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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

hello everyone. So if you've read my other post, today's not such a good day. At least as far as gaining goes. I'm getting really scared I won't know how to maintain and I know I'm going to be getting to that point soon if I keep gaining at this rate. I eat somuch and it's mostly out of this compulsive need to eat to gain that I've developed. I'm OCD and this is just the latest thing I'm attaching it to I guess, but I want to stop myself. GRRR but I'm not stupid, I'm not letting it get to me or allowing myself to restrict, I'm eating anyways, just not liking it very much. Everything else is going well though. I bought a new camera and went to pick it up this morning. It's a much more advanced camera than my old one so i have to learn all the cool tricks now :) I'm also going salsa dancing tonight so I'm excited about that. And i baked cookies, because who finished off a tray of lemon bars in 3 days?? oh yeah...me :\

my foods today:

b- 1/2 canteloupe melon, greek yogurt mixed with wm yogurt and walnuts. kashi go lean crunch with almonds and vanilla soy milk.

s- protein shake ( I'll admit to you all that I was upset and went to work out   15 min jogging on treadmill, 20 min on bike, some arm machines- i still feel guilty that I don't do nearly as much as many of you here)

l- salad of beets, mustard greens, carrot, fava beans, oo +vinegar. omellete with soy swiss cheese. carrot/ orange juice.

theo- thanks for your response in the weigh in thread! I'm right there with you today, but you will be fine at the dr's tomorrow and remember that it will just bring you so much closer to being able to achieve your goals. Don't let yourself get to the point of being shaky! that's not good and just shows we need food in order to keep living, not to make us FAT.

likear- thanks! have fun cooking! and be careful with the cardio.

aqua- sorry you're having a bad day :\ as theo said, a lot of that is just politics and 2nd chair is fantastic! You know you're talented! I know it sucks when you want the numbers to stop going up but you're healthy and little fluctuations are normal. I definitely feel upset over gaining today but we have to keep eating, even if it's only maintenance.

alysha- sorry about the guy! I'm sure he has issues that he needs to work out and probably doesn't want to get you involved, but great job getting out there again! and tell your ex to bug off! I love that you love your body today, so happy for you! That makes me happy :)

agru- thanks for responding! I really admire your goal to simply be healthy even if it means a higher weight for you. The only time I ever reached 130 was after a semester in spain and was due to a LOT of alcohol, so that may have put me at a healthier bmi, but my insides were hurting, so it was not healthy for me. great job switching up dinner last night!

charliebo- good job switching the yogurt! one step at a time is what it's all about. I know how good we can be at finding excuses to not eat, but as i said to theo, think of all of your goals, things you want to do once your healthy again, getting over these fears means you get to do these things sooner.

hi everyone i went to my appointment today, and ive lost 2lb since my last weigh in 2 weeks ago, im now 112lb, we wrote a mini meal plan which was hard but good, i was told i need to have 3000 calories aday, but we dicided to start off with 1000 calories, ive got two pads one to write down everything i feel when i eat anything on my meal plan, and one for my meal plan so i can plan everyday aday ahead, which helps me, i like list, i wrote a plan for the weekend, will think about next week saturday night, my mum is helping me to write it, so is my aunt, they both came shopping with me which was great, my dad came with me today to my appointment, i was told i need to do this now, i need to put on weight and cant lose anymore, so today heres what i have eating, its not quite 1000 calories buts its better then the 300 to 500 aday i have been having, so here goes.

breakfast= coffee with a little semi skimmed milk, didnt have anything else(appointment was at 11, dad picked me up at 10)

lunch= half a jacket potatoe with a few baked beans and salad (250) black tea

dinner= low cal chicken curry rice and few veg, (330)

snack= plan biscuit and half a chocolate biscuit, shouldnt really have chocolate im allergic to it but had to have it(60)

few cups of coffee with skimmed milk, not sure of the calories in the milk i would say 50 calories any know different please tell me

so would say thats about 690 calories not that good i know but its a start right?

will do better tomorrow

lucyxx

great job xmasbaby!! I'm so proud :D it wasn't many calories but you did a really wonderful thing today. You kept a positive attitude and spaced out small meals throughout the day. Don't worry, the portion sizes will increase slowly as you feel more comfortable eating and eventually you'll add more snacks too, but it looks like you have a good variety of foods so keep up the good work!

