, with a handful of almonds I just picked up this morning (<3!!) and another handful of dried apricots.

Snack: A YUMMY PIECE OF FUDGE, YAYAYYYAYYAYAY

Lunch: Salmon (picked up more of that too :D) fried lightly in olive oil with dill and lemon pepper, in a whole wheat pita with mayo; Bowl of ice cream; yogurt & whey mixture, haha

Snack: Vegan quinoa pudding, with my last bit of PB and some brown sugar mixed in

Dinner: Balsamic Mediterranean salad from Pizza Nova (I don't know how many cals that was, but it had about 2 tbsp. of feta, a BUNCH of black olives, tomatoes, green peppers, etc) and 1-2 tbsp. balsamic vinaigrette.

Snack: Prunes; bowl of oatmeal with whey, made with skim milk, and about a cup of dry cereal mixed in, hehe.

Yummy day today. :D And I got to go GO-KARTING! Hehehehe..

hi everyone!  well ther are about 300 posts since i last posted and i tried to read them all.  thank you to everyone who wished me a happy bday and welcome to those newcomers-this is a great thread where ppl give and recive awesome support!

so today i turned 25, spent time w/ my parents, saw and spent time w/ old friendsm cried a little, and did not count my food.  i tried to eat what, how much, and when i wanted.  did lots of random picking at foods, mostly junk but lots of dif fthings, and tried to just ignore and forget it bc in my attempt to recover "normal" eating, i think that that is whats done?  i did not log my food and felt free yet anxious as well as my mind wondered if i ate enough, too much, etc.  i met an old friend and bought makeup at the mall, then met up w other friends and got coffee and a biscotti at starbucks.  i ws the only one who got actualy food but as i realized i had not had my pm snack and i was a bit self concious of how i looked and thought eating would make things look better.  spending time w old friends was great, altho deff had awkward and fake moments, points where it was difficult to concentrate and remin involved in the convo.  i only became antisocial once the ED set in and it took some effort, but deff deff worth it and something that i need to wrok very hard at to conttinue in order to recover i think, emntally and physically. 

2 and a little extra homemade pancakes, syrup, a little butter, apple, cheese

tunsa salad sandwich, some mushrooms, cherry tomatos, brussel sprouts, some baked cheddar cheese potato chips, a peach

coffee w/ skim milk, ~3/4 almond biscotti

(seafood restaurant) a bit of salad w/ dressing +1candied walnut, tiny piece bread+butter, some random bites of rissotto +fish, 1 1/4 lobster, asparagus, 2 red potatos, seasoned veggies, ~1/3 buttered corn on the cob,1 fork taste of creme brulee

random bites of cake, donut crumbs, apple, yogurt, chocolate

lots more random bites during day.  the thing about not counting is, how do you know if youre having enough, too much, yes, eventho youre trying to gain. i think the day was deff an improvemtnt from last yr and hope im on my way to true recovery!  deff exhausted rt now tho! 

mon morning were going to a hotel for the wk bc were getting the floors in our house redone, its going to be fvery difficult bc we have to eat out basically everytime we want to eat.

thanks again everyone, keep up the great work +pos attitude!

alysha - Thank you! I know there will be an initial gain, Im not worried about that too much haha :]
Its just that I dont want to increase my calories to a 'normal' amount and then gain from there on out because my metabolism has been badly damaged or for whatever reason refuses to speed up and let go of what it would normally store.

I have a bad mentality of completely agreeing with advice but believing that for some reason it will work for everyone but myself!

Hello, I'm new to this thread.

Goal: 2400

Currently: (It's 11.37am and I'm on my third meal, planning on six + late night egg white spree)

6am Breakfast: 52g GOLEAN Original + 1/2 scoop chocolate whey protein + 250ml skim milk & 1 piece of wheat bran toast + 1 egg white (350 kcal, 40.5g protein)

8.30am Breakfast (I love the idea of having two breakfasts): Vanilla Oatmeal w/ skim milk + tuna sandwich (390 kcal, 36g protein)

11.30am Lunch (I didn't notice the time, was planning for 11): 50g frozen grapes + 52g GOLEAN Original + 250ml skim milk+ another 52g of GOLEAN original (: (400 kcal, 34.5g protein)

the party was good except i felt sick, it was candy themed, and i ate lots of sweets, despite feeling ill, but i did eat more strawberries as they were the only real food really. but trifle, bonbons, and lots of other sugary rubbish too, had to eat something proper when i got home to try settle my stomach, feel a bit better now still a bit iffy.

