XTC2 (Ex-Thick-Chick Club)

Hello all....

This website changed my life. ( : Sounds overly dramatic, but it is true. I hope to look back a year or so from now and think, "I am forever grateful......"  Anywho, I think my favorite part of cc, aside from all the great educational information, is the overwhelming support and friendship I've found here. I guess most of my life I've only trusted and truly befriended a handful of unique women---I hold my friends in the highest regard and do not take camraderie lightly. The women I have met here are seriously my spiritual twins! I always felt very alone in my weight loss journey----no more!

That said, I think my cc girls, and you know who you are, are the best! ( :   My buddies, my pals, my soul sisters =P Chat away to motivate yourself and others! ( ;

~~Olivia

ridonkilous is my brother's new Army word from Iraq --- lol.  like FUBAR or something, but it made us laugh so much at dinner....    I like that as much as I like your "hella"  --  I stole that one back from you (and high school!)  lol

cukes are so yummy -- and I love the carrot in the middle trick.  too cute. 

I am glad you chilled a little, but I think it is not you who needs to do that.  I think D just freaked a little....  PMS???  boys are turds. 

thanks for the props on the garage.  I got out there and sang along LOUD to my mp3 player, flashing back to early wogging days when I could have cared less if someone heard me (at least until I saw them hearing me -- LOL).    It went quickly, and I figure if my parents and S/K are going to be nice enough to help me do the LR, I should get as much done in pre-prep as I can.    I am going to go help them keep working on the kitchen I think tonight....

And amen to daizy's point about unconditional love.  boys suck at that sometimes.     and that song by Pink, ROCKS ----   I was fresh from the breakup whem my sister jammed out to it with us all in the car on the way to the MapleLeaf Parade.  it was.... cathartic.   and seemed so fitting to me.   I like her kickass and leave no prisoners attitude if not all her tunes.  =P

Agreed - PINK kicks serious ass and isn't afraid to let you know it!  Love that song!

Daizy~ what a horrible dream, it's nice that J is understanding of it though.  And I agree, D does not know how to love unconditionally and I partly blame his parents.  They shut down and ignore you for weeks over something totally stupid so at least he doesn't do that but it just makes it hard for him to learn to love unconditionally.  And I think he does see it as a threat but whatever, get over it for my health. 

I guess his overall point is that we pay money every month to go to the gym and he is there helping me workout for free so it seems like a waste of money to pay more when I should/could be benefiting from what we currently pay for.  And I guess I understand his point but he doesn't need to make it in such a dramatic fashion, especially since HE was the one who brought up the whole idea in the first place.  I never would have asked about it, he mentioned it numberous times and asked if I was interested.  I guess he just wanted me to keep turning him down so he felt like a good gym partner maybe?  who knows the way boys minds thing, especially his. 

aww abs - i just dont understand why he thinks he can treat you this way : (  

I truly dont think he realizes that he is hurting your feelings.  Here is my conclusion... Guys suck!!!!

But of course this is a conclusion I came up with due to my experiences which may be a little biase since B sucks!!!!

I am really upset thinking about my mom not being happy with me and b being a jerk.   I feel like I cant do anything right anymore... 

Girls you mean so much to me!  Hope you are all have a great New Years!!!

boys are turds.  there -- problem solved.  if only it was that easy.......   I love you both.    You both deserve to be happy.  Pretty different situations, to be best resolved in different ways, but sheesh.  Boys are idiots.  if they only knew what a good deal they had with us ladies, huh>????

CHallenges to you........    take new measurements.    If not for comparison to last year, then comparison for next year.     ( :   I just did that and read through my old journal entries.  I was far more unhappy that early than even I realized, and it was very cathartic to read about......  and my inches changing SO MUCH SHOCKED my pants off.  GOOD FOR THE SOUL!!!!!   I am amazed at the change in my body from the beginning until now.  I have a notebook I;ve kept since I right before I started cc, and I recorded EVERYTHING in the beginning.........  I even drew a "NOW"   picture and a what I wanted to be "NEW"  picture of my body.  I wish I could scan it.  It is serious.  Like I even used white-out to make sure I got it exactly right.   I was astounded to realized all the "new" measurements I wrote on my "ideal" body picture were now REALITY or very close to it for my real body right now.  WOW ----- that rocks.       challenge 2---   pick a fruit or veggie you either haven;t had in forever OR have never tried, and TRY IT.   S likes pears A LOT which I am so-so on.  sometimes good, sometimes yucly, you know?  I got some last night and they ROCKED.    it was just  a nice change.  