Hey everyone. Thanks for the caring replies. Still feeling sucky now so I don't want to reply right now. Maybe I will later tonight, and maybe tomorrow.

Breakfast- Mini WW bagel w/ PB, oatmeal w/ pumpkin, nectarine, egg

Lunch- Wait what did I have for lunch? Ummmm oh yeah the same kind of bagel as breakfast's, Fage Total with fruit thing, TLC bar, carrots

Almonds walking home from school

Snack- Too lazy to  type all my fooooood

Dinner- Spinach, walnut and parmesan quinoa stir-fry, dunno what else. My mom will probably want me to have bread but I hate having carbs with carbs. Need protein. String cheese?

Snack- Blueberries, orange, some type of bar, some figs, soy milk, Ben and Jerry's

My mom told me I don't need to drink Boost anymore as long as I replace the calories with some other food. Hence the night time snackage. I do love figs.

Here's my scone recipe for anyone who wanted it: http://caloriecount.about.com/recipe/143080.h tml

thank you gibbit, i do feel a bit more possative today, im going to do this i have to ive got no choice, if i dont they will take me into hospital, and thats the last thing i want, roll on tomorrow im ready for ya.

lucyxxx

aqua: i know how you feel!! I tried out for a place int eh honour ensemble and lost it to the vice principals daughter, who literally CANNOT play :|
[I play clarinet and bass]

foodss today =]

b- cereal, soy milk,  orange [300]

l- mini-pizzas, cucumber slices w/ hummus, clementine, [350]

s- tropical smoothie, rice cake with pb [300]

d- rice with curry, lentil soup, indian bread, lotsa spicy stuff :) [600]

s- yogurt ... and granola maybe??

either way gonna be at least 1700 by end of today which is 200 over my goal and it wasnt AS hard todayy :)!

hopefully by end of this month i'll be eating min. 2200-ish

school stress is getting to me but im gonna get better time management skills ;), and trying not to let the divorce stuff bother me, because i know it has nothing to do with me, just gotta focus on ym goals (and work my a__ off in school to get into a reigonal program)

thanks to gibbet and charliebo for the helpful messages =)
any other peanut-free (school is nutfree) lunch options would be appreciated :)

Charliebo-Thanks for asking! School is actually going really really well. I really like all my teachers and classes. I also am right next to my boyfriends locker so that makes it nice, along with 2 classes with him. The homework load is not bad at all. I mean, it is managable while having a "life." I actually am not afraid to say that I like school! Lol...And as for after school/extracuricular activites does watching the middle school guys play soccer while I play hoops count? :] But yeah, I go to games, practices sometimes when my mom has a meeting. My mom is works at the school and I have to stay late(r) sometimes. Really, I feel like I live a busy life! No shortage of excitment that is. I will start basketball in ~2 months and then soccer after that season. I also made service prefect for the eighth grade. I will work with the other grades representatives and create ideas/things to do for service stuff like community service and such.

Aquaev-Your food today sounds really yummy! You are right, it does not sound/look like a lot :| It has been kind of hard to find a set schedule for eating and the like. I mean, I need to get up earlier and bring snacks and pack a good lunch, but I feel like I just have no time! And I hate it when people use that excuse. I kind of feel like a hyprocrite LOL! But just forget about the 1/2 pound flunctuation. That is like..just what Agruskin said..a little blurp. Not as a mistake blurp but just like nothing! Not even a pound. Maybe try a blind weigh in next time? Really, there is nothing to worry about! You are probably not going to be 10_? whatever you are now. You should NOT be that weight forever. That would be unhealthy! Have a great night and feel better girlie :]

Gibbit-I love love LOVE lemon bars. Would you mind giving me the recipe? Pretty please with peanut butter on top? :D Oh and about the gaining weight and never stopping, it really is not that hard. I mean is it easy, certainly NOT! But you really do not have anything to worry about. You will be able to maintain just fine. :] Do not worry about the future though. Worry about yourself, right there, right now! Have a great night/morning/whatever it is there!

Will post again later :] You all are awesome!

hi everyone-

so im looking for a job and yea, dont have one, my paresnts are giving me such grief, nonstop, like i dont feel bad, sad, and embarassed enough.  i think in the meantime i need to find something else.  i have a masters degree but really not sure waht to do other than what my degree is in but i need to look for anything rt now.

JESS-very happy youre busy and having fun but yea, excuses! lol.  justtake more granola bars and stuff w you to snack on when youre out.