brekkers: porridge w/skim milk, added some honey at the end :), half a tin of tuna with chili sauce, and an orange, trying not to think too much about eat every 2-3 hours!!! just eat when i'm hungry and do other things so food isnt like what my life is revolving around.

yesterdays food:

breakfast (pre run): apple, choc fudge granola bar and actimel yogurt

breakfast (post run): oatmeal with soy milk

snack: 4 quality street chocolates and a fudge hot chocolate with milk

lunch: garlic and corriander tortilla filled with lettuce, tomato, cucumber, yogurt, black olives and feta cheese

dinner (earlier than usual): sweet chilli vegetable wontons for starter, sweetcorn omelette with new potatoes and salad for main and homomade choc. mousse topped with white choc and strawberies for dessert, and a glass of rose wine!!

snack: a glass of strawberry milk and yogurt with rhubarb and blueberries

snack: banana and yogurt smoothie and oatmeal with soy milk

god looking at that it seems like alot!! basically, my older sister's boyfriend has come for the weekend, hence the mega 3 course dinner plus wine!! and the same will be happening again today :O

theo ah yes nutella <3 i love the choc hazelnut combo :) although sometimes i feel i eat too much unhealhy food :/

headingup thankyou!! they do sell almond wilk in the uk :O in large supermarkets they have it with the UHT stuff and powdered milk, and they sell it in healthfood stores like holland and barret or julian graves! also, the choc fudge granola bars are homemade :P just find a simple choc chip granola bar recipe on the net and replace half of the choc chips with chunks of fudge!! and the hot chocolate, i make it in a saucepan lol, heat the milk and chocolate powder and stir until it becomes normal hot chocolate then add the actual chocolate and whisk...dont heat it too much though the choc can burn (i have experienced this :/)

suzyroo yey welcome back im glad cornwall was good, i always find that being forced out of my little routine for a week or so really helps and forces me to make certain changes (like less exercise) which are then easier to keep up at home! well done with you As levels too :) we must be the same age, i got mine back on thursday, all As ... i was so shocked! keep up the positive attitude :) 

Wow! So much to respond to, forgive me if I leave anyone out.

gingerbreadman: Welcome! Hope this forum will offer you some support and encouragement. I can relate when it comes to the over-exercising and lack of appetite. I used to convince myself that I was exercising so much in an attempt to increase my appetite but that's all rubbish! Too much exercise actually decreases the appetite (especially when it's warm outside.) Perhaps you could try cutting back on the amount of energy you expend and see if that helps your desire to eat. (I need to take my own advice on this one...)

psychoj: I'll pray your schedule can be changed. It does seem odd that, in a small school, you only have one out of eight classes together. The butternut squash lasagna sounds yummers! I adore butternut squash and I remember seeing a bit of Sara Snow on TV making that dish.

positvelinny: Thanks for the words of encouragement and the example you set!

gibbit:  Your food does NOT sound like a binge. In fact, reading your menus always helps me to refrain from restricting because it is evident how willing you are to keep battling the eating disorder. I hope the potluck went well! Oh, that it were school starting being the source of my discomfort! Unfortunately, I am currently unemployable due to my low weight. (Turns out they like the teachers to weigh more than their students. Picky picky!) One would think that would be enough motivation for me to gain weight but, as of yet, it has not been the case. The shame, guilt, and depression that comes with not working has actually made everything worse but I am bound and determined to recover. I miss being in the classroom soooooooooo much!

headingup: Your day sounded so nice. I haven't done any sort of sewing in a while but I think I need to get back to it because it is quite relaxing.

My head has been spinning! Argh! Aside from yogurt and fruit nothing appeals to me and, as it has been on the warm side, my appetite seems further diminished. I keep buying new foods and forcing myself to eat, in the hopes of spurring my appetite but I am having trouble deciding what to eat. There are certain things I feel like I should eat and I have endless debates in my head, going 'round and 'round, "Should I have this or this? This or this?" Last night, I formulated a meal and snack plan for today which made me feel a bit calmer. I want to be able to rely on listening to my body but it isn't really talking much yet so, for the time being I'll put that idea on hold. For today, it's nice knowing all I have to do is walk into the kitchen when it's time to eat, prepare the preplanned meal, and eat. I live alone and read while I eat (I'm a voracious reader!) which helps to distract me. I'm reading a terrific one right now so I look forward to my mealtimes.

