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Weight Gainers: What did YOU eat today?

I am copying the many times copied thread, "What did you eat today?" in hopes of helping some of those who are just starting to gain and have no clue what to eat. I know that when I began weight recovery, I was eating tons of low-cal foods just because that's what I was used to. I learned the hard way that dense foods are essential to weight gain when you have high caloric requirements (at one point I needed 4500 cal to maintain my weight on BEDREST). Perhaps newbies can get some ideas if we post our weight gain meal plans! Even if you're not gaining anymore, grab an old one and post it!:]
Please note that every body is different and some will need more or less calories than others to gain. This thread is just so that you can get an idea of what you need.
Oh, and yes, I'm breaking the "no calories, no portions" rule, since it is pretty helpful in this case. If you want to post cals/portions you can. I just ask that you don't post if you're not eating enough, though as this is a weight gain thread, I would hope none of you are undereating.;]
I'll start....
Breakfast (875 cal)*

• 1/2 cup oatmeal (150) cooked with
• 1 cup evaporated whole milk (300)
• 1 mashed banana (100)
• 2 tbsp peanut butter (200)
• 1 tbsp ground flaxseed and cinnamon to taste (50) 
• 1 hard-boiled egg (75 cal)

Morning Snack (300 cal)*

• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)
• 1/4 cup dried apricots (100)

Lunch (660 cal)*

• 1/4 cup rice cooked in 1 cup chicken stock (300) and
• 1/2 cup canned or cooked chickpeas (145) and
• 1/3 cup shredded cheese (150) and
• 1/4 cup each onion, peppers, and tomato (30) cooked with
• 1 tbsp olive oil and curry powder to taste (120)

Afternoon snack (390 cal)*

• 1 serving baby carrots (35)
• 1/4 cup hummus (155)
• 1/4 cup mixed nuts (200)

Dinner (875 cal)*

• 1 cup of my insane Mac & Cheese recipe (515)
• 2 cups tossed salad (45)
• 2 tbsp rasins (60)
• 2 tbsp sunflower seeds (105)
• 2 tbsp dressing (150)

Evening snack (480)*

• 1 cup plain whole milk yogurt (180)
• 1/2 cup homemade granola (300)

About 3600 calories :]

gibbit- Oooh salsa dancing sounds like so much fun! I love to dance, but whenever I go to school dances all the boys are too embarassed to dance. Hope you have fun getting facials. Don't you maintain on 3000? I maintain arount there I think and I was gaining on 3400 before I cut back.

aussie- It's hard for me to eat more at dinner also. I actually sort of like doing a lot of snacking at night, so I tend to kind of "save" my calories up. I just always try to balance them. Protein, carbs and fat, you know. Like pasta (carbs) with pesto sauce (fat) and a glass of milk/ string cheese (protein).

charliebo- There are only three cellos though :\ So I'm also second to last. Ehhh I'm really unhappy with the way I look now too. Whenever I catch myself just picking out my flaws in the mirror I try to just walk away. What is mochi?

agru- Good luck at dinner tonight. I hope you don't let your family get in the way of you eating enough. And try not to worry about cals. Just enjoy yourself!

dragonfly- Wow, sorry about the shrinking. I didn't know that was even possible. I say screw your doctor's meal plan. If you're already eating more than that, just add some more on top of what you have already! Just some PB here and there can add a lot of cals. And you should look in to a new doctor, one that specializes in ED's.

AHHHHHHHHHH. Why am I still gaining weight? Ughhh 115.8 this morning. Okay, no more weighing for at least three days. If this is water weight I don't want to freak myself out even more.

