it has been a wonderful day

so after my christmas break i just ahd my weigh in today and i gained 2 pounds! yes i have 3 more to gain before the end of january otherwise i cant study abroad this summer in england! it just sucks tho my roommate...also has an eating disorder...has "gained" her weight back and i see her working out and stuff and i am trying SOOOOOOOOOOOOO hard not to go down to the fitness center right now and work out...but i am sitting here eating my snack..BLAH..i find it soo hard to focus sometimes when everyone around me is like my goal is to lose weight, eat better, workout more, not eat dessert...AHHHH its all everyone talks about and i want it to stop!

ah same here witht he eating/working out..sitting here and trying to decide what to do... my friends are the same way but don't give in - remember you're  completely different. i had such a hard time today not going to the gym because i know no one would have caught me and i was feeling so gross but i sat my butt down and had my pm snack and read my homework instead and now i'm still wanting to go but i know that it's not worth it and you can do it too. just hold out (thats what i keep telling myself) and once you gain the weight we can workout and be as active as we want- goodluck!

its soo true. but its hard when your roommate is suffering from an eating disorder. i constantly compare my portions and eating of ALLL day long to her skimpy half eaten meals when she claims she is recovering...i dont see the connection.  how do i have to eat over 2500 calories a day and her not even the min. and gaining?? dont see it.  idk sorry i am complaining because it is so frustrating i know i have to focus on myself but its hard.