SLR-great job today!

AQUA-yum! the scones look great, ive fallen in love w dried chopped dates, theyre in my trail mix and so good!

GIBBIT-HEY!so, ok, youres lim in build, atheltic, healthy, i think once you reach a healthy mainteneace weight you should have no trouble.  also, ppl go out and drink, socialize, etc.  i just try and remind myself that i want to be at a weight that is not hard to maintain and doesnt involve tons of excercise that wont realistically fit into my life.  you can be at a higher healthier weight not bc of drinking but bc thats where your body is happy, healthy bc of healthy foods, youll be fine!  what kind of cookies?

t bagel, pb, apple, cheese, raisins~440

cereal, milk, trail mix~220

cheese sandwich w/ lettuce, tomato, avocado, fage w/strawberry sauce, ~tspn pb, plum, cut up celery~440

fage, some pb, some blueberries~180

tuna salad sandwich, salad w ~tspn almond butter, ~tspn raisins

Agru: Thanks, I've been trying to talk to him about it all day... he seems better today but still stressed, I don't know what's wrong with him, I guess I just have to leave it alone for a bit...

Aqua: It's okay. :] He probably isn't, you're right. I've been trying to "figure him out" for a while but I think that's not really helping the situation. Should I really up my cals?!? Or is this just a fluke, ahhaa? I still don't trust my metabolism.. it's evil! And yes, kashi bars!! My mom found them. :D Also, I'm sorry you're having a bad day.. I know the feeling, it's just kind of like you're "numb".. I feel like that after a good cry sometimes, just kinda feel like nothing matters anymore... anyway, feel better girl :(

Likearock: Thanks. D: I'm just hoping if I give this guy some time, he'll eventually come around... because he's really sweet, and it just makes me feel sad to think of never really seeing him again... agh.

Theo: My ex, or the new guy? I didn't tell the new guy off, I know what he's going through.. just gonna give him some time.. but thank you. :( I hope I eventually find someone like that.. I told my ex that I never want to speak to him again, although he still kind of follows me around..

Gibbit: It's okay! I think he does, really. Like I said above, just need to give him some space.. :) I'm really happy with myself today, and I don't know why. I'm enjoying this. Thank you so much.

Okay so.. I've been doing some thinking today about life... about myself... about who I want to be/be with.. I think, I really need to stop drinking my problems away... and need to stop the smoking... and need to stop getting attached to everything. Then, I shall be normal. And normal is good.

Also, I figured out that yesterday I had 4000+ calories, which is insane. I ate 2700, plus an entire bottle of champagne, and I just remembered that I downed a HUGE slushie. I can only imagine how many cals that had. :)

Thu, Sep 04 2008 Grade Grams Cals   Breakfast Bananas A 130 116 Muffins- Banana Chocolate Chunk D+ 135 530 PC Blue Menu Fortified Soy Beverage - Vanilla A 500 240   Lunch Kashi Chewy Granola Bars Cherry Dark Chocolate B 36 123 Ham slices
64 60 WholeGrains - Ancient Grains A 90 240 Mustard, Prepared, Yellow A 5 3 Breakfast Cereal - Cranberry, Cherry & Almond
62 220 PC Blue Menu Fortified Soy Beverage - Vanilla A 167 80   Dinner WholeGrains - Ancient Grains A 90 240 Peanut Butter, Light, Smooth C 17 97 Seedless Strawberry Jam - Smucker's
22 55 Bananas A 136 121 Natural Spring Water
1,250 0   Snacks Maple & Brown Sugar, Weight Control - Instant Quaker Oatmeal A 45 160 PC Blue Menu Fortified Soy Beverage - Vanilla A 188 90 Peanut Butter, Light, Smooth C 33 189 Spread, Chocolate Hazelnut C 10 53 Diet Pepsi
600 0 Total Calories Consumed 2,617

There's my food today. Found it kind of hard to eat in the afternoon because I really wasn't hungry and didn't feel like eating... but I still forced myself to eat a banana and a pb&j sammy. ;)

G'night everyone... good luck with things!