Yesterday:

breakfast: 1 cup shredded wheat n' bran w/ 2 tbsp. almonds and pistachios, 1 cup nonfat milk, 1/4 cup blueberries
Ezekiel bread w/ 1 tbsp. almond butter
orange (600)
snack: glass of oj (110)
lunch: veggie soup, pea, olive oil puree
2/3 cup brown rice
salad w/ 4 oz. turkey tenderloin, sunflower seeds, eggplant hummus (470)
snack: smoothie (yogurt, oj, soymilk)
1 sheet ww matzo w/ 1 tbsp. peanut butter
peach (380)
dinner: 3/4 cup pea, corn, and flax elbow pasta w/ tomato, mushroom, and spinach sauce plus added olive oil, tuna, turkey
veggie medley w/ sunflower seeds in lemony hummus sauce
1/2 cup oj (500)
snack: 1 heaping cup nonfat yogurt w/ 2 cups mixed berries
nonfat soymilk
watermelon and cantaloupe (410)

total = 2470 (Crap, not quite there!)

What does everyone do when you're staying over at someone's who is not a big eater, and rarely gets food for themselves (meaning they rely on their parents), just because food is not an issue for them. She's not 'skinny' or anything, just healthy, but I know I should be eating more, yet can't deal with eating when other people aren't (my close family excepted).I'd hate to think that she'd judge me and think i was a pig and that my ana is ll gone.... AAAAAAARGH

I write AAAARGH too much. 

For example, all I've had to day (it being 3 pm): 3 glasses vimto, 42g raisins, 1 weetabix with smidge of soy milk (just enough to make it wet). I mean, we woke up at like 11am, but still..... and she's had an english muffin with butter and a glass of oj, leaving some of the muffin edge.... I'm going spare...

Gosh I am so happy that this forum is growing...there are so many members of this thread now it is so time consuming to reply haa!

Today-

B- apple, eggbeater omelet with cheese and ketchup, 2 cups of coffee with creamer, 2 pieces of toast with strawberry jelly

Not sure what the rest of the day will bring, but last night I had tons of sushi and edamame when I went out with the girls for a ladies wine night. Then I came home to fiberone and soymilk! YUMMERS....I love my late night snacks!

Yesterday-

B- same as above

L- Panera Bread (strawberry salad and french baquet)

S- pretzels and hazelnut coffee from dunkin donuts

D- sushi timaki roll with edamame and wine

S- fiber one with soymilk

Charliebo- I know what you mean about having to bring your appetite around with making yourself eat and the whole new foods thing too. Some days I am starving and can't get enough and then others it is like all I can do to get to my maintanence intake. Don't worry just keep pushing, the more you eat, the more your body will expect eventually and then your metabolism will spike too!

Charlieuk- so glad you are enjoying yourself with your fam and sisters bf.....I love wine too!! HEHE.

T17- so glad you had fun at the themed candy party, way to push yourself with the sweets, congrats on that! Sorry to hear about your tummy, but thank god for your evening proper snack!

Toast- welcome and way to go for your food!

Decempt- good for you for getting in a great mindset! Agreeing with advice is a tough one for me too as well as believing, but you must believe and have faith in yourself that you can do this. Keep pushing, and keep eating!

Agruskin- glad to hear that you spent quality time with the family and friends for your bday! I am so happy and proud of you for letting go fears and enjoying your bday. It sounds like you had a wonderful time just being social and hanging out with old friends!

Alysha- yeahhh for the yummy fudge, did you make it yourself? I have always wanted to try fudge, although it has been a fear of mine for quite some time now. Maybe I will just have to challenge that one right? Ohh and I love salmon!!!

Aimme- what type of doggie do you have? Look at my gallary for the pics of my new puppy! Hope you have tons of fun at the club, being social and being out really helps in recovery!

Heading up- thanks for the sweet comment and for your favorite flavors of the ensure! I appreciate it. Hope you are thriving today! You are a great inspiration to many here!

Suzy- congrats on reducing the exercise and congrats on aiming for that freedom without ed!

Gibbit- Oh babe, don't be angry. Just use this as a stepping stone to better times! I am thinking of you! How did the potluck go btw?

Aussie- LOVE YA...hope you are doing well on this amazing Sunday!

