Grew up and had a child and ballooned to 164. Now, I am losing weight the healthy way and am down to 137. My goal is 130 so I'm almost there :)
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at the end of junior year i grew to around 120. now im 114 and trying to get down to 105-110
bunches of girls all around me stick thin, healthy thin, naturally thin...its all my friends talk about and although i dont like us sharing insecurities...i think ive got the lowest self esteem sometimes
dolceamara on page two had an excellent story about confidence though - gotta hold my head up high until i believe it for myself
I went to a very small school my senior year (25 kids in my graduating class) and I was probably the 2nd largest girl in my class. I think it goes to show that being stick-thin doesn't equal sexiness and beauty in everyone's eyes. I felt so fat. I still look fat in my graduation pictures to me. I think a big part of what attracted people to me was that I was a very happy and bubbly person. But that's neither here nor there.
I guess the answer to the question is that I fluctuated between 140 and 160 and ALWAYS felt like the fat girl. Always. I look back at my pictures when I was about 140 and I looked pretty darn good. I'd love to get my 140 teenage body back. My goal is to be 131 though :)
Neither. If I were five pounds Lighter or Heavier I'd see myself as unhealthy.
If I were five years younger, I'd be missing out on where I am in life currently.
If I were on my death bed and an angel came down from the heavens and asked me " If you could change or do one thing before you die, what would it be " Giving me the option. I'd do it all over again, and never change a thing.
2003- 132 pounds + 5'4
2004- 94.7 pounds+5'6
2005- 123pounds+ 5'6
2006- 147 pounds+ 5'7
2007- 112 pounds + 5'7
i'm definately going to have to say the 5lbs lighter based entirely on the fact that I would never want to have to be 15 again. Too many insecurities and personal issues back then.
so what all that got me was fat ,fat,and fatter.
203 lbs. in 2007 but down to 194,trying to get healthy
Great query juicebox. It would be great to be 5 years younger. I take it then I would have to be 5 lbs heavier. That would be ok. But there is a trade off. Would probably not go for the 5 years younger for 15 lbs heavier. I hate carrying that extra weight!
everyone is so tall. i wish i were taller. :/
wow jaybird, your weight really changed throughout the years. what grade are you in?
Wow, I've calmed down, along with putting on a stone :-(
I'm working on getting down to 139 now. Then we'll see.
I am 5'5 n 1/2", I think. I usually say I'm 5'6"
. I don't know, I have scoliosis, I think that makes a difference with my frame. If my spine were straight, I'd probably be 5'7", at least. Anyways, I was 180-210 in high school. I was one of the fat girls and it was awful. Was I self-conscious, hell yes. I tried dieting so many times, but because I knew nothing about nutrition, I thought the way to lose weight was to starve myself. So, I'd do that for awhile, then lose weight. Once I started eating again, I'd gain even more weight. I had a lot of issues with my school, though, and eventually quit to homeschool. Once I was out of that place I started dieting seriously. I have maintained a healthy weight for 7 years. Wow, that shocks me to write that...I am 24. I can understand the push to be thinner though. I stil have that to this day. I have days where I still see myself as that fat girl. But you aren't fat. You're still growing and I wish you could realize that what others say/think about you doesn't matter. I remember friends or aquaintances of mine who were super skinny or of a healthy weight telling me they were "so fat." I remember thinking, why are you telling me this...or on bad days, if you are fat, then what am I.
I think the main problem is puberty. I hit puberty late. Had no hips/bust to speak of until after I was 16. But then ... almost overnight ... they grew! I (obviously) felt that I had more fat on my body than I had before which made me extremely uncomfortable. Not unhealthy fat - boob, butt and hip fat (and hip bones) which created some rather pleasing womanly curves. But I didn't think so then - I didn't want womanly curves! I wanted to go back to being the way I used to be BEFORE!
So I think it's completely ridiculous to compare your pre-puberty body to growing-woman body, as a lot of teens tend to do. That's like comparing your 15-year-old body to your 8-year-old body. It's just NOT apples to apples. And it's not just about the height! I didn't grow at all after 9th grade.
When I actually got hips - and a bust - I could fit into none of my clothes any more, which made me feel like a huge person. Going from Girls to Juniors to Misses fashions (which are cut to fit the right kind of body) was still a tough thing for me.
I wish there was some way to make puberty easier emotionally for all the suffering teens - it's hard enough to go through all the physical changes!
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