Willingly starving while millions go hungry

I had an eating disorder. The other day in History class we were learning about the Irish potato famine, and that's when it hit me. Millions STARVED to death against their will. How could I have WILLINGLY starve myself? Then I thought about the Holocaust. People in concentration camps were fed 700 calories a day. I remember seeing pictures of piles of dead bodies, skeletons starving to death. For two years I subsisted on 1,000, just 300 calories more, and for a month I lived on roughly 250-500. I NEVER thought I could die. I wasn't even that skinny! (Honestly, I wasn't. Not underweight at all.)

I can't believe I did that! I RISKED MY LIFE! And for what? A few pounds? It all seemed so different then! My weight was WHO I WAS. Now I can see that it's just a part of me.

haha, yeah, i just came to this realization recently.  realizing that i've risked my life has been a positive conclusion though - it makes me even more thankful for recovery.