I might be going out tonight with my friends. It's the first home football game of the season and I don't want to be the only one that doesn't go. I'm kind of nervous though, because this will be the first time in forever that I'll go out with a big group of people. I'm fine with a couple friends, but I'm not friends with half the people going and I always feel like they'll judge me. And plus it cuts in to dinner. It starts at 6:30 and I don't like to eat dinner until seven.. so either I'll eat early or I'll bring something along to hold me over until I get home and then have some oatmeal or something :)

Breakfast- Homemade brown rice breakfast cereal (yum), banana, egg

Lunch- PB on WW potato bread, chocolate mousse yogurt, TLC bar, carrots

Right after school- Almonds

Snack- Watermelon, blueberries, Yobaby yogurt (!), popcorn

Haha I got YoBaby because it's whole milk and has a lot of iron in it.  Plus it's organic :] Don't know what the rest of the day will be like.

oh and gibbit: We must have posted at the same time! Glad you had fun with your mom.

hi guys

i didnt sleep much last night everything going round and round in my head, what ive got to do, it just seems so huge, and scares me, but i know ive to do it, i didnt manage my morning snack today i just couldnt face it, but i will do it tomorrow, i had a panic at dinner time got very upset and through myself on the kitchen floor and cryed stupid i know, but i couldnt help it, well here my meal plan for today

B= 2 slices of low cal bread with jam toasted, coffee with milk 128 cals

L= jacket potatoe with baked beans and salad, shared with my daughter, 2 black teas   250 cals

S= salt and vinegar popcorn, black tea,  29 cals

D= half a low cal sausage, slice of low cal bread and salad, coffee with milk,  143 cals

milk for the day, 60 cals

S= crumpet with low cal jam,  77 cals

cals for the day 687,

will drink the rest of my milk before bed, might even have something else when my mum comes home.

lucy xx

ahh, so i forgot to mention, i dont even like the food at my aunt's house so its like what a waste of cals in my head.  they ahve a cook, yea, and i dont like ehr food so ill look like more of a freak not eating, and they always have soup and its so hot, i hate eating there, such a waste.

fri-

t bagel, pb, apple, cheese, raisisns~440

cereal, milk, trail mix~200

melted cheese, avocado, tomato sandwich, cut up celery w/almond butter, trail mix, fage w/strawberry sauce, plum~450

DRAGON-I  would deff eat more and contact your dr about changing the meal plan.  it took a long time for me to feel a little more comfy eating out and its still hard, but i try and think, ok, i have my whole life ahead of me, i want to be able to eat out, socialize etc and need to learn to fit these things into my life now.  keep it up!

GIBBIT-have fun tonight and great job w the mayo-dont restrict bc of lunch or the potluck, rt?!  and great job being so social!!! as i said, the food tonight doesnt even appeal to me, i hate when that happens!

AQUA-i say deff go tonight!  eat a bit before, while youre there, and after.  if you dont feel comfy staying the entire time then make an excuse, like you have to be up early tomm, and have someone pic you up, i say deff go and have fun!

So I went to the doctors today, ad she was like "oh, I've been talking to my colleagues and doing some research, talking to other professionals in the field" blah blah blah - that's why I LOVE my doctor, she's willing to go the extra mile, and she went through the numbers with me and essentially told me I need to be eating 4.000calories a day, and we compromised at 3...COMPROMISE? COMPROMISE MY BLOODY ARSE!  the word "compromise" makes it sound like there's some mutual content and am I seriously supposed to be CONTENT?! And then my parents act like it's no big deal, like there's no stress in it invlved, like I don't feel like BANGING MY STUPID HEAD AGAINST THE WALL!

ohmy god I am so unbelievably **** OFF! and I'm **** off that this stupid site won't let me say **** or probably **** either **** **** ****.

pheweeeee

I feel better

there's something really good about the English word **** - the spitting of the f, the harsh ck at the end, really makes one feel better

Anyway, feel rubbish, needed to rant.

sorry

off to climb a tree, will post on success later

aww theo, dont worry, you'll get used to 3000! I know, I hate how everything thinks it would just be so easy to eat more, eat more junk, etc, it's a BIG deal!! But it is true that we need a lot of calories to gain, I need 4000 myself though I usually fall short and get to about 3500 which just means I gain more slowly. You'll be ok, throw around the f-word some more, scream, bang your head against the wall (but not too hard!) and then eat. Have fun in the tree! And omg your haircut is adorable!!

