Day 1... yet again!

It has been months since I was honest with myself about what I am eating.  Its been weeks since I sincerely exercised.  Its been days since I gave up soda.  Its been hours since I signed on here and actually tallied my calories again.

What is so dang tough about doing this? When this is about life, health and mental happiness, why cant I keep focused longer than a few months?   I was so gung-ho.  Studying the net, reading articles, learning and sharing that knowledge.  Its not like I unlearned what I studied?

I prefer high fiber, to me the crunchiness of hearty breads is so much tastier.  I do not enjoy the acid of pepsi, yet I grab it.  Anyone have a theory on why munching chips is so much less effort, when I feel lazy, than munching carrots,... which are so yummy?

Where has my head been? I put myself in physical pain with this extra weight, I feel it in my knees.  I see the effect of it in my cheeks and my ankles.  Whoosh...

I do not want to think of this as just starting over.  Its re-education.  I am waffling between pounding myself for long term distraction and laziness and congratulations for trying again.  ~ Lost Artist
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i hear you. great post.  idk where my head was either, but it came back a couple of months ago and i'm so damn happy.  welcome back and all the best to you.  you know what to do and why.  i hope you also know you CAN, because it is so.  ;)

::holds the hand of one person who relates... ready to form a big long line of strong minded people:: 

Thank you Kailie.  Day 2.  Heading out for a walk so I can feel that I am actively attacking this.   I have to tell myself that it is ok not to be consistent, because in my life as an artist, consistency has always meant being bored.

So today is probably actually Day 1 all over again.  Today what will I do good for me?  Today I wont beat myself up for not lifting weights or not swimming.  Today I will walk instead.  Or climb stairs?  or chug water?  Today has to be a step forward for me, not a look back with regret.

::Goes to lace up her stinky ole sneakers and hooks the leashes on the dogs:: ~ Lost Artist
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Holy crap! You put into words how I feel right now! Thank you! I am choosing to be proud of us for starting again! It's all we can do!

Of course day one starting over will have to be tommorrow for me! Today is SHOT!

I hear you loud and clear.. I have been gone away from this site  for 4 months, and have gained 8 lbs back.. What is wrong with me.  I am back on the wagon full force...  Christmas wishes are 199 for me, 29 lb weight loss here I come..

I'm with you all!  I went off the wagon for a year and a half - how did that happen?  I don't know, but I'm happy to be back, even if I'm starting all over again.  I also have difficulty staying with it for more than a few months at a time....so I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I can hang in longer this time.  I'm thinking that I'll do really well this time until about mid-December, get derailed for a couple of weeks...and then hopefully the start of January will entice me to buckle down again; usually I'm pretty good in the winter months.

Welcome back! 

Lost Artist,

Excellent post! Boy oh boy have I been there and done that.  :)  You describe accurately how I have felt in the past.  I could kick myself for all the wasted time from falling off the wagon.  Hopefully I can stay on this time and continue on to reach my goal.  Good luck to you.

Rachel

Day 1....  again. 

Somehow saying that feels refreshing instead of depressing.  A new view of things for me, to be sure.  But its a clean slate.  The pizza I had 2 days ago, not going to beat myself up.  Today I am renewed and I start my journey from where I stand.  Today I head forward not back.  The goal is to leave that baggage behind, after all.  So if I am shedding the physical baggage of my spare tire, why not forego bringing along the emotional baggage of guilt? 

I cant always be positive.  But again, no guilt, I wont beat myself up for negative days in the past, be they spiritually negative or food consumption negative.  Today is DAY ONE.  Today I get to a whole new chance.  Today... I will walk to work.  ::smiles:: ~ Lost Artist
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Lost Artist I agree with rachelrobin you have excellent posts.  I am trying not to feel so bad about all my days I don't do so great but I really want to do better and I think this website is going to help me at least I hope it does. 

Thanks Lost Artist.  I am back after a week's vacation.  I drank coffee, ate sweets, basically it was a free-for-all.  I'm back now and back to counting.  I was actually looking forward to getting back on track since everything was out of whack by the end of the week, my waistline, my digestion and my allergies! 

However, the day one thing doesn't work for me because I feel like such a failure when I feel like I'm going back to the very beginning.  It's like back sliding or something and I have a hard time with backtracking.  I even hate to go two blocks in the wrong direction just to get to a highway. I want to keep moving forward no matter what.  So anyway, that being said I have decided that everytime I stray off my healthy lifestyle I just have to make sure I get back asap.  I don't put a specific timeframe on it.  I just say, well that was an unhealthy couple of weeks or days.  Then when I'm back on track I'm proud that it only took X number of days or weeks. 

I've come to believe these are life's little detours, but "tours" all the same with things to see and lessons to learn.  Here's what I learned on my last detour, "Ice Cream really does a number on my gut so find a good soy one and get over it!!" 

Good luck and thanks for the well-timed motivation I needed! 

Yesterday I left the house for work, then back tracked inside to get my umbrella.  Not only did that save me from walking 12 blocks in the rain without it after work, but it also helped me remember to give my puppy his meds for the morning.

Not all backtracking is bad.  Sometimes it helps you see that your car has a burned out tail light?  Or that you left the coffee pot on? Or that, if you look at your path again, maybe you can do better taking the left fork in the road instead of the right?

Me? ::smiles:: Today is day 1 again and I reduced my daily latte down to a medium for the first time in over 6 months.  Sure I back tracked to let my very old dog catch up (has 3 dogs) on the walk, but reducing that is a big step forward to.

Maybe think of all this as a dance? ::chuckles:: Keep your weight up on your toes.  Be ready to slide your feet in any direction to keep your balance.  And dont stop moving? ~ Lost Artist
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