Sorry if I left anyone out...this is getting complicated....haaa in a good way!

hiya guys :) ok only have like 10 mins on here b4 leavin for therapy so il post quick an try reply to everyone!!

b-cereal n milk - 300 cals

s- 2 oatcakes with pb and nutella, fruit salad- 300 cals

l-usual sandwhich-300 cals

s-fortisip-300 cals

d- (will be) chicken with broccoli, carrots an im gonna try have potatoes for the first time in aggeess....

i find myself stuck eatin the exact same thing except dinner every day....does anyone else have this prob?

 i think its cause im in a food comfort zone where i feel safe but at the same time if i have to eat that same sanwhich one more day im never gonna eat bread again lol.....but i got wholewheat tortilla wraps for lunch 2moro :) any suggestions on what i shud put in them?? an im gonna try pancakes one day this week that positivelinney gave me a fantatic recipe for :)

 i need some changes .....an i jus need to push myself. its so much easier to not change eating patterns or ed behaviors but the only way we can all get better is thru pushin ourselves....changes only happen when you make them happen....i reallly belive that!! an im gonna try push myself as much as i can from now on cause if i get into the college i want ( i find out 2moro morning ahh im soo nervous) , i wanna enjoy it an not  let the ed ruin it for me!!

positive linny : yumm i love pretzels ...i always nible at them from my home made trail mix lol. an what u weer sayin about some days being starving an others not...im the exact same...some days im like sooo hungry an other days im not (the fortisip come in handy when i really dont feel like eating snacks cause there 300 cals a pop) hope ur havin a fab sunday :) loves ya !!

peanut butter: i can totally relate to you about not wantin to eat when others arent....i find it so hard to eat when ppl around me have had less than me or arent eating at all... but jus think everyone is different and needs different nutriotnal req. an who knows what others eat when there home alone anyway so jus try eat for yourself an dont let others affect it as much as u can!!

charliebo:i know its hard to force yourself to eat but unfortunatly when tryin to gain whats what we have to put up with....like most of the time im not hungry when i have to eat but i jus force myself to anyway an i need to start forcin myself 2 eat more. an jus try make meal times fun an if u find that hard...see food as "fuel" for your body that needs to run on something an keep going :)

charlieuk: how long do u run 4 your dinner sounded so yummy :)

t17: sometimes i feel like my life is revolved around food alot...cause imhome all day till college starts in sept so im so looking forward to jus being out of the house an not havin to think as much about foot etc but when your home its alot easier to get distractd by it i think...glad u managed to enjoy the party :)

toasttoasttoast: welcome :) your meals seem very well planned out, an the 2 breakfasts are a cute idea lol.

decempt: welcome :) im tryin to increase at the moment too an alothough im tryin to gain i want my metab to speed up as much as possible. im sure ul get loads of gr8 advice here!!

agruskin: thats gr8 u enjoyed ur bday :) yay for fun partys....they really do give u a chance to make urslelf feel normal buy jus enjoyin the party an being able to enjoy nice food an not panic cause ur too busy having funwith friends , keep up the good work !!

heading up:  about upping the intake...im not really counting exactly but im jus tryin to eat more sncakc n stuff like at nite i now have somethin b4 bed when b4 dinner was my last meal an i make my own trail mix with almonds an cashews an pretzels an nibble at that thr the day an that also adds cals without me feelin to full. im also increasin my dinner potions cause that usued to be my smallest meal an still is but im gettin there. im aiming for a very slow gianin process ( under the ed recovery centres guidance) how are u goin about uppin ur intake? how much weight are u aimin to gain a week/month? cause were similar stats !

suzyroo: welcome back :) sounds like u had fun at cornwell!! did u get thoose fish n chips in the end there lol? congrats on the results thats brilliant :) an thats great uve tackled loads of the ocd habits....i found that if u dont challenge the ed an the habits there never gonna chance...actions get reactions is my motto lol :)

gibbit: how did the potluck thing go? im sorry your stressin over it :( but jus try focus on havin fun an try to not think about the cals so much.  an i dont think clothes gettin tighter makes anyone feel great even tho we are all tryin to gain cause teh ed imedietly acts up an fat thoughts start comin back....jus try to think of how gr8 it will feel being fully healthy again :)

xxxx

Yesterday I ate:

Breakfast=mc.donalds egg mc muffin(300)1% milk jug(100)

Hashbrown(150)

 

Snack=baked lays(130)beefjerky(120)whole milk carton(160)

 

Lunch=carls jr bbq. Grilled chicken sandwich (360)side salad(60)chocolate chip cookie(350)apple juice(170)

 

Snack=apple(80)cottage cheese doubles(130)cookie dough single serve ben and jerry’s(240)apple juice(170)

 

Dinner=in n out double double(640)sunchips(210)

 

Bedtime snack=dried banana(180)dried cranberries(260)macadamia nuts(230)soy milk(130)nesquick(100)

 

I was out all yesterday kayaking at the beach with my family, it was really fun to be able to get out and have the energy to do something I used to love to do.