agru- yes, no restricting for me! I've realized no one pays attention to what I eat as much as I do, I don't have to prove anythign to anyone, so if I eat more now and am not as hungry at the potluck, so be it. I'll eat what I want now and eat what I feel like later. I understand feelign like you're "wasting" calories, I hate eating things unless I'm thouroughly going to enjoy it and I've thrown the biggest most childish fits over meals I didn't enjoy enough but then my parents will be like so what? it's ok you didn't like this restaurant, we'll eat something better later. You still need the calories so it's not a total waste, eat what you think you can handle and plan a really yummy snack for later or breakfast tomorrow.

lucy- you're doing great! as I said to agru, I've thrown thrown some big temper tantrums myself and ended up looking like a 2 year old but sometimes we have to do that just to get it all out and feel better after. It's normal to have those moments throughout recovery. The milk is a really great addittion btw, it will really  help you get healthy again. I know it will be mentally hard but if you can challenge yourself enough to do it, start switching out the low cal and fat free things for higher cal ones, like regular hearty bread, whole milk, drink more juice instead of tea for calories, and are you putting oil on your salad? all of these things will help you raise your calories and you won't even notice the difference (other than things tasting better!)

aqua- go and have fun at the game! it's ok for your schedule to be thrown off some days, just eat a bit before, maybe treat yourself to an ice cream at the game and then eat again when you get home.

Wow. Even weight maitenence just became very difficult! During the summer, I picked and picked allll day to get my calories up. Now that school has started I get two meals during the day. Which wasn't too bad, because in the evening I could continue picking at everything. Well! I now have a retainer which I have to wear 24/7 unless I'm eating.  So now I'm not allowed to really snack. UGH!
Sorry.. just had to rant and pathetically hoping for some "aw, you can do it!". =P

agruskin: A full body strength workout. I'm male and need to build some muscle. I lost all my muscle by starving myself previously. ):

wistfulxthinking: I get that too. I find anything above 400 calories enormous and very filling.

theo: Don't feel too bad. Take this time to experiment in the kitchen or bake cakes and cookies.

Ugh... bad day... don't feel like posting my food, I'm sorry :( More alcohol... I need to end this cycle..

Turns out... the guy I met is not for me. In fact, he's not even interested. He just wanted a friend. I'm so **** stupid.

My ex wants me to help him gain weight. And I made him cry today.

Too much drama.

Night all.

Having a rather crap day. I definitely see a sizable difference in my body and am NOT happy about it. I feel as though I am losing my "specialness." And that bothers me because it is sooooooooo lame that I consider emaciation "special." Stupid, stupid, stupid! Also, the appetite is nowhere to be found. It made a brief appearance Tuesday morning and has been in seclusion ever since. Other people talk about getting hungry after increasing their intake and the fact that this is not the case with me makes me worry I am overdoing it. Plus, nothing has tasted good today. Normally, even when I am not hungry, food at least tastes good but today, not so much. Boo! Eating is hard enough, the food could at least have the dignity to taste good. Dang, it is really sad that food and my body play such a significant role in my life that they dictate my disposition for the day. I guess it bothers me more now than in the past because I choose not to rely on my old coping mechanisms anymore. I will not restrict, I ain't going back now 'cause I do not want to go through the past few weeks all over again. Okay, feel a little better after my tantrum.

Apologies as I'm feeling too lazy and uninspired to post individual replies right now.

so just got back from dinner, my aunt ate nothing but had 2 glasses of wine and my 18yr old male cousin ate not dinner adn then had a small slice of cake.  huge meal, lots of courses, has some of most but the thing that confuses me is how to to count oil?  i never use it but i know lots was used in cooking and stuff here and i dont know how to aoccount for it?  also, i had what i think was a big meringue cookie w/chocolate chips in it and i look it uo and it says its only 40cals, not possible??

updating foods and il respond later-

fri-

t bagel, pb, apple, cheese, raisisns~440

cereal, milk, trail mix~200

melted cheese, avocado, tomato sandwich, cut up celery w/almond butter, trail mix, fage w/strawberry sauce, plum~480

few bites of cinnamon sugary bread, some chicken broth ~80?

chicken thigh, cooked cauliflower(deff w/oil ~1cup), random bites of stuff~400?

bite of choc cake, most of big meringue cookie w/choc chips-dont know, cant beleive big meringe was only 40 cals?? ~100??

the thing that gets me is i dont think im really hingry but i have no clue if ive eaten enough or not, thats whyh i need to know cals and i dont knowwhat to do??