  Have I said lately how LUCKY I feel to have found such an AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME group of cool girls to love and encourage????????   I would be utterly LOST without you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   hope this next year, 2009, is everything you dreamed it could be. 

I am trying to talk K of my friends S&K into going out tonight......   I mean, I could go to the bar alone probably and have an ok time, but it would be more fun with friends.    I think booze up at home, eat, go out, come home, have fun, playing cards..... drink Tosti Asti at midnight.......   I wish I was going to get some action later, but hey, you do what you have to do.   LOL 

Big plans tonight, girls?????? 

Ok girls!!  I'm over being sad about this and it's D's loss if he dosen't want to shape up.  He did come over to my work today and we talked a little but I'm not completely healed yet.  I paid for my first two training sessions with V!  Next Mon/Wed I will be training with him and he said he's going to work on my routine this weekend.  I told him I like out-of-the-ordinary stuff.  Like instead of boring old weights, I'd like to get back into boxing and jump roping (a vital exercise with boxers for footwork and leg strength) and other things like that.  So we'll see how it goes and hopefully I'll find a few new exercises I can share with D.  That boy could do the same thing for the rest of his life and never get bored.  I was bored 51 weeks ago. 

Olivia~ great new challenges!  I will take masurements tonight or tomorrow and put them in my journal.  And as for the new fruit veggie, I'll have to get creative but I'm sure I can find something!  Veggies will be easy, I hardly eat any veggies.  Fruit will be hard since I eat almost every fruit under the sun but I haven't had a kiwi or a starfruit in a looong time.  I'll see what they look like at the store next time!

Peanut~ hope P's having a better day today than yesterday!! 

Jess~ Here's to a rockin 2009 in a new place starting a new life with you and the two you love the most in the world!!

Daizy~ have fun in Vermont!!

Baby news~ no baby yet.  They're going to induce on Friday morning if she hasn't gone into labor yet.  She's SO ready to not be pregnant anymore!!  I chatted with her for a while yesterday which was nice, I feel like I haven't talked to her in forever!  I'll keep you all updated when I have news!

AMEN, abbs,  boys are tards.     hope personal training rocks ----

yay to new challenges.      yum, kiwi and starfruit.   been a long time for me too.  I stick to my faves usually,  every day -nanas, Gala apples, oranges, cantaloupe, grapes...  you know.  ordinary  =P   I do love me some veggies though ---- harder for me to find new things -----   I even like bok choy and kale.....  what is there new to try?   oh, wait.  lots of things.....  lol   

second to al the things she said after that --  lazy, but true!!! 

yay for waiting for good, exciting baby news, abbs --- let us know.  how fun!!! 

 

Ok. first of all, O- I totally thought I was alone in saying Redonkulous. People laugh at me all the time, but I use it all the time. LOL

Daizy- I have those dreams too! I am not unusually scared of spiders, but every now and then I have terrible night terrors where I am convinced that spiders are crawling all over me and I wake up screaming and beating them off. Then I make D turn on the lights to prove they aren't there.

Abbs- I am glad that you are going through with the trainer even though D was being such a butt head

Ok, so I wrote this yesterday and forgot to post it. So i'll post it anyway and pretend a whole day hasn't gone by. Yeah :)

Happy 2009 my lovley ladies!!  We had a great productive day off yesterday and here I am back at work and then another two days off, yay!  No plans for the weekend aside from going to the grocery store and BJ's for some much needed staples in the house (milk, eggs, bread, hamburger, etc).  Then D's getting a haircut because he's starting to look like Kramer!  His hair gets very poofy when it's long.

I will eventually get to commenting in journals but again my computer keeps saying "cannot find page" when I click on add comment but when I hit the refresh or back button it always brings me back to 'my friends journal'.  So I did read they just couldn't comment.

My left eye is twitching, what an odd feeling. 

Hi girls.  Happy New YOU!

Life has been hectic to say the least, but I'm going ot try and be better about saying hello and commenting journals. 

Does anyone know of any sites that calculate what you will look like at a lesser weight?  I know there is that one that does the avatar transformation, but I'm looking for something that will show a slimmer face, body, etc....  I know I'm probably fetching wind, but whatever.  Any ideas?

How was everyone's New Year?

Hugs ~ Chelsie

that's just redonkulous, peanut ---  LOL  

agreed on the personal training and I am glad he apologized.  ABBS ---- LOL, Kramer is the best.   and I totally just snorted at the idea of you with Cosmo.  that;s hot.    what's up with the eye?? 