 

Gibbet- I went to go see some tango last night from Argentina. That’s some pretty crazy dancing hah. Hey did you know were neighbors? Im Peruvian.

 

Agruskin-HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

 

Everyone else- you guys are doing good keep it up =]

hi everyone! i think i need to go back to counting w/ a cal target.  the neg part is that it sort of forces me to preplan meals so that i know i make my goal rather than trying to eat what i want and when.  i just dont know if i had enough w/o counting-sux!!!!!!  thinking a traget of 2300ish!?

AUSSIE-I ALSO EAT THE SAME STUFF REPEATEDLY, its just foods that are easy to make but i ithnk its important to have at least 1 challenge food/meal a day.  awesome w/ the potato!!!! i usse pancake mix from a box thats great.

LINNY-i saw on another post that you were concerned about weight change after starting lifting, really, dont lower your cals, you want to see how much you can eat and the weight change is DEFF from weights and working out.  i would not suggest increasing cardio since you already do 30mins daily.  you want a routine you can live w and sustain, not something unrealistic.  keep up the good work! oh, and real eggs are yummy!

CHARLIEBRO-hey! so i actually just got my amsters and am looking for a job in education as well, this is deff a huge motivator for me to gain and become healthy as well! im the same, can never decide what to have, used to stay up at night thinking about what i can eat the following day, having to preplan.  i think bc my hunger/satiety cues are so skewed rt now, that i cant eat intuitively either!  can you remind me again your stats, age, height..keep up the good work!

MEESH! HEY- i was also out yesterday, w energy, and it waas aweomse!  i love your meals!!! i dont have any of those restaursnts here! ha, i ODed the other day on baskin robbins ice cream, i dont think my stomach was ready for the switch frol the slow churned type to reall heavy types?

CHARLIEUK-wow, lol, your food is seriously gourmet looking!  you or your mother cooking?

t17-WOOHOO FOR PARTIES!

alysha- fudge??? yum!!!!!!!!!!! good for you!

peanutbutter- ugh I hate that! no one ever has to eat as much as me.. I'm going out of town next weekend to visit a friend and she NEVER eats, she hates breakfast,by 1 she might be hungry but there's never food in the house so she'll pick at some chips and salsa, then if you really push her we might go out to dinner or shell have like a pb and j. Usualyl by dinner i'll have eaten about 6 meals, plus I need real meals, not chips. I've learned to bring a whole backpack of food when I go visit her and then kind of have to suck it up and eat when I need to . maybe you'll inspire her?

charliebo- That looks like a great food day! You can try adding more here and there to up the calories, switch to whole milk, add another tbsp of almond butter, and maybe throw some nuts and dried fruit in there somewhere. And thanks! I know the binge won't really hurt me, it's not the types of foods, it's that I can't control it or I'll be full or sick already and can't stop. Last night for instance I had a really big snack after coming back from a potluck so I wasnt really hungry but it's a scheduled snack and I planned it out so figured I'd eat it and I did and stopped afterward and I felt fine. Planning out your meals is a really good idea, My appetite  has definitely grown but I require so much food anyways taht I still have to plan it out and eat about every 2 hours to get it all in, so it sometimes does have to be a mechanical thing.

t17- awsome job at the party! gosh, I would have panicked, I hate not eating a real meal, and I hate sweets lol.

welcome toast! I love toast :) and breakfast is my favorite meal of the day so anytime you get more than one is a good day. I love toast! what do you put on yours?

decempt- welcome! luckily metabolisms can repair themselves. My body had basically stopped digesting entirely and now I eat 4000 cals a day for about .5 lbs a week gain.