EDIT-adding a yogurt and an apple~240 TOTAL ~2000?

why are we all feeling crappy today?!?! ugh. I was in a better mood earlier, the bbq went really well, i ate a ton and talked to really fun people. but now i'm getting really worried about the retreat tomorrow and sunday. not even about food surprisingly! it's about this stupid "friend" i mentioned last week who i've been avoiding all week, but will have to confront tomorrow. At least it's gotten my mind off of worrying what we'lll be eating, right? Plus I just realized I don't know what to do with my cat if I go spend the night at the beach house, and on top of that, said cat just pooped in my sink...again. UGGH I'm so angry with her!

rest of my foods:

s- 2 big carrots with tahini, pear sliced and spread with tahini and honey.

d- a little bit of everything at the party, I was soo stuffed! My lentil curry was a hit, I ate that, salad, couscous, tabouli, pasta (yes it was white!), hummus mixed with more couscous, fruit salad marinaded in grand marnier :X and orange juice.

s- figs, almonds, oatmeal made with soymilk, more almonds, dried dates, topped with 2 scoops ice cream

god, why am I such a pig???

agru- i know how you feel tonight. I decided not to count again this morning since I reallyw ant to get out of that habit, plus today would just be impossible to count, but I really have no idea if I ate a lot, or not enough, or what, I'm eating my nighttime snack anyways just in case. Meringues actually are really low cal because they're only made with egg white. I used to make those a lot when I was restricting cals more, but since i started recovery i've replaced them with more high cal cookies. I really dont know how to count oil unless i've cooked the meal but overall, even if she used what would appear to be a lot of oil, remember it's divded up between everyone eating so it ends up being hardly any in one serving.

charliebo- tantrums can be good! let off some steam. I hate how we can feel so upset over food and weight gain, and at the same time feel even more upset that we have such sick thoughts in the first place. You ahve to see these thoughts for what they are and ignore them. You're making the right choice by continuing to push through and recover. Try and relax and do something to take your mind off of it, I think the more you worry about food and trying to feel hungry, the less in tune you'll really be iwth your body.

alysha- stop talking to your ex! he can gain weight on his own. And don't worry about this guy, he has issues to work through and you deserve someone better. This is not a reflection on you at all. Keep doing what's right for you and what makes you happy, hang in there!

wistful- you can do it! lol, just plan out your snacking a little more and it's not too much of a hassle to simply take out the retainer, and take some snacks for school too.

Sorry to hear that so many of you seem to be struggling now... but stick with it!  I was kind of thinking I should stick to the "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all rule," but... I'm not going to.  I weighed myself today since I first weighed here 2 weeks ago (after being here 2 weeks), and was still at 99 lbs - so I haven't lost anymore, but I haven't gained any either...  So I actually logged cals today (have been trying not to, just felt like I was eating enough) and it turns out I didn't even hit 2000 - I should probably be stuffing my face right now instead of typing this but...

Breakfast:  1 packet instant, unflavored oatmeal cooked with 1/2 cup skim milk and topped with 1 tbsp peanut butter; chopped banana and apple with more pb

Snack:  1 container strawberry yogurt; 1/2 oz almonds

Lunch:  some sort of cabbage soup my host mom made (~1 1/2 cups); ~3/4 cup white rice topped with ~3/4 cup stewed eggplant; tomato-cucumber salad with artichoke

Snack:  1 cup skim milk with 1 scoop protein powder; handful of grapes; 1 orange

Dinner:  (here's where things got a little bit iffy... was out with [non-vegetarian] friends, so it was kind of hard to find a place with options, SO...) 1 small vegetarian pizza (w/o cheese... it makes my stomach hurt); 1 glass of sangria (a small triumph!)

Snack:  picked at some leftover eggplant, but no appetite at the moment...

I guess I should go back to logging more closely until I can realiably eat enough - if only I could rely on my body to TELL me when I'm eating enough!