 

So much to respond to! I don't have time to address people individually right now so I'll just go for a general post. You know how they say women/girls who live together tend to get their periods at the same time? I guess since most of us still do not get our period, we go through blips at the same time. Weight/body issues popping up for me major today. It's easy to look at others and offer reassurance but much more difficult to do with myself. Anyway, for what it's worth, hang in there everyone. You know how it's best to just rip off a band-aid, I figure maybe the same is true with the whole weight gain thing. Let me feel the pain now and get it over with ASAP! Gotta go, will respond and post food tomorrow.

keep truckin everyone!  food update-

t bagel, pb, apple, cheese, raisins~440

cereal, milk, trail mix~220

cheese sandwich w/ lettuce, tomato, avocado, fage w/strawberry sauce, ~tspn pb, plum, cut up celery~440

fage, some pb, some blueberries~180

tuna salad sandwich, salad w ~tspn almond butter, ~tspn raisins  ~380

apple, yogurt, 1/2 PB take 5 candy bar ~350 TOTAL-2050

hey everyone! i was going to post earlier but I had to run. I went salsa dancing! soo much fun! i love dancing and I love when I can find guys that know what they're doing to dance with :) And tomorrow I'm surprising my mom with facials for both of us. She's been really stressed lately and works really hard, and I've started feeling mushy in that "i really appreciate my mom" sort of way. It's something she would never get for herself, and also something I would feel weird doing for myself so its a win win. all she knows is she has to come over to my place at 10 tomorrow morning. Should be really relaxing!

I'm still feeling iffy on the weight gain but I'm still eating what I need to eat, though I'm not sure if I made 3000 today I'm sure I'm pretty close. Seriously, this is what I'm worried about, it's a habit, I can't not get to 3000 even when I don't want to! oh well, I guess you're all probably right that when I do need to stop gaining I'll find the motivation in me somewhere to do what will be right for me then. Let's see, after lunch I had:

s- vanilla shortbread cookies with pb, more canteloupe

d- red lentils with caramelized onions, tomato, and peas ( my stomach started hurting really badly right before for no reason! it sucked but I ate anyways)

s- virgin watermelon freeze thing at the salsa place

s- warm vanilla soymilk with honey, banana with pb, cookies with pb and fig jelly

charliebo- I've noticed that too! all of our ups and downs seem to happen at once

agru-thanks for all the support! i really do want to be normal and go out and have a drink once in a while and be social. However, spaniards are insane and I'd be out til 4 in the morning or later about 4 nights a week and would down about 6 or more coctails each night. after getting back I quickly stabilized again. So maybe I just need to trust my body a little more. the job hunt is so difficult! I'm sure you'll find something soon. I'm really scared about graduating in December, I have no clue what I want to do after.

Jess- here are the lemon bars http://caloriecount.about.com/recipe/142255.h tml ; and yes they are good with pb on top! life sounds so exciting and fun! I want to get involved in more activities, I feel really unproductive.

slr- i've heard about school's not allowing peanuts, but most will let you use almond butter so you could always try that, or there are of course endless sandwich options. You're doing really well, keep it up! 

 

hey everyone :) didnt manage to get on here yest cause i was out most of the day. ive been thinking alot about this whole gainin thing and how i really need to try harder to eat more. i think the meal i cud imporve on the most is dinner, an yet find it so hard to eat much at that meal. like some nights i end up havin one chicken piece (big als mini fillets) which has liike 30 cals cause there mini fillets so not even half a proper chicken breast an then some veggies...like that wud prob only add up to 100/150 cals (if i decide to have 2 chicken tings thaats prob 150) like i need so start eatin more for dinner. its jus so hard to actually do it at the time...like i alwauys end up backing out an havin the smaller version of any dinner. but the last 2 nights i had smallish dinners i made up for it by havin ice cream a while later ( i justify this to myself by sayin i need the calcium cause the one i get is high in calcium). did anyone else have this problem with one certain meal at the start of gainig?

like i wanna make my metab go faster an i knw that means eating more and then keeping it up till the metab speeds up but its jus gettin my intake up thats hard. like im constatnly full and dont know what else to add. mayb i shud add more nuts into my trail mix an small changes like that. like i already sprinkle flaked almonds on my cereal in the mornings...things like that i find easier to do than eaet a whole other snack.

and also i dunno how th approach this whole excersise thing ...like i dont know how much to do and i acnt really go for walks alot anymore lately cause the weather has been absolute crap...raining very heavy all day so in the winter i need to find osme other form of excersise cause otherwise il end up moving anyway possible around the house to burn cals which is still what i do on wet days and is very ed-ish an not normal....

