Welcome to the new over 100 to lose club!

Howdy guys and gals!  I'm taking over this club, not because i think i have all the answers (i so know i don't) but because i'm super pumped up right now and motivated to help those people out there who have a lot of weight to lose.  we need a place that's more than a "can i join" place.. we need a place to talk about issues related to being this overweight.. 

Who here needs to lose over 100 pounds? Who needs to lose over 150 pounds? Or more?

I did! I did! And yes.. i did!

A small amount of background on me for those of you who don't know: i am a binge eater. I have had a problem with emotional eating, hidden eating, over eating, eating with a hang nail, eating because i have split ends.. you name it i stuffed my emotions down with the greasiest, nastiest food i could find!

Why did i do that (you might ask)? Because of many many different reasons.. frankly i think it was because this is how i was taught from a young age, this is how we handle stress and emotions. I learned that it's not proper to talk about your feelings.. or god forbid, express your emotions! You have to shove them down with a piece of cake and a smile!

Anyway.. onto the reason for this post.

If you are out there and need to lose a lot of weight.. just like i've got to.. i think we need to have a place where we can discuss these issues with each other and try and work through them together. Because, let's face it, people who are morbidly obese (yes.. i hate that word too) have uniquely different issues to work through and deal with than the average person.

Losing weight, for people who have this much to lose, have to deal with so much more than the formulas to figure out how much to eat.. and exercising. It's more complex than that. We have to deal with years and years of poor eating habits that have to be unlearned, we have to deal with the emotional torment of just being this size, we have to deal with the harsh looks and comments from strangers or from loved ones, we have to deal with our emotions for the first time in our life because we aren't shoving them down our throats anymore..

this is the hardest thing ANYONE has to deal with.. but, from my experience, things are different for us bigguns. :)

also, for those of you who don't know me very well.. (because i've kinda been in hiding and not posting much and there are so many new people out there) i started out in january weighing 324 pounds. I now weigh 232.5.. i have lost 91.5 pounds so far. I am not telling you guys this to get kudos.. i got those yesterday. I'm telling you guys this because i want anyone out there who is struggling with knowing they have, what seems to be, an insurmountable amount of weight to lose, that there is hope.. it IS possible.. you CAN do it.. but it's hard.. and you will hurt.. i know this because i've been there.. i've done it.. and i'm still dealing with it.

so.. come on in and share your stories.. i want to hear them and i want us to support each other until we are all at our goal weight!

Echoing o1darcie1o... pick one scale and use that for your basis.  Even if it's not registering the same weight as the doctor's scale, a pound lost is a pound lost. 

I would suggest next time you go to the doctor's, you go home and weigh yourself on your home scale and see what the difference is. 

We can all do this!  Because we're good enough, strong enough, and gosh darn it, people like us!

united asks:
I'm surprised your doc is using a digital scale.  Do you mean a little one like they sell in the stores?  All of our docs have used a balance scale with weights that's calibrated once or twice a year...


It's a digital one, but not the little flat kind you can buy in the stores.  It looks more like this:

scale

Not exact, but you get the idea.

The one I purchased is this one:
HoMedics Scale

When I weighed in at the doctor's office this week, I immediately drove to my Curves, so I could check their "balance" scale against the doctor's "digital".  Unfortunately, the Curves manager and I realized two days later that the "balance" scale wasn't *balanced*, that is, when no one was on it, the indicator wasn't resting halfway between the two "stops".  There's a little adjustment piece that she used to make it do that.  So it still wasn't comparing apples to apples.

I use my weekly weigh-in at the doctor's office for my official weight for C-C.  But I still have to weigh at Curves monthly as part of my enrollment there.  I don't keep a scale at home because I don't want to obsess over every pound up or down daily - which I know I *would*.  I still find myself stepping on the scale at Curves almost every time I go there, which I don't want to do, but can't seem to help myself.  Fortunately, with "mentalpause", I forget what I weighed almost immediately!  Still, the doctor's digital scale (also not a little flat one on the floor but more like the one pictured in willowraven's link) is my OFFICIAL scale.