I am eating so sporadically these days. I find that if I just eat a bunch of snacks all day at random times I feel much better than eating 3 big meals. Here goes for today-
1 slice whole wheat toast
small apple
applesauce
Went to Neiman Marcus Cafe for lunch-
1 big  popover brioche thing (really yummy)
scraping of strawberry whipped butter
chicken salad served in a cabbage leaf
split pea soup with a bit of bacon
2 scoops mint chocolate chip ice cream (my fave)
hot fudge
whipped cream
1 slice of toast w/ 1 tbs parmesan chees

hey everyone

so my weights up to 40.5 kg/6stone 5lb.....up another pound this week...an its not that im pissed as much about the number etc but more about the fact that if ive gained another pound this week that means m eatin 500 exta cals a day and that means my bmr/maintanance is like 1000 or 1100?? wtf?uugghhh thats seriously crappy. i dunno what to do now....im worried about increasin now an am sorta put off. i have the nutritonist 2mro so il see what she says. an my blood tests came back and most of them are normal so thats one good thing i can be happy about i guess.

when others first started gaining what was ur experince like? did u start low cal an increase slowly? how did ur weight go up? please share stories with me so im a little less confused?

b-cereal oats n more and super milk-350 cals

likearock6:mayb try addin nuts etc to bump the intake up if ur maintaining? how long are u stayin there for?

gibbit: thats good the bbq went well an u were havin a good time. i think the bad mood is contagous lol i have that now. cud u jus avoid this friend? yeah lookin to the nutritional side of foods really helps me eat more cause im like ok this is doing me good . an good idea with the home bakin..i shud do that more...recently a few weeks ago i made this amazin wholegrain banana bread an finished pretty much the whole thing in like 5 days lol. mayb now while ur still tryin to gain the last few pounds u can try pusg yourself outta the eatin compulsivly thing an if it doesn work right now u wont be too panicked cause ur still meant to be gaining anyway? im worried aswell about not being able to stope atin this much when i maintain cause right now im not hungry but eat anyway an what if i cant stop that. is that the kinda thing ur worried about when u say eating compulsivly?

agruskin: yeah gibbits right, meringues are low cal cause there jus egg whites an a bit of sugar. im the same about now knowin how many cals i need cause im never hungry either....we need the hunger signals ...hopefully theyll come back soon!

charliebo: omg i cud have jus written what u did. im the exact same about feelin like im loosin my specialness. and part of me thinks ew i look so emaciated an horrible an jus wanna look normal but then the other part is like no emaciation is what i want...it makes me different an special an gets ppl to focus on me/ think im more complex...god its messed up distorted thinking for sure. but we have to stay strong an not restrict....we can do it! what i find that helps me is i think of a situation where i felt sooo awkard cause of my low weight an then when i feel fat relive that moment...it usually wakes me up a bit an makes me think...wtf am i thinking im to small etc.  

alysha_: your ex can gain on his own...if its hard for u to be around him then jus try avoid hom at all costs. sorry about this other guy too but theres plenty more fish in the sea right? anim sure u have loads of guys interested in you anyway so forgt about this one!

theofournay: do u have to take 4000 a day cause ur maintaining on such a high number or something? i know parents act like its a simple thing ...jus eat more....its like eh no its really not. u can do it tho girlie jus keep tryin to add in little snacks etc.

aqueav: yeah im gettin into the whole balancing thing lately...funny enough that was one thing ive never really obsessed over with the ed....are u meant to be maintaining at 115 ? what height are you? mayb its jus water retention.. mayb try cut back on salt an sodium for a few days an see if that helps? i hope u enjoyed the dinner an footbacll game :)

toasttoast: did ur metab speed up when u increased? i wanna feel hungry but its jus not happenin for me at the mo...i feelless hungry than ever its so frustratin. i guess i jus need to be patient with myself. what workouts do u do?

oh an another question to all.....you know thoose weight gain supplements like ensure ( im on thses ones called fortisip) well is the cal still used the same by the body? cause i think since ive replased one 300 cal drink with 300 cl food ive started gaining...cud this be the reason? or is a calorie a calorie ?

xxxxx

aussiegirl17: I assume that it has sped up as I feel more lively. You might not be feeling hungry because your body is still in the process of adaptation but do not worry, it is speeding up as it adapts. As you eat more more regularly, your body will adapt and your metabolism will go up in the process.