b-oats n more cereal with super milk-350 cals

s- nature valley oat bars(2), fruit salad -300 cals

gibbit:aw sorry ur havin probs with the gaining mentality girlie :( but u are so strong and everday that i read your posts here you always have brilliant menus an u eat so well an seem to be really motivated with this gianin thing. do u jus feel now that uve reached maintanence ? cause if u havent but i feel big meber thats the ed not you feelin that way...u cn do it :) jus keep going!

charliebo: i wanna rip of the bandaid too lol!! hope ur havin a nice day :)

alysha_:i guess everyone has problems an this guy is no exception...but mayb in the long run ul get along better with him cause he seems open an honest enough to tell u he has problems. hows school otherwise? is the ex still around?

agruskin:good luck with the job search :) im sure ull find something u like.

psychoj:sounds like ur lovin school at the mo :) thats awesome..makes it easier to go in everyday lol

xmasbaby: well done :) its a step in the right direction!! jus keep it up an keep addin snacks etc and youl keep doin great ! its hard at first but gets easier...i need to increase too so i no how u feel..anxoius an nervous etc an scared.

aquaev:im sorry ur havin a bad day hun :( *hugs* are u meant to be on maintenance now? and im sure it was probs jus weight fluctuations so try not to get to upset over it. remeber your selfworth isnt measured by a number ok? hope ur feelin better by the time u read this!

xxxxx

 

I've decided to ignore my dietician a little and drop the "ensure plus"-like drinks that frankly, just give me stomachaches and make me feel all oozy with sugar.

I'm replacing that 360 calories with whole foods instead. I love cereal and milk and I'm sure that it's much better than corn syrup and vegetable oil.

0700 Breakfast (450):

2 bowls of:

• kashi golean
• skim milk
• peanut butter
• chocolate whey protein powder

0930 Post-workout (250):

• chocolate whey protein powder
• glucose

1130 Post-post workout shake (300):

• banana
• chocolate whey protein powder
• skim milk

1330 Lunch (280):

• chicken breast
• 2 pieces of bread

1600 Cereal time (320):

• kashi golean
• fiber one
• rolled oats
• skim milk

Have planned:

1800 Dinner, part 1 (300):

• some of that cereal that I didn't finish
• tuna
• cheese

2000 Dinner, part 2 (300):

• chicken breast stuffed with lots with
  
• mozzarella
• and topped with
• mozzarella
• grapes

2230 Finale (150):

• chicken breast

Total: 2350

Goal (by end of week): 2500

Saturday aim: 2400

Sunday aim: 2500

Breakfast- 1/2 cup porridge with water and salt + leftover turkey bolognese mix

11:30 - 2 slices of bacon, 2 eggs.

aquaev: I'm so sorry your days have been gray. Making second chair is still awesome, I know it's not what you wanted but I think our tendency towards perfectionism makes it seem as though anything less doesn't count. Not true! I don't know what to tell you about the weight. You are still thin, whether you can recognize it or not. Emaciation still holds some twisted appeal to me too but maintaining such a low weight will only rob us of life. Hang in there!

xmasbaby: I admire your determination. You will recover!

gibbit: The dancing sounds like so much fun. I love swing dancing, never tried salsa but I'd like to (yet another reason to recover.) You are such a good daughter. Have fun with your mom!

toast  x  3: I also despise Ensure Plus. I had to drink it three times a day during treatment and thought about getting a Body By Ensure T-shirt made. (Haha) You posted two post workout snacks. Does that mean you worked out twice in the morning?

alysha: Bummer! Wish I knew what to say beyond that, I'm not the best with words plus when I'm down words offer little comfort. Just know that you are in my thoughts, hoping things will look up very soon.

psychoj: Thanks, I like hearing about school and all your activities. You seem very busy, leading an active, normal, productive life. I think you really should add snacks though, especially in the afternoon.

agruskin: You asked about the quality of the food you're eating. I think your perception is a little off. First of all, you are not comparing your diet to a typical population. Most people do not eat a steady supply of quinoa, olive oil, steamed broccoli, etc. Secondly, your food is healthier than you give yourself credit for; lots of good stuff, fruit, veggies, bread, dairy products, nuts. You do have "treats" but a relatively small amount and that is normal. Plus, even your "treat" foods have some nutritional value (ice cream, for instance, contains calcium.) I know you worry that you eat too much like a kid but think about this, most kids are pretty thin! Also, your diet will make it much more comfortable for you when you eat out. If I was invited to someone's house or out to dinner how likely is it that I am going to find a kidney bean and barley stew on my plate? You are working to establish lifetime habits and, seems to me, you're doing a darn good job.

