Just NOT working at all

SO my nutritionist upped my cals to 1500. I've pretty much been sticking to it. Yesterday was totally binge-free, sticking to my 1500 cal  plan. Today, i don't know what it was - Easter, all talk of chocoltae, etc., but i had this URGE after breakfast to get a chocolate croissant. i got one, along with two chocolate bars, 6 cookies and a small bowl of cereal and my lunch. All before 10:30. I couldn't stop. Now I'm pretty much full (not OVERLY full I'm noticing). And I don't want anymore food. ANd I probably won't eat for the rest of the day because I'm full. I added the cals and it was about 1800. Not too bad if you think overall for the day...but the day isn't over and while I'm saying i won't eat anymore I have to give myself some room to eat. So in total my cals may add up to 2100 for the day. But why???? I thought the bingeing would stop once I got more cals...it's more that I can't stop once I start Although i notice it's getting slightly slightly better....it's still happening!!! AM I just supposed to ride this out as i recover from Anorexia? I don't have quite as much self-hate today either, because i keep saying to myself - come on, it's easter, probably EVERYONE is binging on chocolate at work or elsewhere today....

give it time.

and remember that if you can go binge free for a few days, after that it will be wayyyy easier. your body and mind are used to you doing it, so it seems impossible not to. plus once you don't do it for awhile your stomach will shrink a little and you'll get full faster. give it a few days and really stick to it, and it will work.

The thing is i'm recovering from anorexia, not binge-eating...the bingeing just came on during the recovery, which i've only just begun in the last 2 weeks. Like I say i'm not as panicked today but just am having a lot of trouble understanding why this is happening even with more cals...

the only thing i can say is GO DO SOMETHING.... get ur mind off food.... eat when your SUPPOSED TO have meals and why think about what everyone else is doing.... your recovering your own health.... go shop/go to the mall/nice stroll ANYTHING... go on with your day and when a meal time comes around then EAT!

 

very blunt i know but it's the only thing keepin me going in my recovery so maybe try it! keep us updated!

People with eating disorders don't usually just stick to one type of disordered eating.  Recovery means working on all the emotional issues that caused you to develop anorexia in the first place.  Until those issues are resolved, you'll probably continue to use food as a coping mechanism.  Whether that be starving yourself, making yourself throw-up or bingeing.  In many ways, it's all kind of the same.

That said, you should be REALLY proud of yourself from moving away from anorexia!  That is a huge accomplishment.  And knowing that you did that, you can feel confident that you'll move away from the bingeing too.  It's been 1 year and 3 months since I last made myself throw-up, but I still struggle with bingeing.  The periods of bingeing are less often and less severe now than they were when I first started recoving from bulimia.  I hate that I still struggle with binges, but I'm so glad that I no longer make myself purge.  I know that if I keep working on the emotional stuff, the bingeing will become more and more rare and maybe one day will be gone forever.  Until then, I just try and appreciate the progress that I know that I've already made.

Good luck!

Your body will most likely be tempted to binge until you are at a healthy weight. The closer you get, however, the more control you should gain. It is better to gain weight quickly, but not too quickly; the preferred rate of gain doctors prefer is about 1-3 lbs per week.

Binging is alright if it happens once in a while, but it should not become a habit. After a binge, even if it's early in the day, do NOT restrict yourself if you are hungry. Depriving yourself of food could just result in another binge, then you'd restrict to make up for it, binge, restrict... It becomes a vicious cycle. So please, forgive yourself and eat when you are hungry today.

I promise things will get better if you listen to your body: eat when you are hungry, stop when you are full. After depriving yourself for so long, those instincts may be hard to follow. You may benefit from planning your menu - when you will have meals and snacks - to help you construct a healthy pattern of eating.