For my workout, I do a full-body 10 exercise workout. Bench dips, sit ups, tricep extensions, bench press, military press, squats, deadlifts, bicep curls, leg extensions and lat pulldowns.

aussiegirl17: (Sorry didn't see the other question at first)

For the drinks, it depends on the drinks macronutrient breakdowns. But I would think that it would always be healthier to consume a fuirt and vege salad over one of those drinks. Those drinks are meant for people whom really have absolutely no hunger at all and need to increase their calories, but even if you are one of these people, I urge you to eat fruits (carbs) and nuts (fats and some protein) instead, the sugar should bide you through. If you feel too full, split up your meals to more than 6 per day and drink lots of water, you'll feel really good after getting all that water and stuff (euphemism) out of your system.

For example, your meal plan could look like this: (Let say you need 4000 kcal)

0800 Oatmeal / Cereal / Other Breakfast Stuff (500 kcal)

1000 Granola Bar / Bowl of Cereal / Tasty Snack (300 kcal)

[Don't limit during snack time, there's no guilt in eating more or equal kcals to the 3 main deals. I usually treat them as meals 1-6/7. Dieticians call them "Breakfast, Snack 1" etc as they want to "normalise" our diets]

1200 Sandwiches with salad (600 kcal)

1400 Fruits and Vegetable Salad [Condiments are great for this, nuts also do well in salads] (300 kcal)

1600 Sandwiches (400 kcal)

1800 Meat + Rice/Potatoes/Pasta + Salad + Dessert (800 kcal)

2000 Fruits and Vegetable Salad (300 kcal)

2200 Nuts [I don't really advocate carbs right before bed, but its a debatable issue, carbs in the night are fine by me though] (300 kcal)

Snack jar: Have a snack jar full of nuts and dried fruit and snack on them all the time, no guilt here either, you're keeping your metabolism up and going. (500 kcal for this particular meal plan, but arrange it accordingly to amount of food you eat for the 8 meals, the point here is that you can add the 500 calories into food instead if you're feeling well or eat less in the 8 meals and have more nuts and dried fruit.)

It's not a professional meal plan, but I think the idea of having a snack jar with adjustable calories is not a bad idea.

ughh does anyone else have this problem??

when yout hink you're improving your intake, then you see you're eating more than all your friends, or you just see someone skinny and you ask yourself, "why am i trying to gain weight??"

I guess it's the thing that my previously really overweight friend has lost a lot but by eating tiny luncehs and no breakfast, and i don't know if it's healthy for her, but I feel fat just eating next to her when she comments on how MUCH im eating :|

nevertheless, i had a bad day in between but it's the weekend so i have time to eat extra :|, because i notices that we had a math diagnostic exam, and im normally at the top of my class by far, and i was one of the last to finish and was stuck on a lot of them so i realise that i NEED to eat more.

not gonna record yesterday, it was a bad day, but todays a new one :)

B- two bowls of cereal, milk, cinnamon [300]

S- was going to just have an apple.. ended up eating two with cinnamon and 1 tbsp pb so im guessing around 350 cals??

Hey hope everyone is feeling better today. Have to make this quick because the hurricane is working it's way up towards Maryland, where I live, and it's pouring here. I'll probably lose power any minute.

charliebo- I think we all have telokinetic powers. We can sense when someone else is feeling badly and then we do too! I feel the same way as you though. Emaciation still appeals to me, but we both need to remember that if we want to live a full life, it's not the answer.

alysha- Sorry you had a bad day. Feel better.

agru- It sucks that family meals are so difficult in your family. Meringue cookies are really low in cals, b/c they are only egg whites and sugar.

gibbit- Haha, my cat poops on my floor! Glad you had a good time last night and I'm sure you'll have a great time on your retreat.

aussie- You're probably still in starvation mode. Really, the only way to speed up your metabolism is to make a big jump in cals. You'll see a kinda big gain at first, but once your body gets used to the food you gain at a slower weight. my profile might be helpful.

slr- Sorry you had a crappy day too! I feel exactly like you when my friends don't eat. People here always tell me to remember that they're the ones screwing up their metabolisms, where as we are speeding up ours and can eat whatever we want! :)

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I had a nice time at the game last night. Not like I watched it or anything! I stayed with my friends most of the time and met some new people. I barely thought about food. And I met this boy who I might possibly like. He's not exactly cute, but arg I don't know how to describe it. Like, handsome but not in the typical way. There we go. Anyway, he made me laugh a lot last night, which is a plus b/c most guys have a pervy sense of humor that I find really immature. And I get the feeling that he's smart. And he plays on the JV football team.  I'm smiling now ahhhhhh what's wrong with me?