HEY CHELSIE!!!!   long time, no see, party girl!!     how are you?    I just quick googled and couldn;t find anything, but I also couldn't think of a good way to ask google for what I wanted.....   ladies?    I'd love to use that kind of thing if you find one....  heck, I might even wanna look at an avatar one...     I need to figure out if my goal is really 140 or what....   I am so close I can taste.  150 is toast.    (well, that;s the goal anyway)

I already ran this morning, unloaded my dishawasher and reloaded it.  I am procrastinating all the school work I still have to do and all the luandry putting away.   I would rather go help S ---  today's activity?   spraypainting the can lights I so slavishly sanded.....   oi vay.  I can't believe my break is almost over. 

OH and tomorrow my parents and S and K are coming to help put panelling and baseboards back up while ladies paint.  YAY  ---  been a long time coming, that dang project.    I am so glad I got motivated and cleaned all those things off the other day and brought them in already.  GO ME.  it;s cold now and that would have sucked.   WOO HOO

Hey chelsie!  We're always here and chatting away, feel free to drop by anytime!!  I don't know of any website like that but I'm sure if you post a thread in the lounge someone will know of one!

Olivia~ yes, go you for getting that done!  Go get your schoolwork done so you don't have to do it Sunday night!!  All of your demo stuff is making me want to start a new project!

I'm trying to figure out what the next step is in the house for us.  I need to finish the dresser project.  The physical dresser is done but the old one is still in place and the new one is just sitting in the middle of the room.  I need to clean out the closet in that room and get the old dresser situated in there (yay storage) and the get the new dresser in place.  I might tackle that this weekend although it means cleaning a closet which is always a bigger project than I initially think it will be!! 

I am so sad as I sit here aqnd type this drunk...........     been talking to this awesome guy onlone and now he is going away for 9 weeks.  ouch.    that sucks.       also J had a freaking meltdown at S and K's Sat night...........   BAD.     like he hates me with vast venom........       that sucks too......             gosh.   I am feeling.........      hateful about myself in response.  and without any friends to lean on, it is painful.    

still reading my posts, J???????????????????????????????/     

Hey Janay, I hope that you are feeling better now.....sorry that we haven't been in here to hang out with you this weekend :( But know that I am hoping for only positive things for you in this new year......

Sorry he had a major meltdown, too. That sucks.

 

he just hates me so much....................   &nb sp; he's on some downward spiral, and that sucks.  

I'm so lonely.  

I hear you on the lonely bit.  It's hard to ring in a new year alone; to spend Christmas alone.  I did it.  This year will be different, Liv.  You deserve the world, girlie.  J is only freaking out because he knows he can't have you anymore.  Losing a loved one causes grief, no matter whether they have died, or just chosen to end the relationship.  It seems as though J is on the 2nd stage of grief, but in my experience it goes back and forth depending on the day.  He just needs to complete the cycle, and move on.  Here are the 5 Stages of Grief:

• Denial (this isn't happening to me!)
  
• Anger (why is this happening to me?)
  
• Bargaining (I promise I'll be a better person if...)
  
• Depression (I don't care anymore)
  
• Acceptance (I'm ready for whatever comes)

he's been through most of the phases a couple of times  ----  namely denial to begin with, then depression/anger.  Just seems like this WRATHFUL SCARY ANGER one is taking a long time and it is effecting a lot of people besides him. 

Sorry to be so depressing, XTC girls.    It;s never this quiet....   ) :

Hi ladies!  Sorry i haven't been in yet today, things are crazy at work and I gotta get going back to it.  My first training session was killer on my legs!  I gotta to remember to eat more before I go Wed, I felt like I was going to die!

Olivia~ you will get through this.  Focus on school and getting back in your routine and finding a second job.  Don't worry about J, you can't control his actions so just let him be on his self destructive path.  Lonliness will pass, keep putting yourself out there and meeting new people!

glad training was good  ( : 

I know you are right, abbs -----      just not sure how to get there in one piece. 

You don't have to get there in one piece.  Focus on one thing right now.  Pick something off your list and just get that accomplished.  Finding a job: how about that one?  It will help you financially and it will keep you occupied instead of drinking all night and you will get to meet new people.  We can all suggest a hundred things to do but only you can do them.  We all have faith in your and know that you will come through this.

Sorry ladies but another busy day at work, I'll try and get back in later today.

Where is everyone today?!  I just got back here to read journals and then flew over here.  My co-worker thinks I'm in the bathroom beacuse I just needed a break from them!  So I snuck in here to smile for a few mins before I have to get back.