Not happy with the bod right now. I swear I look bigger, but who knows if I can trust my eyes. Regardless, I WILL NOT restrict my intake. Where would that get me? I'm already out of work and a thousand miles from my family. If I was thinner none of that would change.

breakfast: shredded wheat n' bran w/ ground flax, prunes, blueberries, and nonfat milk
Ezekiel bread w/ almond butter
orange (560)
snack: orange juice (110)
lunch: usual (510)
snack: smoothie (soy milk, yogurt, oj, banana, blueberries)
raisin cinnamon mochi "puff' bread w/ peanut butter
kiwi (500)
dinner: roasted sweet potato puree w/ olive oil
Ezekiel bread w/ hummus and grape tomatoes
veggies, tuna, turkey
orange juice (470)
snack: nonfat yogurt w/ mixed berries
watermelon (320)

total = 2470

charliebo: No, not at all, I wish I had the strength to lift weights for two hours a day ><. I just plan my meals ahead of time and realised I had to jet off to school soon, so I threw in another morning meal with a tasty protein shake. The post-workout shake doesn't really leave you full anyway if you stick to strict guidelines and only take 40g carbs with high gi and 20g protein.

 

aussiegirl17: Good for you with the metabolism thing. I noticed that immediately after increasing my calorie intake, despite eating more, I still feel hungry when it's time for the next meal, I treat it as a sign of metabolism going up. Anyway, it's a good idea to add more nuts, another idea would be to drink more of meals. Find a good shake recipe and it will be tasty, fulfilling and palatable. An idea is lots of frozen berries and soy milk or frozen bananas and milk. (Freezing them makes the texture so much better)

hey all-

so im going to ym aunt's house tonight for dinner, big dinner, were bringing a chocolate cake and 2lbs bakery cookies.  my aunt doesnt eat, my mom will copy her, and basically just my 13yr old cousin and father will eat.  im getting stuck on trying to estimate a cookie or whatever food's cals, but im trying to assure myself that i dont need a cal # but that i can just try and make good choices and that that should be enough in itself. 

CHARLIEBRO-thanks for everything, yea, going out to eat tongiht but i get stuck on things like, well, i didnt cook so how much oil was used, everything always looks so oily and greasy to me and freaks me out. how are you doing? i also THINK i look bigger but who the heck knows, rt?? its really tough being out fo work and we need to use that as motivation i think, good luck!

AUSSIE-i find that when i think i feel full ill start to eat and get hungrier.  if that doesnt work then yes, eat higher cal foods, nuts, oil, full fat foods, sauces, and i have treats daily, thats ok, keep it up!

TOAST-great job yesterday!  what workout do you do?

GIBBIT- so i was thinking, take yesterday for ex, you sort of ODed at the gym and you did salsa, but lets say you weer at maintenece, youve shown that you can fit activity like that in your life now so youll be able to in the future too, itll be ok. have fun w the facial!

fri-

t bagel, pb, apple, cheese, raisisns~440

 

Hey guys im sorry i never got around to posting yesterday! The dr i see is pretty far away from my house so i have to wake up at 5 30 and i dont usually get home until around dinner time!!! it's crazy! Lol anyways i will try and respond to as many people as i can and just try and make this short and sweet....

charliebo: i noticed that we have really similar pasts as well.. i will be 19 in october and i just really dont want to spend any more of my life in this limbo of saying im getting better but when in comes down to it not really making any improvements... it was like you were speaking my mind a while back about it being alright to weigh less because well... our bones are smaller because of osteoporosis... i guess youre right though.. this is just the ed trying to play with our minds! We can do this!

Argu: you are so strong! Im so jealous that youre already at a point where you can eat out and be okay with it! Whenever i go out i always go crazy trying to figure out how many ounces of this im eating and how many cups of that... and then of course once i get there i chicken out and do the whole salad thing... then i eat when i get home! Lol i know we tend to feel big as we gain weight but when it comes down to it i bet no one can even really notice... and also i tend to feel big as im gaining weight but then if i wait it out a bit i get used to that weight and then actually still feel skinny... it's kind of strange really....

Gibbit: thanks for the greeting!!! check out what i said to argu about weight gain and stuff... i konw its hard to keep going once you get so close to your goals... but think of how acccomplished youll feel once you reach your target!!! your food is always so amazing! I wish you could feed me!!!!!