I have an audition today for an orchestra outside of school. It's the next level of the one I was in last year, and it's difficult to get in to. So wish me luck!

Soo last night I ran out the door and forgot to take a snack so I just had a bottle of water at the game :\ I was going to have ice cream but chickened out. So when I got home, I had the usual plus oatmeal w/ lots of almonds and an apple in it, soymilk, figs and cheddar bunnies.

Today:

Breakfast- 2 homeade breakfast cookies :] with PB on top, oatmeal w/ pumpkin, egg, nectarine

slr101: I, too have a hard time when I compare myself to others. Try and remember that you don't know what they are eating the rest of the day. Additionally, they are damaging their metabolisms while you are speeding yours up.

toast x 3: You know a lot about nutrition. I'm very impressed. What are you studying in school?

dragonfly: Give yourself permission to eat more than the doctor said. Whenever I would go into the hospital the doctors would not believe me when I told them how much I was eating. They claimed my weight would not have been so low if I was really eating that much. (I think my weight got so low because I never skipped meals and ate at regular intervals, even at my worst.) Doctors don't know everything. Are you on any medication for the osteoporosis? I used to take Fosamax but have heard it is pointless without an adequate estrogen store. Cannot afford it right now anyway. Your doctor's meal plan seems to be low in calcium and vitamin D. I would recommend increasing those. Also, I just read a new study that says blueberries may help with bone density! Yippee, 'cause I love 'em!

aussiegirl: Thanks for the suggestions, you are wise! I do blind weigh-ins currently but my experience in the past, as well as others I have been in treatment with, is that there is initially a fairly rapid gain. This trend soon slows down or the person even loses and calories must again be increased. I know how scary it is to increase your intake, especially if you are already gaining weight but I try and tell myself that my metabolism will never recover if I don't at least try to boot it back up.

agruskin: I am proud of you. Even though your aunt and cousin picked at their food you still persevered. Well done!

gibbit: Thanks. You are so right. I really, really need to think about something other than the oh so very narrow world of ED.

aquaev: You must have been posting while I was busy writing my usual novel. Glad you had fun at the game. I love funny guys! Would you mind sharing your breakfast cookie recipe?

I am getting way too obsessive about being exact with my calorie counts. I eat a pretty similar amount each day so today I am going to try and keep a rough estimate, running tally sort of thing in my mind. On the one hand, not counting could be dangerous if I am not vigilant about keeping my intake up. On the other hand, I am driving myself nuts-o by doing crap like weighing fruit and calculating the calories per ounce. A slight variation in cals per day is normal. I'll see how it goes today. In the meantime, here's yesterday's food with calories:

breakfast: shredded wheat n' bran w/ almonds, blueberries, ground flax, and nonfat milk (so sick of this cereal, can't wait to finish the durn box!)
Ezekiel bread topped w/ yogurt and strawberry slices
orange (530)
snack: orange juice (110)
lunch: the usual (510)
snack: smoothie (oj, protein powder, soy milk)
raisin cinnamon mochi w/ peanut butter
kiwi (500)
dinner: barley, red lentil, and mushroom pilaf
tuna, soy feta
veggies / hummus
cantaloupe (330)
snack: nonfat yogurt w/ mixed berries
watermelon (320)

total = 2300

charliebo: Nothing from school, more like OCD regarding nutrition.

aquaev: Good luck with your pursuit. I can't really offer much but I feel all optimistic today.

aussiegirl: If you get to this page without having read the last one, please do, I think my meal plan could work. (Pages stack up pretty fast over here)

everyone: What are the benefits of soy milk over conventional milk? Non-vegans seem to be replacing their milk with soy milk too.