Agru- I'm glad you had a good birthday! I understand what you mean about spending time with friends, I still find it hard to really relax or feel entirely present in the moment sometimes, but it takes practice so keep it up!

aimee- yes! that d*** pb!! grrrr! I know bingeing might help me get my weight up, and that's kind of what pushes me to start sometimes, but it's still not normal behavior and I don't want to switch out one ed for another. Hope you had a great time at the club, I love dancing! unfortunately I haven't done much of it because I still don't have a booty to shake :X

My potluck was so much fun! Luckily I started feeling a bit better about half an hour after my last post. I had to sort of talk myself out of it. As psycho said, there's that "bitch" inside me that wants me to feel bad so I had to fight her off. Once I was there everything was great! The food was sooo good. I had made empanadas that everyone loved, including all the non veg people there. There was couscous with squash and pinenuts, a thai noodle coconut stir fry, indian curry with tofu, a salad, some beans, some african rice dish, bruschetta, among other things (we're a very multicultural bunch!) They had made some of those store bought tollhouse cookies and i had to "politely" turn them down about 20 times, so was a little akw but I may have been the only one that noticed. I don't know how to tell people I don't want to eat prepackaged sweets. Do you think that's something I need to get over? I'll def eat homemade, and it's so much better, no preservatives, I dont know...

Well, I also had a lot of wine :) circled around to various conversations, got into a drum circle with one of the guys and some of the girls there. Yes, these new friends I'm making are awesome! I'm meeting them through my friend who just came back to work for teach for america and all of these people have come from all over to work here too, kenya, gahna, all over the US, japan, china, they're all so interesting!

so yesterday:
b- usual giant mix- pear, blueberries, coconut, almonds, cereal, sunflower seeds, kefir yogurt, wm yogurt, soymilk, honey.
s- soymilk, protein shake
l- tortilla with carrot sticks and salsa, kale and spinach salad. berry juice.
s- wm vanilla yogurt, few tbsps pb, pear, coffee
d- 2 plates full of all the potluck stuff! 2 glasses wine.
s- ice cream sandwich made with 2 smaller slices of cake, another slice of cake with sunflower butter and honey, handful of almonds.

so far today:
b- oatmeal with dried figs and almonds. a LOT of kefir yogurt with a peach, soymilk, another cup of cereal, more almonds, cinnamon and mollases on top.

Charliebo-It is odd. And I do not like it one bit >.< But hopefully the second semester we will have more classes together. I am not going to let it stress me out. There is b/t classes, all of his soccer games, after school, before school; It will be okay. I am actually with a bunch of my other friends though. Like 5-6 classes with them, but one with him :/ I think the school is conspiring against me!

Gibbit-Sorry you are struggling with the pot luck. I think it sounds like you are going to have a great time! I think it is more worrisome before hand, but once you get there with all your friends you will forget all about the food!

Off to the gym, sorry you all! I will post more later! (Sorry about that bold!)

<3 Je

 

Hey everyone! My friend slept over yesterday and we went ice skating. I love ice skating! Even though I'm not supposed to do anything but yoga lol. I got some PB crackers and an orange at the rink for my snack, and for dinner we had pizza and my cupcakes (whole wheat PB w/ buttercream frosting and dark choc.). I pretty much ate the pizza with no problem, and the cupcakes we pretty good too. Then we played in the sprinkler hehe. My friend didn't comment about my size, except when she saw a pic of me at my LW she said that I looked creepy and not like myself. Which didn't insult me b/c she's right. So a pretty good sleepover. Today we're gonna do some shopping and errand running, including Whole Foods woot! So again I prob. won't be on much. Sorry for not answering comment now, but I stayed up until 4 and it hurts my brain to look at all of these. So I'm just going to start answering when I get back from errands, because I can't possibly answer two pages of responses!

Breakfast- Me and my friend made banana stuffed french toast. OMG SO GOOD! Also had oatmeal w/ PB.

If anyone wants the recipe for French toast just ask. So yummy and calorific!

Sorry for running away so quickly last night. I was mid-post when I noticed the time and realized that I was behind schedule.

 

I haven't eaten yet today (just woke up) but my stomach still feels off and so I'm scared to. I know know know I need to eat more, but it's so hard. The good thing is that I've been eating a lot of fortified foods and have been using 5% cream instead of milk, so those have upped my intake, but I still need to get my butt in gear and eat more. (Haven't even been paying attention to my food this weekend, which for now is a bad thing I guess)

Anyways, time to go have breakfast (protein shake, vector cereal).