 

anyways so i was a little upset to hear at the dr that i have shrunk once again!!!!!!! he measured my height and i was 5'2.5!!!!!!!!! that means i have shrunk more than an inch in just 6 months... grrrr i used to be 5'4 before this whole ed started! Anyways the only good thing about that i guess is it brings my bmi up a bit... hah he weighed me as well and i was 70 pounds... and he gave me a sort of rushed meal plan which goes as follows:

 

b: ½ cup rolled oats, banana, minigo

l: 1 can tuna, salad with carrots and veg and paul newmans balsamic vinagrette, 1 bagel

d:340g cooked shrimp, 1/2cup rice, veggies, president's choice sauce (one with fat)

s: kozy shack rice pudding

 

only problem with this is that i kind of tallied up the cals and i am eating way more than this already.... im not quite sure what to do... he treats me like im scared to eat more but i really just want to get this over with in a way... right now im averaging about 1700-1800 cals a day and i do a 45 minute walk almost every day with a quick strength routine every other day.... im thinking i should maybe increase to at least 2000 because i dont think i have really gained all that much on what im currently doing.. what do you guys think?

Oh and also.. i dont think this guy has really had that many eating disordered patients before like i thought he would have... but then he was like “i have never in my life seen someone with a bmi as low as yours” ... maybe it's time to do some more searching for a different dr.

 

enough about me how is everyone else????

Good day to all! I just got back from lunch and the facial with my mommy :) It was fun! I think she really liked it so I"m happy, and we went for lunch afterward. Things with my parents are tense at the moment too so I think it's a really good thing that I got her out for a while. Later today I'm going to a potluck/ bbq so I'm not sure what the foods will be but I'm not going to care and I'm going to have fun.

aussie- it's great you're taking the initiative and looking at the things you can improve on. Sometimes I just have to override that ED voice and do things anyways. Simply serve yourself the larger portion and don't think about it. You can do it!  It's also helped me immensely to look into the nutrition each food is giving me and justify eating things that way, like ice cream has calcium, nuts and oils ahve good fats, and I also bake myself some healthier versions of cakes and cupcakes and feel better about eating them, meaning I eat a lot more of them. I made cookies yesterday and ended up having 7 of them in one day. But they were whole grain haha! I think I need to work on not being so stresed. I'm just not too far from maintenance and sort of think it woudl be ok for me to stop worrying about it so much, but I don't know how to stop. I think the last few lbs will come on just fine if I try and eat normally, but I'm too used to eating compulsively and it feels a little out of control.

agru- have fun at your aunts! you should really challenge yourself to not worry about the numbers. If you knew would it make a difference in what you ate? probably not, right? Don't pay attention to what everyone else is eating and eat what looks good to you, try a variety of the foods and allow yourself  a cookie. And like charliebo said, your diet looks fantastic, you shouldn't compare yoursel to me because I'm still psychotic about my foods. I simply transferred by obsessiveness with not eating to being obsessive about what I'm eating. It's definitely helped me recovery, but is still something I need to work on relaxing.

dragonfly- I do the whole salad thing at restaurants and then pig out when i get home too! It's gotten much better though thankfully. I'm still pushing through this because all of my recovery tactics have become sort of mechanical, I'm just not feeling very happy about it at the moment. Especially because it has become like that, I'm worried that I can't stop it. If you feel like you can eat more than what the dietician told you then go for it! I went to 2 nutritionists and niether one helped me much. Most don't really udnerstand people with ED's unless you see a specialized one because both of mine were completely stumped when i was hardly gaining off of 4000 cals a day because any calculator puts me at barely over 2000 needed to gain. 1700 or so to maintain. But that's obviously not the case! I've had to do this on my own through trial and error, so definitely eat as much as you can and just evaluate every few weeks to make sure it's working for you.

so my foods so far:

b- 1/2 canteloupe, blueberries, walnuts, greek yogurt, vanilla soymilk, and honey

l- restaurant avocado and shrimp salad (it was massive and I ate it all!) even though the shrimp had some mayo based dressing and I hate mayo, eww. stomach sort of hurts now.

s- not sure yet

d- not sure yet either, my contribution to the potluck will be a curried lentils with caramelized onions and probably adding sauteed red peppers and walnuts. havent finished cooking yet.

s- ?