True... if I can just eat sensibly and exercise and not get hung up on the 'did I or didn't I lose this week', I'd be o.k.  My weight has always been a very time and energy consuming part of my life, and like all bad habits, having a hard time letting go of that whole mind-set... though I am trying.  And I am back up on the horse.  Today I am having a big salad (with chicken) for my lunch and my huge 4-cup glass of water.  And I did really good last night with restraining myself.  We went to see the new Robin Williams movie (very funny, btw!) and my husband got the nachos thing, and his sister and her boyfriend got nachos AND a small bag of popcorn.  Instead of eating a lot of the nachos, I allowed myself about 5 or 6 of them, and just a handful of popcorn (anyone who really knows me knows that I could seriously LIVE off popcorn, so yea, it was a big restraint).  They each also got those super-huge cups of Coke - I only had 2 small sips.  All in all, compared to how I used to snack at the theater, I did pretty good.  As someone said... Baby steps.

As for swinging by the doctor's office - I don't go all that often - usually just the yearly exam, and sick visits.  She isn't all that close, and I'm seriously considering changing to another doctor as I am just not al that comfortable with her.  I haven't been with her all that long, and would rather have someone that I feel comfortable with.

::giggles::  Just imagining that teaspoon of taters !!

If I had had more notice about the movie, I would have been able to plan the snackage thing a little better.  It was sort of a 'last minute' thing (well, about 3 hours before movie time, but after dinner), so I didn't do too bad.

I realize now, looking back, I was cycling through the lower point of a depression, and it's so hard to see light when I'm in the middle of one of those.  I'm just glad I'm out of it.

(from my journal, since I'm on my way out the door for a Dr. appt):

I just got up about an hour and half ago, and got ready to get in the shower to get ready.  I stepped on the scale, and it showed I had a 2 lbs loss!!  I am so happy, I feel like I'm flying on air.  You could have said I lost 100 lbs - that's how good I'm feeling!  However, it doesn't end there.  I had ordered a new scale last week (digital - see here), and it arrived while I was in the shower.  So I got dressed while Wes got the batteries in it, and we headed to the bathroom, and I weighed myself.  Well, the news even got better and it also showed that YES, the analog scale I had purchased earlier this month was off by 8-10 lbs!!  While the analog (dial) scale showed me at 418 (which showed a 2 lbs loss from the 420 a week ago), the new digital scale shows me at 410.6!!  So I am very happy.  I have already updated my weight to show the 410.6, and I am returning the dial scale.  And I am feeling MUCH better about all the dieting I have been doing.

Congratulations Willow!!!  Gotta love days like that!

Pam

Oh yea - I am really loving it actually, and seeing the scale goes down is just awesome!  It's what I needed to keep doing the proper eating, calorie counting, exercising and so on... motivation, baby!!

(((Guiltily looks at the floor)))

I'm in the same boat Uni... I ate a very large bowl of Reeses Puff's Cereal and went over my calories... I think that I could feel a pound coming back on...

For shame :(

From Jill to JakJak ...

Put it behind you and move on - more healthily!  C'mon!  You can do it!

thanks for the support Jill :)

Yes, I would love to lose 100lb now that I'm not in denial. I was down to 232 and then my thyroid acted up again keeping me at 250ish. Then I had a baby. SO I need to lose about 40lbs in the next few months to feel normal again. Then I'll go from there.

My thyroid tends to get me down and get in the way. Being said from someone who used to run under 6 minute miles!

Blondie,

I was never a runner but my thyroid has caused me some problems too.  After I had my second son (I gained weight during his pregnancy but not with my other two), my thyroid levels were way off.  I was so embarrassed by my weight that I wouldn't go to the doctor.  I put on an additional 50 pounds.

I had actually had Graves' disease (hyperthyroidism) that was treated in 1994 with radioactive iodine.  It was when I was pregnant with my second daughter that they found my thyroid to be underactive and I've been on synthroid (or some form of it) since then.  It is frustrating when the levels are off.  Mine have been good for a while now and I'm much better about having them checked.

I've been around for a few months now and still have more than 100 to go.  I'm so looking forward to the day when I only have 100 to go.  I do feel the best I've felt in years though.

Nice to meet you.

Pam

How is everyone doing?  It has been awfully quiet around here.

Pam

Hey, pamt! You're right - I've noticed it's awfully quiet too. As a matter of fact, it seems awfully quiet across the entire board. Guess folks are all, just too busy to drop a post. Hope all is well with you and everyone else.

I agree guys it has been every quiet. Everytime I logg on to CC I always check for comments from the 100lb plus club.  it is nice to know others are checking as well. Everyon have a wonderful day!